The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 3

Another pretty chill day again. Admittedly, I did spend a little too much time playing games with my friends so I didn't have time to workout and shower.

No notable urges today.

 

I have been edging these last couple days. Now that I'm back on NoFap, I will update the counter to reflect that. So, I went about three weeks this time without any PMO including edging. That's probably the longest I have gone yet. I plan to break that record right now though. Not looking to make my wife upset anymore.

So yeah, back to day zero, but not as ashamed of myself this time. I did not do as badly.

 

437 days

 

Checking in Tired, off to bed

 

Day 11,

Urges paid me a visit tonight. Intending to steer clear of any fishing or lewd behavior.

Thank you Fellowship for your support and friendship!

 

Day 227

 

It is 4:40 am, I got up! Now making a list for the morning and the day.

 

4 days
This I'll make it.

 

Day 123, trod on!

 

This is yesterdays check-in. I've been a bit sleep deprived lately so I decided to wake up as late as possible and go to sleep as early as possible. It worked well, so today I feel more rested, but I had to sacrifice the physical exercise routine because I had planned to do it in the evening. I'm starting to realise the importance of good planning of ones days and also to stick to the plan one has made.

Spoiler: Daily tasks

1. Physical exercise. (Not done.)
2. Meditation. (Done.)
3. Study about reboot. (Done.)
4. Eating in moderation. (Done.)

 

Planning and sticking to the plans are key for me as well.

Checking in.
No M: indicated by counter
No P: day 330

 

Day 4,

It is a bitter sweet feeling to feel such strong urges so early in my reboot. But even though it’s hard, it is real. In the past I had times I would binge like crazy and literally have no more semen left in my body… and then I would start the streak and for a couple of days or even a week it would be find.

This time it is different. This time I’ve already faced my fears and stayed home alone a couple of times and survived a stronger man. I had a couple of sexual interaction with my girlfriend that did not ended with an O for me, so I stayed extra horny the next day. And in general I am in a weird place with sex in my relationship at the moment. But I’m writing about it more in the “reboot in a relationship” sub form and they really help me think about her and not just my own well being.

I’ve been thinking a lot about what @ListenPaul had said and I think that for the first time I’m going to give it all to the reboot. In the past I was nerves about something and then I’ve fapped. And the shitty part is that it really helped me stopped being nerves. But that cycle would just keep hurting me and so this time I’m not going to give in. I’m not saying that I’ll make it to 500 days on this run at all cost, even though I did fall in love with the idea that I can start 2022 as a grey wizard if I get my shit together from now on.

 

Day 4, and I really have some problem dealing with the addiction.
I'm sorry I was watching porn for some time, when I was ready to relapse, my streak of NO PMO just hit me and I stopped. But I still feel terrible, it seemed that the addiction controlled my mind, I just did that like a robot, I dont know how to deal with that.
Actually it happens every three days, even I really dont want to do those bad things, the addiction forced me to do that. So, I turn to you for some help, I do need some suggestions to overcome the miserable feelings!

 

Day 1. I WANT IN!! I WILL MAKE IT!!

 

Day 76

 

Day 31. A lot of things to do today ,but everything is going pretty well .

 

Day 5
Well I am overall good just sometimes I am feeling very emotionally sad I think it is due to demand of my brain to give dopamine of much more amount which is released during watching p so I can't fulfill it from any other source so it means I have to suffer from sadness and for short term relief I am trying to get little bit dopamine from other sources like from excercise, meditation , cold shower etc. Btw beginning days are difficult and main tool in these days is awareness, vigilance , sexual transmutation ...

 

5 days >> Orc (The spell of porn is really strong in me)

 

Day 1 again -.-

 

Day 220 no PMO. I got 7.5 hours of sleep and woke up in a really good mood. Hope everyone has a great day. We can beat this addiction together!