I know I am addicted

Don’t think so bro. I know how you feel. I was once like that. Best thing to do is to believe you can do it yourself. Porn has never done good for you, and it never will.
just have that intent to break this addiction of yours, remove all sources of P in ur mind and environment, and watch you self mature and recover!!

 

Try getting new positive habits while you do Nofap. Working out, reading a book, playing a sport, etc…

 

I have been battling the same instantaneous urge and relapse. I have had some success the last few weeks by being intensely aware of my feelings moment to moment. Many times I’m feeling bored or anxious before the thought comes. I need to feel those and then go out myself in a place or activity where I can’t or won’t act out. I also act out on certain days and times and I need to be mindful of those situations and plan alternate activities.

 

You are correct, there is scientific proof that we have limited daily will power. So you need to use it smart.
Look what you telling yourself, you calling yourself monkey. Do you understand that it's only your mind does that? You have distant your self from your mind, consciousness it's not your mind, you need to raise your consciousness
to the level that you can spot your mind telling you ideas about world and you can reply to your mind from your consciousness that this idea is not truth. If you are consciousness enough you can hear your mind screaming "I need watch porn!", you can ask "why you think you need to watch it". And start conversation and make it as long as you feel you need so.
And until you find out that you don't, or maybe you find out that you need to watch, just try and see what happens.

 

Its a frustrating and back and forth journey for sure. I think the best thing is to keep trying different strategies, try focusing more on building the life you want and less on simply not fapping(sometimes this can help people a lot, or it can make them lose focus but i think you might as well try). Eventually you'll start finding that certain things help more than others.

 

I’m not much of an expert at anything (except relapsing). There’s all kinds of ways to go at this. Not to over-simplify, but when I’m feeling stuck I get on here and read and write stuff.

Wish I had better answers for you, dude, but prefer to be honest. We’re in this together, though, so you’re not alone.

One day at a time.

 

What do the posters show? Have they worked?

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I think you need new posters, then.
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Just no pin-ups, you dog.

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I sympathize. You are making the same mistake I was before I finally got traction. You are trying not to look at porn instead of trying to improve your lot in life. How many hours do you spend in the gym each week? What are your hobbies (physical skills, reading and video games doesn’t count)? What does your social life look like?

Your life is a garden. You are obsessively ripping at the weeds of porn and in so doing spreading their seeds. Start spending more time in other parts of the garden planting different seeds and tending to different growths. Start exercising a lot. Take hour long classes with an instructor and other people and then go lift on your own. Put the effort in to finding a better job if you aren’t happy with your current one. Buy a guitar and spend a lot of time learning how to play. Go take an art or sculpture class of some kind and spend a lot of time doing that. In short, find better ways to spend your time. Work on turning your life into a life you want to live and stop working on quitting porn. Let freedom from porn be a byproduct of other changes that you make. Let those weeds die on their own.

I am not saying you won’t ever look at porn again if you take this approach. I am saying you will look at porn less if you find other things to do that you like doing. And given enough time and effort invested into doing other things you want to do you are more likely to position yourself such that you put porn behind you for good.

 

Then get started.