[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

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Day 90

It is 7 August 2022

At the beginning of this year I promised myself I would get to the 90 day streak again not just to get the number but to get comfortable living like this on my own and without the forums. I plan to move away from the forums and continue this way of healthy living, of course knowing that this community is always there to help if need be. I have been here for 2 years 7 months and through a lot of different phases of my recovery and in my personal life too. Just for the record - when I started I was masturbating between 1-3 times per day with Porn and sometimes having awful binges for multiple hours ... I have achieved 90 days twice now and a lot of longer streaks. It's not about the streaks tho, its about the progress to recovery we all make here. I promise you it's worth it. I now consider myself an individual with healthy sexual behavior. I have had multiple relationships, with healthy sex life - the last one lasted more than year and a half. It definitely helps having someone next to you to recover faster, BUT also some of my most profound moments have been when I was single and recovering! My advice to all of you is get comfortable with no Porn long enough that you stop thinking about that stuff and having urges to watch Porn! Because you are never going to stop having urges to have sex in general - we are sexual beings and that is natural. You just need to use the sexual energy you have to find and connect with someone real. Masturbation in my opinion is ok BUT not in a compulsive, addictive way - if you do it rarely - means different thing for different people - but lets say less than 1-2 times per week WITHOUT pornography and unhealthy fantazies - this can be ok. This is my own opinion from experience - do not use it as an excuse to continue masturbating to porn! I have had to go Monk Mode for very long time before It can be safe to do rarely again!

Just keep going trough the recovery and note your progress, admit your mistakes and move on! Eventually you will heal and be able to find a partner and have a great life with them!

I am out of here! Someday maybe I will come back to check on this thread again. For now I want to live my life and forget that I have been a Porn addict - I am no longer! F*CK PORN!

 

Hey Guys.. Myself J..I'm starting my 90 days Journey from tomorrow. Hoping for the best and preparing for the worst.

 

Since I've been MIA, and reset during that time I'm going to re-enter the challenge today at day zero. Hope to post daily, and be more responsive to other posters. 11/5/22 is 90 days from today; shortly after my favorite holiday Halloween. Two things to look forward to before the holidays I hardly care for and a new year.

 

DAY 21

 

5/90

 

Day 0 of 90

 

Day 7 feeling good

 

25/90 Tomorrow’s finally gonna be a free day from work, although probably not much time for myself. Today was a busy day, but got pretty much everything done that I wanted.

 

Day 3

 

Day 75

Fuck you dopamine

 

Relapsed guys, day 0 again. Hope to do it this time.

 

Don't give up brother, just investigate after every relapse what was the mistake from your side that caused the urges to happen and never do them again

 

Day 13

 

Day 4

 

Reached one week
Day 0

 

Back to Day 0 as I relapsed. I got intimate with my gf this weekend and the chaser effect was too much for me to handle. However, I am not wallowing in guilt and shame. Also, I slowed down significantly on my August Challenge.

August Challenge (August 7th)
Wake up at 6am or earlier: 5/31
Take a Cold Shower Daily: 5/31
No YouTube: 5/31
No social media (Instagram, Facebook, Tumblr, Reddit e.t.c): 6/31
No using my phone in bed: 0/31 (Failed)
Read at least 4 books: Book 1 [12 Week Year: 52.4% complete]; Book 2[15 Invaluable Laws of Growth: 11.7% Complete]
Run 50 KM: 8.84 KM(+1.09)
Software/Web Development Learning (120 hours in aggregate minimum): 8 hrs 18 mins
3000 pushups: 260
5000 ab crunches (Different Variations): 280
2000 air squats: 120
Complete Workshop at recoverynation.com: Lesson 47 of 73

 

Day 69 and 70 of my 90 day challenge

 

Day 1-8: I have had a few short streaks on here recently. Since I kept relapsing I decided to not post on here again until I have a decent streak going, so here we are. Let's go

 

made in past the weekend barely day 8