The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 4 complete!

It's late and I'm tired, so no big update. I made a very conscious effort to keep the door to my room open when I was feeling tempted this afternoon so that I wouldn't try anything. It worked. Small victories.

St. Peter, pray for us!

 

Day 71 complete.

Thank you all for congradulating me!

This day was better than the last, got a lot of work done.

 

10 days

No more gas from Russia. Time to start with cold showers then

I know this all too well. My boss is not causing my stress, I am.

 

Day 2.

 

Day 12 - Uruk-Hai, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

I like this one because the ring in the Tolkien books represents temptation and corruption, which is very fitting. So day 3. I guess I'm a lowly orc.

 

Day 6!

Personal record for the year 2022

Feeling strong in general, yesterday I’ve done a lot of things that gave me energy and hope so I’m feeling really clear and sharp without a lot of brain fog.

My only concern is that I’m planning to go to the gym today and a part of me hopes to see pretty girls there. A different part of me is fearful of that first part. I don’t think that I’m doing anything wrong, but the fact that I’m even aware that the chance to see women does something to me is kind of alarming.

All I can really do is just stay mindful and alert.

 

Dawn of the 18th day.

 

1 year and 1 day no PMO. Had a good day yesterday. Played some basketball with my younger daughter and took a walk with her. Took my older daughter to her softball practice and watched her come alive under the instruction from her new coach. We had hoped for a different coach but after the first practice it feels God had other plans and I’m happy we didn’t get what we wanted.
Keep your head in the game fellas. The path can be long but God has a plan and it will all work out the way it’s supposed to.

 

Day 20...
Fantasy filled dreams are trying to attract my attention once again...but i know these are only my brain's tricks to get its dopamine doses back....dreams about appealing people, rains, loneliness and also the chance to get slipped again into the arms of addiction..about everything of past experiences, those days and nights.........Life is uneasy...

 

Day 27

 

Check in day 149

 

Day 19!
Got up early, worked out and ate healthy. Keeping strong!

 

Day 11

 

Hey, we can recover together, let's see if we can both have 90 days in 89 days!

How many Tolkien books have you read?

I've read The Hobbit, LotR, The Silmarillion, and now I'm working on Unfinished Tales and Children of Húrin— which is included in Unfinished Tales but I'm reading the separate book of it, which I gather is slightly different, so I'll go back eventually and read the version that's in Unfinished Tales. Wife gave me as a Christmas gift last year a couple Tolkien books, Unfinished Tales and one of the twelve books in History of Middle Earth (which I'll refer to as HoME) by Christopher Tolkien.

HoME is a huge (like I say, 12 books) series including basically how J.R.R. wrote his books. When Wife gave me the one book (she didn't know anything about Tolkien so she randomly picked up a couple books I didn't have) I looked it up (I had not heard of HoME). I discovered that the one she had given me was one of three on LotR— each book of HoME corresponds to one J.R.R. book apparently— so I bought the set of all three of those. They're in the middle of the 12 books, so maybe I'll buy the other 9 if I like these.

Reading Tolkien reminds me to keep free of PM. The more I read, the more inspired I am to be good.

 

You have to start somewhere. Good luck, let's do this!

 

Day 10 uruk

 

It's alarming because you don't know what you'll do with the excitement of seeing them? I mean, it is perfectly natural and good to get interested in real women. Instead of fantasizing sex, imagine what you could say to them that might be constructive, like seeing if you share an interest with them, something that edifies, instead of tearing down women like pm did. When I think of women this way, it helps me recover, not that I ogle, so I understand where you're coming from. If I think of what I might really say to them as people, like they were 'one of the guys', it helps me not to ogle, fantasize sex, or objectify. Think of what is important to women: safety, security, respect, etc.— anti-pornography things.

I hope this helps.[/QUOTE]

 

I can't wait to become Uruk-Hai again. Then I can look forward to getting back to being a real person, a Hobbit, and starting the body of my journey!

 

Day 202