The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 272 guys im having a few "bad behaviors" one of them is getting up in the morning only half an hour (or more) after I wake up. I'd stay in bed thinking in the dream I had or something from the day before.

Do you have any tricks to get out of bed as soon as you wake up??

 

END of Day 3 - again a very full Day"!

 

Gray Wizard checking in on day 120--four months exactly since PMO was dispelled from my life!

 

Day 124

Feeling a little better about myself today; mental health slightly improving and realising a lot of the stuff I’m worrying about isn’t cause for concern, just overthinking things!

No urges, but a couple of friends suggested that I might meet a girl at some of the weddings I’ll be attending this summer; I joked that many of them were family weddings, but even though it’s nice they’re thinking of me I still get frustrated when people assume you shouldn’t be single - just a matter of patience.

 

Day 16. Was an ok day, i did training, cold shower and meditation, and i hanged out with friend of the university but i felt social anxiety and now my back hurt a little cause stress. I hope some day i dont feel awkward anymore

 

Day 5 complete!

Good streak so far, even though I've been too busy to check in the past couple days. I know I ought to be prioritizing the reboot, but all that time has been going to my studies, and I've made sure to stay in close contact with my accountability partner the whole time. Good news is, I finished up my last paper late last night, and I was far more concerned about those than the exams. Today was really the first time in this streak when I started getting urges again, but they've been manageable. Believe it or not, I was actually looking forward to my cold shower yesterday.

You could always come to Catholic seminary with me XD

St. John Berchmans, pray for us!

 

Day 24 complete

no major urges. Still thinking whether I really need the things to which I waste most energy to get.

 

Day 445

 

Day 14 - Uruk-Hai, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

Day 3

Yesterday I was just sitting at home when I felt the urges as a punch to the face. But finally after so long I just felt like I could take it. I said out loud “not today” and I went out and had a 12K hike in some woods next to my house. Came back a couple of hours later completely tired, happy that I’ve been in nature and feeling stronger then ever.

 

Great Job brother

 

Thanks for the input brother. Really appreciate. I had reset the counter because I visited the video again, chaser effect I guess. But again I just watched at it for 5-10 secs. I could have moved on counting it as a slip, but I was feeling guilty. I didn't masturbate though. So to completely kill the addiction to porn, I reset the counter.
I am super energetic though as it's my 22nd day without MO.
I will be super careful this time. Again Thanks Brother @RiseToGreatness...

 

Day 1 as an Orc

 

Day 437 no PMO.

 

day 25

hello Fellowship. for the past 2-3 days, I was full of this rage. in my journal entry from yesterday, it seemed to be directed at women but I assure you it's not. it's rage against myself for allowing this addiction to have consumed me for 20 years. this addiction and mindset had me at a point where I had no confidence with women, despite my best intentions. this caused me to be spiteful at times when things didn't work, so my rage was from me facepalming at how I could be spiteful when the problem lies with me. and this rage made me always spring into action and not indulge any thoughts. the rage is still there today coursing through me.

when I was part of the 7-day challenge, a fellow brother @Breathing_Woods was out here as well, and every day he stayed true to his goals, he would write down a reason why he would not relapse. for his 7th day, this was his 7th reason:

I had a good kick out of that, but it's so true. especially in a LOTR challenge. I'm going to be Legolas the ninja Elf taking down oliphaunts. I'm going to be doing the badass stunts. I'm going to get the girl, and I'm not going to PMO, and see another man have sex with a girl. I'll go out there, get my own girl, and have my own relationship with her. I'll go out there and fulfill my goals and dreams. I'll go out there and live my own life.

we're still here brothers and sisters. let's get ittttttt

 

The man within the shadows has returned. It's been a couple months and Now I am back. My current state of addiction is at its peak, feels like I have no chance anymore. I need the power of the community to guide me.

NAZGUL DAY 0.

 

Dawn of the 48th day.

 

Still ORK trapped in mount doom! I swear some day i will get out of here.

 

Put your watch or cellphone for from you, so you have to get up to turn in off

 

Day 5!
More focused yestarday, so more productive. Low urges yesterday, keep strong my brothers!