The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Please don't concern about my poor English
Brother, This is my opinion. I don't know much information about your home environment , state of your life(single or married) , your age
and economic state. But you are my friend. First of all I am a single person. Before I joined nofap , I had no idea about my life. This is my story. I didn't know about NoFap . In school , I couldn't focus on my studies. So that I couldn't achieve average marks on maths etc. So that i thought about it but i couldn't find this answer. Those days , I was addicted PM . But I didn't have much time to watch porn so that if I had free time,I watched porn . All of my friends said that ' It is a normal thing'. My parents didn't know about my addiction to PM . I have tried to eradicate this PM in my mind for 2 years . I couldn't defeat it . After that we work according to that time table . Finally Unknowingly we change our lifestyle due to PM. Now i know what is the reason why I couldn't stop doing PM. Because we didn't change our life style. After we addict to watch porn and M , our brain creates some kind of time table.

I worked hard to get average marks on math and My parents thought " he would get marks in exam . But I couldn't achieve it. After that My parents and me went to meet a doctor . Doctor gave some advices but he couldn't figure out my real problem. 2 years later, There would be a big exam (final exam) . I faced it but i couldn't get high marks but got some average marks.


After that I searched abut my problem and I found some information about NoFap and I joined it.

First of all , In first week and second week, It is not too easy to sustain our streak. In my first streak , I could do it only few days. But I found my weakpoints . First , I believed my self and I wanted to come out this hell. These are the steps what i did in first and second week.

1. I changed my computer from my room to living room.
2. I deleted p videos in my computer.
3. I always talked with my family members.
4. when I wanted to watch p , I did pushups or cycling or having a conversation with my family members
5. And I played videogames instead of watching .
6. I watched some videos about peaky blinders tv series and Baki the grappler in YouTube

If you are comfortable with your commercial state , you can get a gym membership. I did it in my first month only. Because I couldn't pay money to gym according to my financial state.


Don't worry brother You can do it. brother , you are not alone. Everyone in the world want's to join NoFap. Only few of them do it. You have a high value. We can fight together brother. Everyone who before join the NoFap are alone . But now we are brothers under a one roof. Don't be sad.
Think about success people in our world. they did everything to achieve their goals. Don't give up your try. Try, try ,try ...... you can do it brother. we are lions . We can do anything if we think correctly. Enjoy your self . And if you don't have friends don't worry. you have your family members. And you know we are real friends. You know can't meet physically. But we care us. so we are the good friends. I watch the video that you have mentioned above. I don't know that language , but it is heart touching.

I give my all stuff which i did to defeat PMO evil.so I stop writing today. I hope for a good news from you brother.. Goodluck

 

Day 98
Be positive and stay strong

 

Day 9 - Hobbit

 

Wet dream happen to me tonight,

Will be probably tired through out the day

 

Dude that is really hard. Thank you for being so honest with us and with yourself. I'm here more than two years and still never made it to one month, so I get what you aew saying.

But all I want to say is that you don't need to be too proud in a way that would stope you from coming back one day if you would like to.
We are here, and I think we will be here for a long time. So just remember that you are always welcome

 

Day 4

Checking in for the first time in a while. I am currently on holiday in Europe, and on Sunday I went swimming at a local river where lots of people go swimming. Lots of scantily clad people, and to my surprise, one or two ladies were even going around topless.

I saw the first topless lady unintentionally, but then I actively looked for her when I came back that way to have another look as I walked past. I’m sorry brothers. I feel pain in my heart over it. I shouldn’t have done it. What would my mum or sister think of me if they knew I did that?

I feel messed up inside over it, as I can feel how it’s changed and distorted me as a person. Once you cross certain lines there’s no going back. I have been a mess lately. Im looking forward to starting my teacher training course in September. It will do me good to have some structure and discipline in my life.

 

check in Day 3 !

 

Day 18 no PMO. My wife was out with her friends last night but I stayed strong and watched some TV with my kids instead of retreating to my room to be alone.

 

Day 19 as an Elf complete!
Significant urges over the last couple of days... still keeping my schedule tight and trying to keep the beast at bay.

"I am worth the extra effort!."

 

Dawn of the 24th day.

I did not sleep well last night. My best guess is I had a shower to late in the evening. Probably best to stay off the computer today. A sleep deprived state is likely a prime time to fall.

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

23 Days Free of PMO.

I have some analysis that needs to be taken care of today and rest day regarding working out.

Feeling much better today, just slightly tired. Wim Hof breathing has really been instrumental in eviscerating my anxiety. I've been at it for about a month, alongside daily meditation. I highly recommend trying it out.


