The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Good work! Did you delete it?

 

Day 340 no PMO. Had an ok day yesterday. Nothing much to report. No triggers and no urges.

 

I don't have a clue bro! I think it involves screaming your lungs out.

 

Day 1

 

Primal scream therapy:

 

I made lot of enemies due to deep voice. Other men tend to see you as threat, for some reason if you're sporting deep voice. My experience.

 

Check in day 123

 

I won't have a very deep voice anyway, I just want to get to my natural deeper voice.

Plus if someone see you as a threat just for that, that's his problem... You ain't doing anything wrong

 

Another slip up. I had quite hard times after the first relapse. Chase effect was strong as hell and I ended up peeking after one day and the peeking turned into the whole dirty process.

I really have a hard time in getting over relapses. Deep inside I just want to give up and forget about it, and that's what I end up doing

 

Another step back into the shadow realm. I'm making it my last. Day 0.

 

sth to think about... very inspiring!
its not rly about alcohol - all he says has to do with mental illness and the cause of addiction in general.

 

Yup, straight away. I was so annoyed, I thought I had purged my laptop completely but it was hidden in a temp file

 

Checking in day 12. Its been a good day but not without urges. Especially on Instagram I find it so useful to have those Nofap memes ready to look at. I use them to block myself from making a mistake. Had some quite weird dreams but otherwise all good.

 

I want in, default counter is day 7 I believe.

 

8

(No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content)

3 AM and can't sleep. My head hurts.
4:04 AM still unable to fall asleep. Pain in head
I'm serious about recover after yesterday night. There's still some head pain. I'll make some coffee and get along with my day.

 

The longer you go without the more you 'enjoy' it and the deeper is the need to get the same dopamine high again, but can you survive without it or are you going to die without pmo? Is the urge going to kill you if you won't act out on it? No? Then why are you afraid? Why do you give in? You know that the reward is a sweet poison. C'mon bro, is it worth to pay with long suffering for the moment of slavery to sweetness?

 

Man I can't believe... just a few minutes ago I got a message in my inbox from a kik bot wanting to chat on kik for "sex chat".

 

Day 28

Been feeling especially tired today which hasn’t helped with urges, sat down to watch a film this evening and noticed my mind wandering to the thought of relapse. Thankfully the thought didn’t fester, but as I approach my PB I’m becoming more and more cautious of the state of my mind and how to avoid letting unhelpful thoughts take root.

Day off tomorrow and off to see my first rugby game, I’ve made it safely past the Ford of Bruinen - onwards to Rivendell!

 

Bath is also a trigger for me but I have threatened my mind with cold water if the temptation arises, so I am still managing it.

 

Day 11

I have had stronger urges and many times in the day I thought that the streak is over, but I am still here preparing everything for my journey.

Have a great day.