The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Sorry to hear that. Remember that you need to have a healthy outlet for this stress. But obviously, you've got this, you can't go 218 days in a row without some stress. Good luck!

 

I was having bad time after my relapse to porn [5 mins destroyed my 25 days of progress ]. But I didn't fap, proud of myself. I am now going to take my life in control and achieve my dream college and my dreams. Love you all and good luck.

 

Day 90!!!

 

Day 13!

 

Day 19, I think! The past few days I've started uninstalling capture apps and it is interesting to see how phone time has increased in this last year, and I've treated it like it's normal.
Anyway, had an urge today and almost entered the naughty websites but I saw no reason why would would someone feed this to the mind.

 

I am doing No PMO (hard mode). Thanks.

 

Oh I read that too holy crap I gotta shape up living like a manchild not to get all down on myself it is just the sad reality

 

Yes sir!! I am a Grey Wizard now.

 

Thanks.

 

Day 55 and 56 ! i feel focused and on track

 

Day 2 completed

 

Day 74

 

A very thoughtful post, ListenPaul!
Well I think you forgot that recovery means living life as one should (plus the recovery work). Everything is better than pmo'ing the whole day away, so I don't regret those days where instead I did recovery work LITERALLY the whole day. I think I made a invisible transformation in my early reboot days (years ago) - I read the first time about porn addiction, admitted, found the community, learned to talk about the addiction and my damaged life. I was not alone! And for everything that has happened there was a reason, for every symptom there was a name. I think a megaton was relieved from my shoulders. Thus my first streak was the second longest until now.

But I agree with you, when we don't focus enough on recovery, when we stop going to our "meetings" we are probably just on the direct route to relapse. In life everything can trigger us to use: too much joy (dopamin?), too much distraction, too much stress, anxiety, failure, boredom. It's also dangerous to do things just as you used to, even "neutral" things. Yes, even your stinky old wallpaper can be a trigger.

I think the reason that there aren't recovery centers for porn addicts all over the place yet is that we don't rob, don't die in the streets, don't cost society a lot of money (not directly at least) and so on. We just create profits for the porn industry and most of the time we sit in our homes and keep absolutely quiet about our condition.

It's a little stupid to do recovery on your own, if you are a severe addict but at least there's this community and .. it is how it is. I think I've learned to live with this addiction and at the same time with recovery. It's not optimal and my goal is to quit porn once and for all. But I won't take the next three months off for a reboot. Yeah, it would make sense if I was in a recovery center. But at home? I wouldn't know what to do, how to pass my time aside from not looking at porn.
So what I'm doing is just living my life. As good as I can.

 

Are you serious about weight lifting and gaining muscle? That should give you the perfect reason to stop drinking
or reduce

 

...on the other hand if you have broken legs you gonna need crutches but if you got your legs working again it would be silly to use them. Try to think of length of this challenge as of healing time(500 days only) I'm sure if we won't interrupt the healing process we can walk well on our own .