The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 2

Having a great day, with workout and cold shower and even some research accomplished. I still need to meditate and pray today.

I've really been trying to reflect on how I am in charge of my own life and decisions and the power I have to change things I don't like.

 

Day 2 - Orc
sorry for not posting yesterday for Day 1, I was feeling really shitty and tired so I just forgot and went straight to bed.

I managed to get myself to go out today even though it's super cold. It started raining a lot whilst I was out too, but I didn't mind it too much, watching the rain ripple through the pond when it hit the water was really calming despite everything being freezing cold. I managed to work out and shower later as well. I didn't get much work done but it's fine I'm not stressed about my deadline, I know that I'll get it done on time.

I had a pretty strong urge today which gave me quite a strong stomach ache but I managed to deal with it by writing down my thoughts and talking to my friends for a little bit.

 

Day 263

 

40 days – You try to pass through Caradhras but the PMO forces were strong there. You make a detour to the Dwarven Realm of Moria.

This time I'll make it to the 90

 

Day: 1
Just a busy day working along side my wife. What could go wrong?

It takes like 15 min to read through all the new posts. Its always interesting, but I don’t think I will be reading all of them.

 

Solid. Doing 6 with a negative one on the way down.

 

0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a great King, now fallen to the power of PMO)

I spent time with an ex last night and this morning and realized I still have pied. That frustration led me to relapse unfortunately... I will officially be taking the 90 day challenge again and turning my day counter on as of today as I initially started nofap in an effort to solve that problem. I will also join the official thread for the 90 day challenge and track my progress daily similar to how I do here in order to place greater emphasis on reclaiming my record.

I hope to never serve Sauron again!

 

Day 11 - Uruk-Hai

Yesterday a sick day at home with heavy urges, but resisted and said No! To them in the end.

 

489 days high king
558 days semen retention

 

Day 112

 

Day 256 no PMO. It’s 4am here in California and I just checked out of the hotel after a successful (while short) third night. Fly home to my family today. No urges yesterday as I kept to my plan of no YouTube and no Facebook. Have a great day everyone.

 

@Ready_to_Stop congratulations on completing yet another PMO free trip! Have a safe flight home and enjoy being back together with your family

 

Day 16 - Hobbit

Had the strongest urge in a while yesterday. One of my coworkers kept pointing out a mistake I made to people, and it was extremely frustrating, because we sit next to each other and usually get along. I think he thinks of it as a joke, but he has more experience than me, so if he says I did something wrong, I can’t really fight back because he plays the seniority card. Again, he’s usually chill, I don’t think he realizes that what he said has had this effect on me. I’m going to talk to him one on one and ask him to tell me about mistakes I’ve made individually rather than in front of the whole group. I think he will be receptive, I don’t think he’s intending to be an a-hole.

Later last evening, I was trying to hand wash dishes in the kitchen sink, and one of roommates kept needing to use the sink. While using it he accidentally knocked a glass cup off the counter and shattered it (both of us barefoot). I was very fed up with the whole thing and left to go on a walk (after helping clean up the glass). Later that evening I really wanted to MO, I wanted to turn off all the unpleasant emotions that had accumulated over the day. I didn’t, I stuck to my routine and kept clean. I need to find a healthy way to express anger. I did workout yesterday, but it didn’t help a crazy amount. Incindentally, I had a wet dream for the first time in a long time. I’m holding on, but the road is getting rougher. Pray for me. Hope y’all are doing well, God bless.

 

Day 19 on my path of reboot.

 

Day 10

 

Same here. Day 10!

 

Yay It feels good. I'm happy to see you here.

 

Hey bro, yeah actually it is normal and it will be maybe the strongest one you will have along the streak, maybe on day 20-30 another strong but it won't be like that one.

After you passes it that one, it is easier, except by flatlines.

 

Day 1

 

Day 4 - Orc

I have not journaled, read, or showered in two days, so I need to make an effort at that these next several days. I don't mind missing my goals every four or five days, but I really don't want miss my goals two days in a row again. I have a set of ten goals I want to accomplish in a day and when I don't journal (accomplishments/goals, gratitudes/blessings, and fantasy analysis), read, or shower, I am already missing 50% of my goals.

The ten daily goals which I will put here are:

1) Journal about 3 of today's accomplishments (no repeating on a day to day basis) as well as set individual goals for the next day

2) Write in my gratitudes/blessings journal with 3 gratitudes (again unique) as well as 3 blessing I wish to give to people or things in life

3) Fantasy analysis journal

4) Shower

5) Read from a physical book

6) Practice Spanish

7) Practice German

8) Wake up at 5AM

9) Bed by 10PM (whether or not I am sleeping I need to be in bed with my devices shut down at 8PM)

10) Write for 15 minutes

Tuesday I met 60% of my goals

Wednesday I met 10% and Thursday I met 20%

I did not get up at 5AM today, but I hope to get 60% overall today.

NNN is going excellently. I have had a couple times where I was watching tv or YouTube and I saw something "sexy", but I just moved on and did not continue to look (no nudity, just bikini'd women or otherwise attractive women). I also have had really hard erections a couple times that I would have relieved with masturbation in the past, but now I just breathe to lower my blood pressure and they go away naturally. I know I will see something triggering at some point, which is why the fantasy journal is so important. If I know why I am triggered, then I can deal with the underlying stressor instead of giving in.

Hope all of your days are going well.

Best,
Mathman1994