The Lord of the Rings Challenge

DAY 25
Fellows!
Every time you feel bad and have unhealthy urges, observe how your mind try to get you to M or watch P. Treat it as a lesson
Good luck on your path : )

 

I am new to this challenge,
Relapsed this morning so day 0

 

Dawn of the 71st day.

 

day 1 - only half of the routines done today, but better than nothing

 

Day 2
Low urges yestarday, starting to write in a personal diary but for things that are not related to nofap. Keep strong my brothers

 

Day 34

 

Day 3 as an Orc complete.

 

Checking in day 196.

 

Check in day 243

 

Day 296

 

Day 20

 

yes bro, Education is better than other jobs bro.
Do it hard

 

Let's start the journey from beginning.

 

Let's begin the Journey bro!

 

Day 2 complete. Definitely won some battles today, so I'm proud of that. Early in a streak, when the memory of a relapse is fresh, it's easy to remind myself of how useless and disgusting PMO is. I wish I could extend that feeling so that I never forget and I can always remind myself why I choose every single day to leave this behind.

@Ready to Stop You'll have to tell us how it went! I've run a few half-marathons before but the full thing sounds like it's on an entirely different level.

St. Therese of Lisieux, pray for us!

 

1 days >> Orc (The spell of porn is strong in you)



I have cast off the cloak of the Nazgûl and rejoined the realm of the living... Or at least I think.

Today I faced an interesting test. When I was out for my walk I saw what looked to be a torn out picture from a magazine that was placed on a bench along the side of the path. Out of the corner of my eye I saw what looked to be the female form. A voice in my head instinctively told me not to look at it knowing it seemed to show a lot of skin, but I didn't heed. I found myself staring at the picture of a topless woman! Who would expect to see porn on a public path?! My attention got stuck on it for a short period before I tore my attention away and kept on walking. On the way back I didn't look and used the experience to test my willpower. I don't know if this counts as looking at porn though, so I will let our resident Valar @RiseToGreatness decide.

In the event that I am in the clear and the journey continues then I am now an Elf twisted and ruined by the dark powers of Melkor; an Orc! I serve the dark lord in Mordor for now, but I'll be free of his chains soon enough. My first major goal is to make it to 30 days and become a pure Elf as all Orc's were meant to be!

I can definitely feel a certain heaviness, but I'm better then I was yesterday. Yesterday I felt so exhausted I couldn't even complete my walk I felt so bad. I felt really uncomfortable and awkward walking around today though, especially walking by girls. I didn't really want anyone to approach me in general though; social anxiety was very high. One step at a time I guess...

 

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Day 48 complete

I last posted on wednesday morning. Wednseday went good, my wife was home with me most of the time. But for thursday and friday I also stayed home because I got sick again and I was left alone completely. Thursday was bad, I looked at a lot of sexy girl images, not any P content though, even when I didn’t want to. On friday I managed not to look at any girls even at social media profiles. And saturday was a great day with my wife at home, still being sick. Today I am still sick. I feel like I am loosing this game of life, so I am coming back to sleeping 8-9 strict, no video games even on the phone and reading before bed. Right now I am sleeping < 8, I have more time, but I waste much more of it. And I am determined to eat one clove of garlic with every dinner for the health.

 

Day 148

This battle seems to have ramped up in difficulty in recent days; I’ve been aroused nearly all day, persistent erections, and I even had a dream that I was watching porn! While I can’t help but laugh at the latest part, it’s still annoying to feel like I’ve failed - even if it was only a dream!

 

Day 1

Two days ago everything was going great. But that night I went out and had a couple of drinks and when I came back I watched Porn. I stopped and got my shit together but it was definitely a relapse. I’m just happy that I stopped and didn’t finish or binge. Yesterday I acted right and I feel fine now. So I’m not happy about it but it could have been much worse.