Imagine for yourself a character, a model personality whose example you determine to follow in private as well as in public -Epictitus


Stay strong!


@Paul S.


I will say this, part of the problem that I noticed in my first streak was that I was spending too much time focused on no PMO and withdrawal symptoms. Waiting for that "magical" # of days that will just instantly wash away the ailments. I believe this is what you are doing too, from what you mentioned.

Instead focus your life on building the new. The Paul that you want to be. This is important, not turn nofap itself into an addiction (albeit, better than PMO) still carving out in life what you want.

Nofap in and of itself is not some secret to happiness, if used correctly (as I mentioned above) it can be a catalyst for many wonderful opportunities. Of course with time of abstinence, your brain will reboot, but focus on the rewiring. Rewiring to the real world itself, not focusing so much on the days that show up on your counter.

The whole cliché "Don't count the days, make the days count"


Thank you for being open and honest my friend, I know what you are saying. This is close to how I felt after I relapsed and disappeared. I won't fault you if you do decide to leave, just know you have friends here who will always welcome you with open arms, should you leave and decide to return.

 

21 days. I was feeling so good up until yesterday afternoon. Seams my benefits have tapered off. I think I might be in flatline. I still do feel better than I did when I was caught up in pmo all those years. Was stuck in the habit for 30 years. Deeply entrenched. I am a little worried I am going to have a long and rough flatline. It will be worth it though. Let’s keep strong fellowship.

 

Check in day 6

 

5 days
Low urges yestarday, worked almost all day. Tomorrow I have to go to the office., sometimes it's good to change the normal home office routine.

Today I worked out and took a cold shower.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 22 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 208 out of 216.

@Paul S. as an open forum, all of us are free to come and go whenever we want or need a change. Of course the fellowship will miss you while you are away. I intended to step away, thinking that being porn-free was assured even if I masturbated occasionally, and the lack of accountability tripped me up within a short time. So maybe you find out that even though this forum isn't some grand life-changing key to success, it might be helpful enough to be part of again down the road. Stay open and aware and good luck on your journey!

 

Day 25 / 1000. Last try.

Emotions come and go, thoughts come and go, especially considering withdrawal moodswings. So, I checked to see if I feel the same. Yes, it's the same. Quite bitter, weary and not much motivated. So, it's official - it's my last try. That doesn't mean I'll go back to pmo "lifestyle". But I'll leave the forums for sure, I'll probably stop counting the days, I'll stop reflecting and thinking about this, I'll stop journaling about this... It will be just life and working on my integrity in general. You know how I relapsed last time? I was thinking that "One search, one peek won't hurt. Nobody has to know." And then peek after peek I started watching, and it was over... I had to admit that I relapsed after. Where was my integrity, when I started watching? So yes, I will be working on life and intergity in general, no special place for "no pmo" in my day and probably in my mind. Whatever happens, happens... In one year I'm finishing my studies, then I would like to switch jobs, and then I am open for a girlfriend... Since I come from broken family and I suffered a lot due to separation, I know that it's no guarantee for happiness at all, but who knows, maybe I'll be lucky. Maybe I am just too impatient. Maybe God will tell me what to do when time comes. So, first things first.

I called my journal "I am going on an adventure!". That's not coming out of the house and thinking "No, it's too cold today". And then the next day "Nope. It's too hard". And so on... That's what my journey has been so far. I am not interested in that. I want to discover new lands of my mind and not go, where I have been hundred times.

Due to this "last try" thing, I can feel my motivation rising and strength returning. I don't want to leave without putting a good fight. I am leaving but I'll make pmo addiction to remember the battle. There is a high chance of loosing, but I'll make sure that I'll wake up my addicted side from the spell of the darkness in me that says "One search, one peek won't hurt. Nobody has to know". Because that's not just my addicted brain. That's me clearly being not honourable and maybe even malicious. Considering all the energy that I spend on healing, sabotaging that is clearly bad. I am not even bringing arguments of religion into this.

I feel that my hands are untied now. Since this is the end, I don't have to save my strength and techniques, and tricks for the future. Also, I can be as honest as I want. Since I am leaving, who cares. I am opening all the valves and letting rivers flow in my mind - I don't care anymore, I suffered enough.

Evil cannot create, it can only corrupt. One last fight in the forums against my corrupted side. God, please help me!

Spoiler: Journey stuff

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Stuff that should help to not pmo:
1. No internet for recreational purposes until 6 pm.
2. Waking up on the same time every day.

 

Ofcourse she has a point, I'll try my best

 

I wanted to check in this morning, but started scrolling instagram, non explicitly looking for women and my battery died, so I was glad and didn't recharge it for a while. I survived another day. Hope to rest more tonight than last night.