The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Good day!
I realized that I was consuming too much nofap media lately and it was kinda in a psub way, like flooding my mind with information that wouldn't become knowledge. So I'll be reducing my usage of it.

 

Day 3. I had a big urge last night but I overcame it ,and today I'm feeling great and active with some much energy , I know it is part of the proces so the first days I will have this kind of energy but I need to stay focused in the moments of drought like the flatline , anyway it's a long walk so it has to be done with short but secure steps . God bless you all

 

Day 8 as an Uruk-Hai, complete!

 

Check in day 248

 

Day 153

Strange to think that it’s been five months since my last relapse; I’ve been noticing urges more and more, and I pray I continue in my journey.

Been outside for the majority of the day, and absolutely knackered now - caught the sun a little too!

 

Checking in day 201.

 

4 days 6 hrs

Not gonna lie, today had a brief compulsive urge to slip. I probably would have just for the hell of it and then regretted it later if it weren't for this commitment and challenge to take the Precious and cast it into the fire to destroy it forever. The ring calls for me to put it on, but I must resist the darkness and put on cheerfulness. To Mordor I go.

 

Day 2 check in. Feels strange but can't stop, won't stop.

 

Congrats Brother

 

Day 25
I could manage lot of bad urges in my mind by watching ZYZZ motivational videos on youtube.
I think it will help you all!
Rest in peace ZYZZ bro.

 

Day 6

My vision seems kinda blurry lately, low energy etc. I think it's just part of the process... At least I hope. I'm back to a "day at a time" kinda outlook. I started working on "The Brain That Changes Itself" by Norman Doidge today. It gets referenced in "Your Brain on Porn" a number of times and I've been curious about it for awhile now. Some great stories in there about people changing the way their brains work with the power of neuroplasticity. I'm not at the part where they talk about porn usage yet, but like it so far.

I also saw this racoon fishing or something like that by the ocean which was kinda neat.

 

Day 7 complete!

It has been...several weeks since I made it to a week. I'm very happy about that, and especially since it almost didn't happen...I had a brush today with something in Spanish that I didn't realize would be porn. When it showed up right there in front of me I did stay and look for a few minutes, but I was able to get myself out of there without any masturbating and I stayed on my guard the rest of the day. I don't like that it happened, and there are general things I could have done (like not being on my phone, not indulging wanton curiosity, staying productive) which could have helped me stay away, but I didn't go in with the intention of finding anything triggering so I'm counting this as a battle won.

Holy Innocents, pray for us!

 

Day 53 complete

feeling bad physicaly. I drank one regular cofee (I hope it was regular) yesterday. But towards the evening my head started hurting as if I had a high blood pressure. This morning I feel the same, it’s unusual. And in general I still feel very weak after being sick. Maybe it’s all just covid and I will get well in a week. There are some general issues with my health, I need to spend some more time attending this, but time is what I don’t have. Doing good resisting urges.

 

Day 466 no PMO.

 

Day 5 check in, doing fine

 

Checking in.
2days 14hours and 59min - PMO-free.

Its the third Day of the month, I already did 5 min Meditation, 2min Self Love Practice, 2 min Gratitude, 1min Hand-Stand and a 1 hour intense work out at the calisthenics-place today. Its the second Work-out of the month and Im quite proud of me so far (gettin up early worked good today too)

But something else has changed. After I watched a video. I think some of you guys already mentioned this channel before.
Still I wanna recommend it again:



This gave me a HUGE reminder.
I NEED MORE SELF TALK - especially when triggered by emotions per se.
This will be the next GREAT step Im focusing on (from now on).
BECAUSE I know I already did this more often in some past times - and when I think about it - the times I did it the most, were the best^^

GREETS out to you brothers and sisters
Wish you a great Day!

 

Day 0

Went three weeks clean until yesterday but MOd yesterday and today.

Been going through a very difficult time recently with my mental health. Overwhelmed by all the stress and pressure of my life. Been to the hospital and doctor’s a couple times about it.

More than anything I need a nice long relaxed holiday right now. Have asked my sister to help me plan one. Would like to go somewhere chill by a lake or on the coast somewhere and just chill and read books and write poems and listen to John Prine and The Mountain Goats records all day.