The Lord of the Rings Challenge

You're right, bro. A big part of me does not want to leave the life with porn behind me. I've been using on a regular basis since before I was a teenager. I enjoy it and I can still live a good life while consuming porn, i.e. be social, work hard towards my goals, date girls, etc. I'm too comfortable with the way things has always been for me, and I find it hard to see myself without porn in life. But a part of me also knows that this addiction is holding me back, and that it can get much worse, but it's hard to find that determination you're talking about.

 

92 days

 

Thanks! It definitely does.

 

Day 1

Feeling all right, I've gotten some things done today. Cold showered this AM, still need meditation and prayer.

So, some initial thoughts as I try to figure out why I use PMO: It's a retreat. A little preserve away from real life where I can forget about things that bother me for a while. I go there when things are really bothering me, or when there are things I don't want to do and feel overwhelmed thinking about them.

That's all I have to say right now. Just getting some thoughts down.

 

I just saw this. Cool.

 

Day 254 no PMO. Last night at the hotel by myself went fine. No issues. I read some of your posts this morning but then had to head out to meetings before I could post an update. I’ll post again tomorrow morning. So far so good.

 

awesome job!! you should be very proud of this. It is not an easy thing to do

 

You're crushing it!

 

Dang @HE^MAN !! unbelievable. Destroy the ring!!

 

Day 3 complete.

It was bloody cold outside today, so rather than going for a run (I don't have my winter running stuff with me, I'll pick it up from home over Thanksgiving), I decided to go to the university gym to check out their pool. Nice facility, I had the place mostly to myself since it was around lunchtime, and the water was quite warm, relatively speaking. I used to swim regularly, about twice a week, as part of my exercise plan. A couple years ago, at the start of a new school year when my schedule changed, I had to cut back on that significantly. Then, when Covid began, the pool where I swam was shut down, and so I haven't incorporated any swimming as exercise in around two years. I only stayed for about 25 minutes, but that was enough time for 1,000 meters, and my arms were feeling sore enough by the end. The winters here are harsher than I'm used to, so it may be that a good chunk of my running gets shifted to swimming for the season. I'm excited to build up my endurance for that sport again.

Being off Snapchat has been nice. Way fewer distractions, and it's allowing me to be more purposeful in my interactions with friends. What's funny about social media is that the longer you stay, the less of a social aspect there seems to be.

St. Martin de Porres, pray for us!

 

Day 262

 

39 days
This time I'll make it to the 90

 

How do I update my counter to 15 days?

 

Yeah, if I would've done this in any other place, it would've been a total reset of the counter. It was just a thing that I wanted to try on my first trip there and this time I had the time, circumstances, and money to do it. Circumstances like these, would probably never occur If I hadn't been on NoFap. So keeping on this journey is a must.

 

Day 56! It has been more than one year since I first seriously engaged in NoFap! Feels like it's been longer than that, as so many things changed in my life. Even though I managed to pass the 90 mark just once, being on this journey kept me sane and strong when the hard days came. Sure, there is still a lot of being alone popping up, but that has to do more with being an ex-pat during isolating times.
I have a full-time job, I live on my own in the city center, I've started making some friends, been through amazing, or at least, interesting adventures, learned about myself, the body, and the mind. Discovered dimensions I never knew existed and I am currently on the journey of connecting properly with the present. Would I make it? Who knows... The important thing is... I would've probably never be here, if I didn't decide to see where the energy can go to if it is not concentrated on porn.
Stay safe Emperors! And ride this wave!

 

472 days

 

Day 0