The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 13.
Middle urges yestarday, but manage them focusing in my work. I want to change my strategy, I want to make this strike the last one. I want to tell to somebody that I know about this addiction and go to a psicology, any suggestion about this?

 

Checking in day 181.

 

Best book is Your Brain on Porn by Gary Wilson.

 

End of Day 9 without PMO and Day 31 without MO. It's tough, but I like it this way. Going strong!!

 

Day 281

 

Check in day 228

 

129 days, and this day is a good one. Thanks for your supportive fellowshipping!

 

In, going the distance to Mount Doom

 

Damn day 0 again - some reddit content got me trapped I wont use it again ... delete the app

 

Day 133

Today was pretty positive; finished up at college with only two more weeks to go, and then had a good leg workout and steam in the afternoon. Spent a few hours working on my sermon, only need to tidy up the ending and rehearse it for a few hours tomorrow - feeling a lot better about it than my previous two sermons, but I just pray that the Holy Spirit uses me however it deems fit.

Having a weird relationship with urges at the moment as they seem to being coming back with full force. If I had to guess I would say they are as strong as they used to be when I began abstaining from PMO, but I think this reboot has helped me recognise that I don't need to indulge them. Everything feels quite novel at the moment, as if I'm only abstaining for selfish reasons, but I must remember that my life is infinitely better without PMO and the side effects it causes.

 

Day 13! Still going!

 

Day 25 complete, nothing out of normal yesterday. The problem is today, i felt a lot of anxiety because a situation i had this afternoon and i notice that i wanted to fap so fucking bad to release this feeling, and then when i didnt do it i started fantasy being with a girl and feel loved. I really dont know if its ok to be with girls before 90 days reboot, i think its not but i really want to be with somebody. fuck

 

Day 4

Watched Karate Kid tonight and it summed up what I’ve been missing in my life and what I need to do.

I have kept my strength and power inside and it’s time I brought it out. I have potency as an individual and I am dangerous. I have power. I have strength. I have a voice.

I’ve realised I have a lot of power as an individual. But right now it’s too chaotic and it needs to be tamed. I’m considering signing up for Karate lessons.

 

Day 1 complete--Orc status.

Today was pretty chill. I drove with my dad to help my brother move out of his college dorm, and that took up most of the day. It was nice having a couple hours with each of them just to talk about whatever we wanted to. Urges were absent. The first thing I did when I woke up was to grab my prayer journal and write on the inside cover, "I will not PMO today!"

Our Lady of Fatima, pray for us!

 

Day 5

 

Day 7 - Orc

 

Day 11! ( Uruk - Hai )

Have a nice day guys
Be kind to yourself. Try to understand yourself, your weaknesses, urges

“Don't count the days. Make the days count.” —Muhammad Ali

 

Day 7 complete - Orc