The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day one!

Today is the day to be extra disciplined. I wanted to have a cold shower in the morning but I found out that my shower can only have one temperature at a time and I didn’t change it so I ended up having a hot shower… not what I was going for, but still nice.
Later today I’ll go to the gym and have an Ice cold shower over there. I also plan on doing two sessions of meditation today just to see that I can.

Nothing more to say other than that. Good luck everyone.

 

Day 459 no PMO.

 

Wow, great to see so many brothers with numbers close to 500. So inspirational. Way to go, Fellowship!
15 days, I finally get to change my profile pic to a hobbit.
I feel inspired so I will choose an inspirational profile pic.
Have a great day, Fellowship!

 

Sure fellow : | Honestly, I thought that was a normal term. Sometimes it is difficult for me to use this language correctly in a given context.
I hope I didn't offend anyone and thank you for this reprimand/reminder

 

Day 24
It's been over two months since I last M and I can see the effects.

During the day, I am actually more focused and aware.
I notice how my wandering, ,,pattern-clinging'' mind works and it really helps me getting rid of my various unhealthy desires.
I have a problem with the fact that it's hard for me to take care of myself for me... For my good and pure happiness.
As a child, I was taught to do everything for others and to put myself last but I have been working on self esteem for a long time and I feel a lot of love for myself.
I always did this for my girlfriend who was so supportive when I told her about my addiction, but it also had a big impact on her.
I have been neglecting myself and our relationship for a very long time, so now I want to do what is best for both of us.
Take care

 

Check in day 242

 

Day 8 - Uruk

 

Day 0
DAMN - relapsed yesterday and Today.... due to some real bad news ... no motivation today to do routines or wokrout... PMO had me easy then...

Need to sit down and deal with my pain... and get up fast again..

 

Day 1, not to much yestarday. Did exercise today and trying to eat healthy, keep strong my brothers!

 

Checking in day 195.

 

Been absent for a while. Day 39, keeping focused though. Some great posts on here! Really motivating!

 

Day 2 as an Orc complete.
successfully fought urges today and avoided a slip and possible fall.

 

0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO)



Back to Minas Morgul... One day I know my path will lead me back here as I quest to destroy the ring, but right now I know that I am here on less joyous news. Life as a Nazgûl is definitely a dark place to be, and I've spent too much time here lately.

I guess the big blow was losing someone who was important to me and realizing how one sided that dynamic really was. In the end it really comes down to my own dysfunctional behavior and how unhealthy the way I relate to others (especially women) really is. I'm also dealing with a lot of hair loss right now which seems like it got a lot worse fast. I've always looked young; people often think I'm more than 10 years younger than I really am. Some people even think I'm still in high school! I guess it's made it easy for me to forget that I'm almost 34 and haven't really accomplished anything in life. I guess I've just generally felt pretty defeated lately, but I'm ready to get back up and be solution focused. I'm going to focus everything I have left on a) getting a streak going again and b) dealing with this hair thing as there is stuff I can do.

NO MAN CAN KILL ME!

 

Day 147

I’ve completed my first year at theological college; it’s a weird feeling, but it was an honour to celebrate the day with those who are leaving to be ordained! Weather was lovely and I had a great afternoon waking around town in the sun.

Urges were quite difficult today, almost considered relapsing. I would assume it’s because I’m feeling somewhat lonely, but I am at least feeling better than I did a few days ago.

 

Day 294 & 295

Good news is I got a job!! And I'm really happy about it. Also I started a diet, intermittent fasting. But the right way, not the way I did before

Bad news is that I'm getting really sleepy in my classes. I'm caring less and less for the career... Its like my subconscious is saying: "what for am I studying this?"

I have to end this career anyway... Even if I don't care that much about the career itself. I shouldn't fail again in this... Failed too many times already... Idk... Maybe I should just assist little cooking courses and keep working on what I like, cooking... I think I'm about to enter a crisis lol

 

I relapsed. Day 0 again. I know what mistakes i made, and why i did it. Was because the stress for the exams and because i was in app dates to talk with girls. I fapped 2 times, the first one i took a hot shower after doing it. And the second one i took a cold shower because there was no excuse.

 

Day 467

 

Day 19

 

I watched a 3 mins of porn intentionally from a movie. So it is a relapse on hard mode
May God give me the power to achieve my goal.

 

Day 460 no PMO. I run my first marathon today. Wish me luck!