The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 10
I had a pretty intense and busy week, I didn't checked in as I wanted to, but I'm glad I survived it. The stress was indeed a considerable trigger, and the thought of relapsing passed through my mind a few times, but that last insight that I had (about actively deciding) helped me to get through it. Also, this thoughts that you guys shared about entering autopilot mode are indeed very helpful, thanks for that.

Today I'm enjoying the afternoon to relax a bit after this stressful week. I went swimming, then whirlpool massage and sauna. I'm taking it as a celebration of not relapsing this week. Let's celebrate the small victories

 

relapse... I feel so bad
I need to sit down think about the relapse and change sth now
I always try to do change much but maybe Im searchin not at the right place
Greets

 

Day 358!

 

Day 2 complete!

No real urges. There's a friendly, very cute girl who works a few days a week in the church office here. I saw her a bit today and did my absolute best to drop a load of bricks on top of the lustful PMO brain inside me. For the most part it worked; every time my eyes were in the wrong place or stayed in one place too long, I took a mental note of that and forced myself to look somewhere else. Sheesh. A cordial professional relationship is all I'm asking.

St. John Berchmans, pray for us!

 

Day 93
Today I got up late in the morning . Because yesterday I had lot of works to do .
Have a Good weekend and Good luck!

 

just relapsed!
In a moment of beeing stupid, I installed tinder and that gots me. I swer that this is my last one!. Tomorrow I will return to my exerciso but I will try to sleep 1 hour more each day. I need the exercise to continue on this.

 

22 days – You enter the cold Misty Mountains, the Hithaeglir.

 

51 (19 hard mode) days complete

My wife is sad because of the little amount of attention I give her. The hard mode helps me to pursue her for the right reasons. Urges are still high

 

I'm sorry for your relapse.
I'd like to give you an advice, it's not a criticism by any means, I just want to help you.

I've notice that this is your second relapse in the row because of the social medias,
I would seriously consider to abstain from it on the early stages.

Most of my streaks were ruined because of the some triggering materials from instagram/facebook,
Once I quit them all the nofap became MUCH easier.

 

50 days,

It's a great number, I love it.

I feel so much better, flatline decreases, brain fog is gone, and I have much more energy to exercise.
Confidence is back, life is good.

Yesterday, I spent most of the day watching some coursera course, also spent some time working, actually accomplished a lot.

In the evening went for a walk with my wife to the beach.

 

This should have been day 7, but it's day 0.
I felt it coming and was too weak to stop it. I have to admit that i am happy in the place I am in right now in my life, I love my job and my day to day life and I have a better connection with my wife.
But for some reason all of this is just not enough to stop me when the hunger grows.
I am happy that I at least made it for 6 days, it's not enough but it's better then the cycle I was stuck in before.
Next week I'll go to my first SA meeting. I hope I'll go there without any more sliipups

 

Check IN Day 1! - had only 3 hours of sleep - decided to stand up early anyways - need to get back to healthy sleep routine - gone for a short run - did a solid morning routine ( 10 min Meditation, 2 min self love, 1 min gratitude , 1 min hand-stand) im rly tired now but this is the way to get back to healthy stages - wish you all the best!
Greets

 

Day 13 no PMO. I’m out of town at a wedding and last night there was a party with all the out of town guests. I don’t drink so situations like that are super uncomfortable for me. Eventually I excused myself back to the room and was by myself for a few hours. I put on a YouTube video about the most non porn thing I could think of (woodworking) and went to sleep. Felt accomplished for dodging a potential reset situation. The wedding is tonight so I’ll be back in an uncomfortable spot again but I’ll probably have to just fight through it as I don’t think it would be appropriate for me to just leave the wedding. Wish me luck.

 

Day 3 massive urges
crossed brandywine river today

 

You are right my dear friend, I suppose because I'm no longer at a point where the room will necessarily trigger me, I did not give this valid attention.

Deep analysis should be practiced during the initial periods, study the triggers and developing solid counters to them. I.e perhaps a blocker that will set off during specific times, re-training (with time) the triggered room to be a place of presence and work.


I hope you are feeling better today brother! *Edit have fun at the music festival!!

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

18 Days Free of PMO.

Feeling better today, I think I indeed found the culprit for the dizzy spells, but i'll wait a couple more days before I confirm here.

I did experience a bit of anger first thing in the morning and some minor anxiety. I'm doing my best to just observe it, not hold onto it. Later on in the day, I'll re-evaluate the situation and write out what I could do to change my own response and what is merely left to circumstance.

Goal for today is a workout, meditation, exposure and a bit of reading.

Stay Strong!

@Ready to Stop Happy belated birthday!

 

Day 94.
MADE FOR WORKING TOGETHER
“Whenever you have trouble getting up in the morning, remind yourself that you’ve been made by
nature for the purpose of working with others, whereas even unthinking animals share sleeping.
And it’s our own natural purpose that is more fitting and more satisfying.”
—MARCUS AURELIUS, MEDITATIONS, 8.12
If a dog spends all day in bed—your bed, most likely—that’s fine. It’s just being a dog. It doesn’t have
anywhere to be, no other obligation other than being itself. According to the Stoics, we humans have a
higher obligation—not to the gods but to each other. What gets us out of bed each morning—even when
we fight it like Marcus did—is praxeis koinonikas apodidonai (to render works held in common).
Civilization and country are great projects we build together and have been building together with our
ancestors for millennia. We are made for cooperation (synergia) with each other.
So if you need an extra boost to get out of bed this morning, if you need something more than caffeine
can offer, use this. People are depending on you. Your purpose is to help us render this great work
together. And we’re waiting and excited for you to show up.

 

Dawn of the 19th day.

Thanks to those who replied to my last post.

One thing I can be thankful for is, aside for a few instances with one woman, my experience having sex with another is minimal. I do not have the habit of jumping to many different physical sex partners to break. What I have is decades of wanting a woman from afar to let go.