The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Dawn of the 4th day.

 

Relapsed. Binged. Feel guilty. I have to do better than this.

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

3 Days Free of PMO.

Still feeling dizzy and nauseous, perhaps a small amount better than yesterday. Will stay off screens as much as possible today too. Spending it outside in the sun.

3 days – PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river.

 

226 days semen retention
Day 5 water fast
I went today to buy some fruits at the farmer's market. Fasting going well.
More clear skin, general improvement in mental clarity and feeling energy moving more smoothly thorough out my body.

 

Day 1 check in

 

40 days
Medium urges yestarday. Yestarday I had more sexual thougth than normal and that is becouse a cute girl wrote mi on facebook. I don't know this girl but she already asked for my number. I don't know, maybe this situation is like a trigger becaoue I know that I don't want a relationship with her, just for sex. I'll be careful with this situation.

Today I worked out and took a cold shower.

Keep strong my brothers.

 

Brother let me give you a humble advise. First of all congrats on winning that fight. But you need to be even more determined than that. If you fight with your "addicted self" (actually with the devil) it's gonna be a much harder path. Not impossible, but harder.

I advise you to have a time alone, a talk with yourself, even better if you can talk with God. And even better if you talk with the devil, telling him you renounce to be his slave. You are free of his chains, God is far more powerful than he is. The enemy already lost the war. Even if he struggles with this battles.

Be determined brother. Truly determined. If you fight with yourself you run the risk of being weaker the next battle and lose or be even weaker for the next one.

Again, time alone to face yourself and the enemy. This will help you.

 

Thanks for the encouragement, but i m not a religious person. I get what you mean though.

 

Have been on and off in here the last few weeks.
Im resetting cuz i went looking for P while testing my filters.

Streaks are getting longer however and feel more energised from time to time. Happy weekend every1

Day 0 - Nazgul, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

Checking in day 244.

 

Thanks, I'll watch and try it. I'll tell you my experience about it.

 

Did some painting in the house with my fiancee today. She never painted before and I'm not well versed in teaching. One thing I know is I never liked being yelled at when learning things so I'm making sure to be gentle. Seems like it was a good experience for both us. On thing I noticed was how I noticed, for the most part, did not turn it into an erotic experience. There is a time for that and that was not the time.

 

Day 2 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 188 out of 196.

Thanks for the affirmation, @RiseToGreatness! This challenge really does help foster an encouraging community. @Ready to Stop knows his stuff a lot better that I do, and it was his description of the steady habit to check in here every day, like fellow ringbearer's posts, and remind himself that PMO always and only makes things worse that has made the biggest difference for me lately. Others have made a difference in the past, yourself included, and I'm sure many others will make a difference in the future. Thank you all.

 

Aaand day 4 completed. Some urges today but thats part of the process.

Good weekend to the boys!

 

Checking in

Just greaaaaaaat day today, spent time working and in the evening I went to play basketball

I haven't played for a looong time, but today I played about 4 hours and before the play I've done my solid workout.
And I'm not event tired!

I was dominating for the whole game, no one could stop me.
I was feeling that I was twice stronger and faster than any other player.

Guys, nofap gives you power, during the play I was alpha male, strong as fuck.
I'm feeling in control, I think people were scared by me a little bit

And right now, I don't give a shit what other people think about me.
If I would PMO I would feel like shit, with the depression, but I'm not PMOing, I'm done with this stupid fucking addiction.

Porn, listen to me, fuck you!

Yes, guys, maybe you think that I'm mad, Yes, I'm mad! (in a good way I think)

I feel right now like Trevor from the GTA5

 

Day 0

I relapsed to PMO this evening. My friend messaged me on Whatsapp and sent me a picture that had something in it that triggered me and I quickly spiralled into a relapse.

I told my mum right before it got really bad and gave her my phone, but I think at that point it was inevitable. I need to find a better way to respond when I'm triggered. Next time I notice I'm triggered I will go on this website (NoFap) and click the panic button and follow the advice.

I feel bad about relapsing. I think that it's time for me to take a risk and talk to a girl, even if it doesn't lead anywhere, because as long as I'm living here with my mum and single like this, there's a lack of responsibility and accountability in my life. A lack of real consequences. And that's not a good thing. I will take a bit of time this evening to update my profile on that dating website and I will be a bit more open-minded about talking to girls, not expecting there to be that magic spark right from the beginning.

 

Good to have you back here brother.