The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Relapsed. I won't give up.

 

Day 11!
Low urges yestarday, always taking care to staying out of social networks and youtube. Worked out and trying to eat healthy.

Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 0! Again.

 

Check in day 261

 

Check in day 262

 

If it's not now then when?

 

There's no perfect porn video. The perfect porn video is always the next one. Porn addiction is an addiction to novelty.

 

Checking in,

Had a good productive day today, also haven't forgot to rest a little bit.
Low urges, almost nothing

Also I've paid for the accountability group here on the forum, and the NoFAP team haven't responded me yet, it's been 8 days...

 

Day 4 check in. Doing good so far.

 

2 days done!
Orc life...

Tomorrow, the chaser effect will still be luring around to catch me at my lowest, and poke at just the right things to get me to hit that search button. But i won’t allow it, because i’ll remember all of the reasons i do this, and think about the quote: “If not now, when?”.

Stay strong you guys.

 

This is hard to tell which is better but from my experience I think it's better to o for edging without climax can go for days just to eventually come to o after taking a ton of time, health and self-respect from us. It is better to o and start from 'blank sheet', anew erasing all histories,pictures etc., making confession here or with accountability partners and setting strong intention to never do it again.

 

Checking in day 215.

 

Day 167

Spent a lovely day doing nothing, which was much needed! Taking some time tomorrow to spend in prayer and trying to get back into spiritual disciplines - I reckon that part of the reason I’ve felt so down is that I’ve lost touch with God by neglecting prayer and study.

Almost made a dating account out of boredom again, but every time I picked up my phone I threw it back down again. Browsing and chatting aimlessly will only fuel the PMO-fire.

 

Checking in as Day 9 has passed. Small steps forward.

 

Dusk of the 90th day.
Grey Wizard.

 

0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO)



“Be merry! We meet again, at the turn of the tide. A great storm is coming, but the tide has turned.” -Gandalf

I have to report that I made it four days last time until I relapsed, but now I'm back to try yet again. It's my birthday in a couple days and I'd really like to have a porn and masturbation free year.

 

Day 487

 

Day 1 complete!

The chaser effect stuck around for a bit, but I messaged my AP to get through it and made sure I was hanging out with other people most of the day irl. They say misery loves company, but so does non-misery!

I disagree with this assessment. To me it sounds like adopting a defeatist attitude. We can't say for certain how we'll handle the temptations that arise in the future, and while doing things that are likely to increase those temptations isn't a good idea, following through on them without a fight seems to me like it would be even more destructive. Better to hope for the best than assume the worst. I applaud @newbobido for cutting himself off when he did and I pray that he'll be successful in resisting the urges which come his way.

 

Day 50

 

I am a Dwarf in Dwarven Kingdom.