The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 476

 

Day 0 -- Nazgul.

Well, nine days clean is longer than I've made it for a while, so I am not without hope after this reset. That's not to say this reset didn't take its toll, though. PMO has simply been part of my lifestyle for a long time, and I had to wrestle with the lies that there's no point in getting rid of it, that I wouldn't know what to do without it, and that it is a fun way to pass the time. These are all thoughts I had leading up to my deliberately choosing to use PMO this afternoon.

Both of the past two nights, I had dreams that I relapsed or had made the choice to relapse and was about to act on it. Maybe that was a bad sign, but I was proud of myself for not allowing those temptations to carry over into the waking world. Boredom was a big trigger for me on this last streak, so I will pay special attention to that this time.

St. George, pray for us!

 

yes bro , I have spent 39 days without porn and masturbation

 

Day 39, Today is a nice day with no bad urges

 

I failed in my 95th streak. And I started again . Day 4 completed

 

Day 56 complete

feeling better every day. I wonder how work is going to affect me. I am going to sleep mostly on time. I will go back to working out from tomorrow. It was a great weekend with family. No real urges.

 

1 day ~> Orc

 

Back to day 0 .

 

Day 11 check in

 

Day 8 check in

 

So true!

 

Day 469 no PMO. First day in Vegas is over and I came out just fine. Of course there was temptation everywhere but I bounced my eyes and moved along. I also had another lady start her grooming process with me on LinkedIn but this time I resisted the urge to play along and just blocked her straight away. It felt good to push that block button!

 

reached day 5...
but damn last night I relapsed again ..

 

Check in day 252

 

Day 12 as an Uruk-Hai, complete!

I couldn't wait for this day to end. The urges have been intense.
but i am here. one minute, hour, day at a time.
sometimes it can get so tempting that I forget the reasons i am doing this at all.
then i remember that my magnificent (addicted) brain is just playing tricks on me and i have to be vigilant especially when I'm having a great day!

 

Day 1
Relapsed saturday at the afternoon, I was really horny, I was alone and well, relapsed. I have to know me better and go out of the house if something like that happen again. I have a laptop so I can work in any place I want.

Keep strong my brothers

 

185

 

Checking in day 205.