The most scary thing you have done?

It was learning to do a backflip at home by myself some weeks ago. I felt I was simply going to accept death.

The overwhelming feeling of being fully scared I never felt that, I didn't even know I had so much fear in me. I had to fully let go of any idea of who I was to do the backflip it was so mental not so much physical. The fact that you have to do it perfect otherwise you can die by doing a backflip was a very subconscious fear that it was hard to let go. Eventuality I went to a trampoline park and learned how to do it.

I think facing death is one of the hardest or the hardest thing in life.

What is the most scary thing you have done?

 

Having a really difficult conversation with my mom and sister. It's pretty much the first time we have ever had such a serious disagreement, and the conversation went about a million times worse than I even feared it would. It was horrible. I felt like I was going to throw up, and then I ended up leaving our sleepover early and going home to bawl my eyes out all night.

Things still aren't the same as they used to be, for me. There is a rift between me and my family that wasn't there before, due to some serious issues we disagree about, and while we still have a great relationship, I can't pretend it doesn't feel different. My mom and sister used to be the people in my life I could say absolutely anything to without fear of judgement or that they would disagree or see me differently, and that's just not really the case anymore.

It sucks, tbh. But I'm really grateful to have a very supportive husband who I still have that kind of relationship with. He's my greatest confidante.

 

I'd really like to know what the topic of this was. What could be so important as to cause a rift between a once completely secure familial relationship? But if it's too personal, never mind.

 

It's not really too personal, it's just political/religious and highly controversial and not something I want to discuss on this particular forum. People who are not Christians might not understand and I don't want to start any debates or something.

To be clear, it's not like we have a bad relationship now or anything. We still have a good relationship and hang out all the time and stuff. It's just that when it comes to political issues or religious issues, I no longer feel like I can comfortably talk to them without worrying that they are going to respond poorly.

If you really want to know, I could PM you or something, but it would basically be against the sites rules for me to talk about it here.

Edit: I PM'ed you, and I apologize in advance for how much I rambled and turned it into a therapy session for myself. lol

 

Family battles are so tough :/ I'm grateful my situation isn't anywhere close to that, but I have had situations like that with my cousin in the past and it's so stressful. It makes every family event into a stomach ache instead of a happy gathering. Especially for me, because I really dislike conflict.

 

Dude, this is like exactly what happened with my cousin. Only it was more about religious stuff than politic stuff. He used to be a really hardcore atheist, and by that I mean not just someone who doesn't believe but someone who hates God and hates Christians and spends all day bashing them online. I got so fed up with it that I once decided to politely remind him on one of his posts that his entire family is Christian, and posting such cruel things about Christians is pretty disrespectful and hurtful to the people he loves. So after that, instead of just posting general stuff, he started posting even more and directing stuff directly at me. Posting on my page, tagging me in stuff, etc.

It was really horrible. And I'm not one to go off on people or something, but I'm also not one to just lie down and not defend myself or say something. It became a massive problem that effected our entire family, especially his mom because she was deeply upset by what he was doing and how he was pretty much attacking me 24/7.

But the coolest part of that story is that I spent years praying for him, and a few years after all of this happened, he asked me to share my story with him about my faith and such, and he was asking for the purpose of mocking me or debunking me. And instead he ended up becoming a Christian himself. Lol we still disagree about some political stuff these days, but he's apologized for all of that stuff in the past and everything is completely fine between us now.

So yeah, prayers were answered big time! I'll pray for you and your family as well. No situation is too great or too hopeless for God to change.