[7-CHALLENGE] THE SEVEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 3 of 7 (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content)

Bad day today.I'm gonna go to sleep now.

Just tired

 

Day 0

 

Day 5/7

Another chill day. My therapist had a power cut today so we've moved the session to tomorrow, I've also got my first accountability group session tomorrow too so I'm looking forward to meeting everyone and seeing how that goes. I spent a lot of time playing games with friends today so I didn't have time to watch Squid Game again today.

I had a couple of urges today I think mostly caused by triggers that I've seen before popping back up in my head as well as my addiction's voice being generally quite loud today.

 

Back on the horse and have had a great past two days, I'm onto day 3/7 now

 

Day 4 of 7 (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content)

Just started my day. I saw the morning sunshine for the first time in so so long. It was a beautiful feeling

 

Day 2

 

Day 3/7...
Insomina is the main cause of my relapses.M is a matter of grave concern.And.....Moving forward to see for more positive changes.

 

Day 6/7

Another good day. I had a very vivid dream that I relapsed which I 100% believed until I woke up and realised it was just a dream so that was pretty scary. Still keeping myself busy so I didn't have time to work out or watch Squid Game again. Today's therapy and first group accountability session went really well, it was really nice meeting everyone in the group.

I had a couple of urges today due to visual triggers and flashbacks to previous visual triggers.

 

Day 5 of 7 (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content)

It was an eventful day. Full of stress, which is just another opportunity to practice further detachment from sentiments.

 

Nearly through day 4! Controlling my urges and not viewing any P. Keeping active when I can and staying motivated. Can't wait to pass day 7!

 

Day 1/7.

 

Day 4/7...
Not to give in to self limiting forces and beliefs.

 

Day 0

 

Day 7/7

Still keeping myself busy with work.

I had a couple of urges today caused by visual triggers:

POSSIBLE TW
I was listening to music on spotify and the album cover had a naked woman standing at an angle so you could barely not see her nipples. The other situation was that I was watching a video about The Enigma of Amigara Fault (a Junji Ito horror manga) and ironically the theme of that story is impulse. During the video, whist they were talking about other examples of impulse, of course they brought up sex and they literally just straight up showed a sex scene clip from some movie in the background whilst the guy narrating was still talking about impulses. It was a YouTube video so it obviously wasn't straight up showing fully uncensored sex, but there were boobs on screen. For both of these situations I immediately looked away and ignored them, but obviously the immediate shock from seeing them gave me an urge.

 

Day 6 of 7 (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content)

Lately, I've been drawing inspiration from a female Youtuber. She leads a clean and disciplined lifestyle. I kind of like her, but then again I am drawn to personalities, and I'm drawn to her self-discipline, keeping real, and emotional stability. I'll be there atleast until I reach about 25 days of sobriety, after which I generally become my own direction.

 

I’ve just finished the 3 day challenge. Glad to be here, ready to smash out the 7 day.

Day 0/7.

 

Closing out day 5, feeling very good and not many urges today. This is the closest I've been to 7 days in a long, long time! Feeling very motivated and excited.

 

Day 5/7 .
Was Relatively difficult mentally.

 

Day 2/7.

 

Day 7 of 7 (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content)

High on testesterone!