[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

18/90

 

21/90 Three weeks down!

 

I relapsed im starting again from today 0 /90

 

Day 2 and it's getting more difficult, but I'm staying strong!

 

Day 25

 

NO

 

Day 81/90

 

Day 0 checking in. I am free only during morning and night. In between I will be busy with work in office and will be around people. So I should plan to avoid relapse after I wake up and before going to bed.

 

I relapsed im starting again from today 0 /90

 

I relapsed im starting again from today 0/90

 

Day 73
13 days without a drink
Had the mother of all urges to fap over porn but thankfully didn't. There is clearly a void in my life I'm trying to fill but at the moment I'm not clever enough to identify it yet alone resolve it. I'm going to re-read man's search for meaning by Viktor Frankl to see what answers that might produce. I just wish I could find something that gives me the same buzz as getting undivided attention off beautiful women seem to produce for me. It's strange why I do love it so much because I'm not particularly sexual, even if they wanted to have sex with me, at the moment it would be a toss of a coin wether I could satisfy them or not..There is a definite trigger for my erections as there is for anything else.

At the moment hot women that can make me laugh are my kryptonite. I think I may be what is called a sapiosexual. Women with great minds wether it be sexual, social, intellectual or even creative have an unhealthy power over me, especially if they have a body to match.

 

Day 5

 

Day 35 done!

 

Only 10 days left, great.
Day 13. Did not post it yesterday, but now I make it everyday further.

 

5/90

 

Yeah good Idea. Maybe you find some more specific patterns too. I had in the past the problem, that when I was sleeping on my belly, I had gotten a hard one and wanted to fap. Now I,m stopped sleeping on my belly.

 

Day 20 done!

 

I don't know. we are not supposed to look at or care about it anymore. You should not care either!

 

Day 55

 

Day 37