Feeling alienated

I think you have to get angry, dude. Get some emotion going, stir yourself up. Do you fast? Get hungry, put on some death metal, pushups, leave your junk alone, get some energy flowing. Supplements, good food, cold showers, ggrrrrrr, lets go!

Welcome back to the fold, amigo.

 

My response will be a bit long but bear with me...

First a very short backstory that is similar to yours. I reset my counter today as well because these last 2 days were horrible.
I've input all the details about my fall in my journal. And here is what I've found.

Today I feel like shit! Quite literally, in all meanings of the word. I KNOW that I lost all my benefits plus I feel my awkwardness around people is back as well.
My demeanor and aura that I had while on NoFap suddenly disappeared. My energy levels are DRAINED! Not low... drained! I feel I will fall asleep any minute now.
My depression is back as well and today I had thoughts full of hopelessness and despair.
And you know what I was thinking and what the correlation between all this is?
I never felt like that even for ONCE during NoFap! And my streak was never as higher as yours. I can only imagine how powerful you must feel down the road.
This sudden collapse in power, drive, happiness, aura and anything else connected is as good indicator as any that this sh*t works!

Yet all this sadness I feel today didn't stop me from posting in my journal and being completely honest with anyone in the forums.
Why? Because this journal and your posts here are also for YOU! Reading them from time to time can give you a very powerful insight on yourself and your expressions.
Forget about dopamine hits, be present in the forums and commit not only to the streak but to the community as well.
The feeling from helping someone else can also be a powerful agent. You might not be particularly helpful but any opinion is welcome and can be the basis of a great discussion.

You want suggestions? Here is one that is not only for you but I like to have it written for me as well:

Regardless of how far you are in your streak starting at Day 0 hits different!
Imagine all these lost days and getting them back, starting all over is a pain in the ass!
Today is barely over... imagine how SLOW tomorrow will be as well... and the day after tomorrow...
So you need to wait say for 90 days FROM TODAY to reach the potential you had easily conquered already.
That would hurt like hell!
Starting all over is terrible. Yes, you are wiser now and it will probably be easier for you, but at what cost?!

I feel like all of us have to take this into account and learn from this the hard way!

Bless you brother!

 

We are all here because we are battling. I think everyone who is in this fight makes this community stronger. This is my first 26 days streak in years. I am very thankful to God and this community. Keep in the fight and don't give up!