The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Checking in day 191.

 

Check in day 238

 

Checking in. Mostly good here. A bit tired. Was getting some urges so I came here to check in instead.

 

Congrats! Where you got yours from?

 

Thats a great Idea to count all the small battles too - because evry small step and evry "no" in the right direction will count on this journey!! I'll also start that know!

 

Day 35. Yesterday i gave me little pleasures, like eating a tasty meal and ice cream. i finished a book and started another called "fall in love with you" of Walter Riso. I think porn is a mechanism of escape for people who dosent love themself and feel inadequate, because the first thing i felt when i stopped watching porn was a need of love and care.

 

Day 143

Back in the gym, even one week without a workout and I felt noticeably different! Although I’ve got a busy few weeks ahead I’ll be doing my best to make sure I’m at least getting cardio or body weight exercises done when the weights aren’t available to me.

Another weird day for urges - I’m still getting frequent erections and it’s really distracting. I just hope that by occupying my mind with work I’ll be focused and safer from temptation.

 

Day 9 coming to a close. Next few days will be difficult since I’m heading out on a business trip

 

Evening of the 66th day.

 

Day 291!

 

Day 4 complete!

Earlier today I finished the most recent season of the show I've been watching and now I have to wait until next February for the next part, which is supposed to be the final part even though originally, the season I just finished was supposed to be the final part. They keep extending it, which is fine in the long run because it means there will be more to watch, but I hate the waiting part! Anyway, finishing that show means I have one less piece in my daily schedule, so I will need to find something to fill that time so that PMO doesn't fill it. I might try writing letters to some of my friends.

The fact that you're looking for an answer means you don't believe the lies PMO tells you, because if you did believe them, you wouldn't have any reason to look for an answer. Stopping yourself just because you didn't want to reset is perfectly fine. It gets the job done for now, so you have plenty of time to work on building up that sense of honor or conscience. Stand tall, brother. I don't understand it all either, but the part of you which is striving to grow in virtue, the part that won't simply accept all this evil which we cause, is the real you.

St. Paul the Apostle, pray for us!

 

Day 43 complete

Doing good, not too many urges

 

Day 15

 

Day 4
Is flirting with girls allowed on hard mode ?
Because I flirt a lot and idk if it is good or bad.

 

Day 456 no PMO.

 

Back to 0
Dam
I know that I’m under a lot of stress but I can’t use it as an excuse. I relapsed because I had my phone with me in the bathroom. And I knew that it was in my pocket even while I was getting up from my seat and starting the walk. I did it. Dam dam dam.

 

Checking in. I am back to basics. I have to practice letting the urges pass through my brain, recognizing that it is just an urge and I don’t need to continue to feed that thought. I can redirect my brain towards achieving my goals instead.

 

there is a sub form to find AP's.
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?forums/accountability-partners.7/

Just interduce yourself and people may write you (but finding a good AP that you can trust might take some time, so just start talking to people until it would feel right)