The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Hi Guys, hard to say that, but I've relapsed,

The day started badly, I went to the beach with my wife, and there were some half naked girls, I only glanced, but it stayed in my head for the rest of the day,
I've tried to prevent relapsing, but I went on autopilot, and I started phishing, then some softcore eventually I've relapsed, I've been watching porn for several hours, even though my wife was in the next room.

It tough... It's not who I want to become, I don't want to waste my life like this, I know, I have a choice, to be in this addiction, or to become who I want to be.

It happened because I have a lot of stress right now, and I still trying to be productive, not giving myself time to relax, it's super hard, I think I need to change my schedule. I need to allow myself to relax more, to chill. I need to spend more time with my wife instead of working.

I think I need to relax after work, not trying to do side projects.

Also I haven't been intimate with my wife for a while, I need to change it as well, better to be intimate with my wife then with porn.

 

day 0

I viewed P today, hence a reset, even though no MO.

 

Day 1 complete!

By coincidence, my AP and I both reset on the same day, which was yesterday. So now the race is on between me and him! Coming to the NoFap website and checking in every day can become very routine. It will help me persevere if I can recall some of the competitive aspect, the challenge, the brotherhood. Even better, there are no losers here. I only want to see myself start winning alongside you!

Guardian angels, pray for us!

 

Day 13 - The PMO forces were at your tail but you crossed the Ford of Bruinen, leaving them behind. The House of Elrond is in sight!

My body didn't want to sleep long enough so it decided to wake up early. Only had 4 hours a sleep again. It did it again. I felt as if I needed to nap but I was able to get through it.

No urges in the beginning then it was building up. I thought I had none today but it was building. Because I like certain type of women that I was looking at online that I like. So it built up. I was wrong assuming I was not going to get any urges. Today I had the urges build up.

In the end, it diminished because I got angry about something I saw online. Mad enough not to relapse that's for sure. Anger is working to my advantage. I need to cool things in my head when I get the chance.

The Witch King & Nazguls need new steads now.
Keep on Fellowship!

 

I think it would help us all if you would not go into so much detail about all the cute girls you see at the gym. Can be very triggering to others.

 

Of course, I will try to minimize it as best as possible. I hope it doesn't trigger you as well.

 

Thanks for understanding. I’m fine but while I was reading your post it did start to feel like I was fishing a bit. I was thinking “what else is he going to say” and also imagining the scenes you were describing. It’s fine to say something like “I saw a cute girl” but to say “she took off her top and had big boobs” is a little much. I know you didn’t do it intentionally but just wanted to at least point out the danger I saw. I have found there is a lot of temptation on this nofap forum if you look around (don’t look around) and that’s why I try to just stick to LOTR and the Christian page.

 

Day 27 no PMO. I feel like I’m starting to get my good mood back. If I looked back at my relapse what I see is this: I went on several extended vacations and came back to reality at work and things were a mess. I was totally stressed and depressed over work and the responsibility of my “real life”. Then I turned to PMO for relief (which never works) and that only made me feel worse. Now that I’m almost 30 days on the other side I’m starting to gain control of my problems and my attitude is improving. Oh, and I am back on a walking routine daily so that also helps.

 

Day 371, 372 & 373!

I'm trying to start a food business!

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

32 Days Free of PMO.

Today I'll just be checking in, I'm spending the day off screens. Let us continue to pave our new paths.

Stay Strong!

@RiseToGreatness I hope the bad feelings of withdrawal leave you soon, I'm happy to hear you have vacation soon so that you can take it easy brother.

@hardcore_detox I'm sorry to hear for your relapse, but you seem to have found a plan of action for the next time. Stand again!

@Paul S. I'm glad that you didn't end up relapsing! Enjoy the lake today, it will be a nice change of pace.

 

Day 107
My mother always says to me "few drops of water create the reservoir". I think this quote helpful to your life .
Good luck

 

Thank brothers for sharing your knowledge.

@hardcore_detox you can do it brother. you have spent about 63 days on NoFap . Brother, you can gain it easy ...
@Paul S. All the losses are key to gain successes brother.

 

36 days

 

Checking in day 273.

 

day 1 - check in

 

Checking in. All good so far, hoping to have a clean weekend. Working on my goals is much more fulfilling than watching p.