EMS/Firefighting and Nofap

Hello all, I am a 19 year old male, out of the great state of Colorado. It has been a little over a year since I started my Nofap journey, and my longest streak was close to 50 days. I got my EMT cert May of this year, and wanted to create a thread to see if there are any other EMS/Fire guys on here as well. Currently My goal is to become a firefighter paramedic, and every day is super exciting being able to work in EMS. Relapses have been kicking my ass recently. I guess this will be an open discussion/journal for me. If any of you amazing people are in a position similar to mine I would love to start up a group here on Nofap. If you need advice for anything EMS related, I can also try to answer to the best of my ability.

 

Yeah I appreciate that. It is definitely a bit scary at times, but I love it. What are you planning to do instead?

 

That's is super sweet! How has your experience been with EMS so far?

 

Yeah, I can definitely see it. I'm going through a paramedic prep program right now of which is fun. Hopefully P school can get you to where you want to be. In the company I work at right now I can tell who out of the employees are burnt out. One of the paramedics I was with for an event I was working would openly just yell and cuss at people who were walking in the road outside the venue. Kind of an asshole to be honest. I hope that I don't have to partner with guys like him once I move up in the field a bit.

 

Just relapsed after 8 days. I ended up here by being lazy and staying in the house on one of my days off, when I could have been studying or literally anything else. I am going to at very least double this streak now. I understand that my failure came because i was playing with fire. I made the choice to be complacent, and it bit me in the ass.

 

Thanks for the comment, your words are truly motivating. I hope that with time I can learn new ways to keep myself on this wagon. If you don't mind me asking, what has your situation with nofap been like?

 

I appreciate your advice. I will speak to this individual the next time I see him and let him know I'm not cool with that behavior. The only thing that kind of worries me is that I am fairly new to the company whereas this person is a longtime employee. I suppose its better to stand up for something you believe than to stand silently and let it happen.

 

Made it 10 days, then relapsed due to me not remaining disciplined. I got caught up in the feeling of being horny and got lost in the sauce. Was supposed to be finishing an assignment but I told myself to take one look at pictures of attractive girls. This lead to me taking a deep dive and relapsing pretty hardcore. The next time I feel these horny thoughts coming over me I will put the computer away and go for a drive to listen to music and clear my head. This relapse is no big deal and is only a small speed bump in my grand recovery. Life goes on!

One important thing to note is that a girl I hang out with is clearly very attracted to me. Went for a drive with a group of friends. They had alcoholic beverages, but since I am focused on recovery I am keeping consumption of alcohol to a minimum. I was the DD and drove us to a beautiful mountain spot with a view. The whole way up from the back seat she could not keep her hands off me, stroking my chest, running her hands through my hair, etc. I just tried to focus on the road, but the way she was touching me was very distracting. Probably should have told her to stop, but my monkey brain wouldn't let me. we got back to her place and started watching movies as a group. I sat on a couch, and she laid down, draped her legs over me, and scooted herself so she was pretty much sitting on my lap. I didn't know what to do, so I just set my hands on her legs and kind of gave her a massage I guess. She enjoyed it so i kept doing it. every once in a while she would move and her leg would rub against my junk. I tried so hard not to get an erection lmao.

Im not sure if I want to try anything with this girl because I know she does not want a relationship. I know that she partly influenced my relapse, because I entertained thoughts of being with her in the shower today. I clearly need to be more disciplined with how I go about my home life and free time. But should I try and pursue a sexual relationship with her? I guess time will tell. A lot of my friends are telling me I should go for it. I like her, but we are just so different I don't know if it is a good idea to try. She as an attractive girl, and we get along really well when it's just joking around and having fun, but we have completely different sets of morals and our views of the world couldn't be further apart. Yet when I'm around her, her presence is almost intoxicating. The way she looks at me and the way her hand slowly drags off my back after a hug is so unbelievably powerful. I think the best course of action is to remain cool and collected and let whatever plays out happen.

 

Having a rough bout recently. The relapses seem to be happening before. I can do anything to stop it. This happens primarily before I go to bed, and If I sit around doing nothing for a day. My plan is to avoid my room with the exception of using it for only sleeping. On the bright side I started driving the ambulance and I love my job. The night shift where I work is exceptional. We run a few calls at night and I get to hang around a fun group of people. I am getting pretty good at starting IV's, (In the scope where I practice, as well as in the scope for AEMT which i'm going to school for.) I am ready to start this change. I am getting a super nice cooler/lunchbox, and am going to start bringing my own healthier food to work and school. I didn't know how much eating out was having a toll on me until I looked at photos from me from 8 months ago. I was jacked, and am kind of ashamed I let myself slip into unhealthy eating/ exercise habits. I will bring back the happiness working out and looking good brought me. Good luck to all of us on this journey. I have been thinking about why I relapse, and it is primarily because I let it. It is not some unstoppable force, but rather a set of actions and set choice points that i could choose to break, but instead I decide to indulge in it. My main problem is I have the "I'll do it tomorrow" attitude. This sense of procrastination is what will keep me from being exceptional. I am ready for this change. As of today, I declare the rest of 2021 will be mine for getting straight. I will have this effect spill over into 2022 and beyond. A positive shift in your perception and a little bit of effort can make amazing things happen. I am ready for this shift and will do anything it takes to make it happen.

 

Yeah man over here in the states it can be hard to get on depending where you try to go. I'm hoping to get on a more urban based department, so chances are I'll have to put myself through paramedic school to pretty much guarantee a spot.

 

Today was a rough one. We went over ECG stuff, mainly atrial rhythms and junctional rhythms. I understood most of what was taught, but I will need to study the hell out of it to feel confident in interpreting them. Urges have been low-key, and I have been nipping any slight thoughts in the bud.

 

I appreciate your words. It is quite an interesting job. The pay doesn't bother me too much so long as I get to do something I love.