Future Authoring Program vs bad mood

hello, i am currently writing my past authoring program, i find it very hard and time consuming... i will continue.
to motivate myself, what are your returns on the self authoring suite ? i am wondering !

this is the website for those wondering what the hell i am talking about, seems to have good scientific results.
https://www.selfauthoring.com

 

thanks

 

just finished writing my virtues, i completed most of the "past authoring", but i leave it on the shelf as i have wasted to much time (compared to my priorities, that is), i need to consider my faults and my future now.

 

just finished writing part 1 of the future authoring program... some things i knew already about myself already. some i would not have written outside of this state of automatic writing, interesting, i'll see what's next in the next days.

 

the FAP is great indeed ! (best joke of my ending day thanks !)

 

writing is thinking, and thinking is exhausting. i guess that's part of the process !

 

i just finished writing my future on https://www.selfauthoring.com now i have a plan for my future, i better stick to it... i am grateful for the last words :

Spoiler: from the future authoring program, if you consider doing it please don't read it

have a nice day.

i might be wrong, but apparently it's better to have a not so bad a plan for goals than no plan and no goals at all... so let's do it !

i must conclude my past authoring as well someday. today was a good day to finish this !

 

i realised i did not write about my conclusions about the future...

 

i'll write about my goals here: what i want, or what i aim is the following 7 goals:

1. i want to leave a legacy of good music that connects with people
2. i want to be reliable, by doing what i say i'll do
3. i want the relationships i have with my family and close friends to be alive
4. i want a stable and loving relationship with a girl
5. i want to stay in shape, to be able to lift (physically that is) people if needed, take care of the human body God gave me.
6. i want to be able to create useful things, electronic devices that i create, or computer programs.
7. i want to be able to eat food that i have worked for it to grow.

 

it's been more than a year and a half. i have adjusted my goals to be closer to what i can do in the near future. it still seems too ambitious. it's funny i did this list in my journal BEFORE coming back to this thread and i see that i write more or less the same way haha.

i have thought about my goals in life. 7 dimensions i need to have sorted through:

1. music: practicing an instrument and taking care of songs that need to be done.
2. work: being able to do something and get paid for it and provide for my close ones and live with enough freedom.
3. my body: being in shape and able to move and lift things, and be able to survive if i have to react quickly. eating ok and if i can: to keep my hair.
4. intimacy: this is where my addictions fits and living with someone intimate would be. being an honest individual that can be trusted.
5. social: going out and cut loose be able to have fun with friends.
6. my house: making sure my environment is hospitable and i can invite people whenever i say so.
7. growth: keeping on learning new thing. right now: driving.

i have rearranged some points. 6 and 7 from the previous list where removed because they are too adjacent to my life or absorbed into other dimensions. instead i added 6 because that wasn't in the plan but somehow my house is always a mess and I KNOW i can take care of it. and i added 7 because there's always something that needs to be learned so i might as well put it in the list.

even now that is a lot of things. but some things like point 6, 3 or 2 should be part of my routine which gives me more mental budget for the other things. after a year what i realise is that time goes by fast. it's more about NOT doing useless things, emptying your life in a way. that is scary. but it is the same as not spending money for inefficient food or stuff that you don't need. i hope that small change in perspective will make thing better but i will need to better think that through for sure. just not now because the day is almost over.

thank you.

 

just something from my recovery journal: on how i'm viewing my goals today. last time was 1 1/2 months ago but it came naturally so i thought i put it here and compare how stable are my goals. just a simple assessment.

things that keep my life "balanced":

1. my workout routine.
2. sleeping well at least 5 times a week.
3. cooking/eating well.
4. showing up to work on time.
5. (A) making music and (B) taking steps forward in my musical projects (A+B) everyday.
6. telling the truth more and more each day, being honest about what i do. that's why i don't want to masturbate or watch porn. that's part of being a better person at an intimate level.
7. build/create something with my engineering skills.
8. take care of the house.