The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 2. Let's go orcs.

 

Day 6 complete!

I was a little bit tempted to fish for images again tonight, but I messaged my AP right away instead and he gave me some good encouragement. I want to work on my upper-body strength a little bit, so I'm thinking about a plan to do small sets of pushups throughout the day. That might also help with keeping my energy and drives in check.

St. Medardus, pray for us!

 

Day 458

 

I finish if we have intercourse. But if I know that we will not be able to have it then I avoid being sexual with her at all, no in between on a perfect scenario. Because of what @Paul S. said.

 

Day 38 complete

I looked for some images once more yesterday. Feeling quite horny right now, but it’s not only because of the images.

The flare method seems like something you could work with, but it has some flaws in my opinion when it concerns sexual desires. Sexual desires are based in our brain which wants status and yah the soul wants something higher, but we still have our body parts making hormones and you just simply want to fuck someone. Thus you have to come back to the discipline. Yes it’s easier when you focus on becoming someone (based on your most inner desires) instead of having something. But it’s still discipline all the way through and this is the way of the man.

 

day 10

 

you can get cold showers too

 

Check in day 233

 

thx for suggestion! Im already doin' that daily^^

Start of Day 4!

 

Dawn of the 62nd day.

 

Day 451 no PMO.

 

Day 3

First sign of trouble, not because of urges but because of a small fight with my SO. I simply know that every time I feel like that all I want is self destruction. Fighting and feeling bad in the relationship is the time where I want weed, porn and video games as a way of escaping reality. And i don’t have access to weed + don’t have any cool games right now so I want porn.

But I am aware of it. And instead of trying to fight myself I’ve started reading a book about self compassion and it really helped me to center myself. Porn addiction comes with so much self hate that it simply break me instead of helping me.

The book’s website has a “Self-Compassion test” and I got 1.6 out of 5, so I know that it is a place where I can truly evolve in.

One of the factors they test is the feeling of isolation and I think that we all probably feel that.

If you want, here is the link for the test, and on the website there are a lot of exercises and tips to improve our self compassion capabilities.

https://self-compassion.org/self-compassion-test/


Good luck everyone.

 

Day 5! Just came back from the gym - working on my protein intake. Looking to get roughly a gram per lbs bodyweight.

Have a great thursday !

 

THX for sharing - Im gonna try this out!
I wish you much strength brother!

 

For emotional realease you could write your fealings in a paper and then trow them away. Just write why you are angry or sad or the feeling that you want to analize or release. It's a good option, tell if it helps you brother.

 

Day 19
Yestarday middle and big urges, I was on instagram and I saw some sexy reels, but managed the urges. I already logged out of social networks. Almost all my past relapses start with social networks, so I must not be to much time there.

I'm sleeping better, I feel really tired, I'm not sure if is related with PMO, keep strong my brothers.

 

DAY 31. These days i was fighting very hard to control my inner ghosts. Im fighting to dont fap, my brain yells to me to masturbate. Day 31 now. Im an elf.

 

Day 5. Had some physical urges this morning. For me, the first hurdle is the physical urges that occur around this time. The next is the psychological withdrawal that occurs after day 10, where I begin to experience sexual dreams for about a week

 

0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO)



I return. Today I'm just laying some basic foundations. Got my habit tracker and a copy of Atomic Habits ready to go!