The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 10
Big milestone for me. Encountered a sexualized image on the internet but skipped out of that real fast. Going to focus on greater discipline online and keeping my resolve strong as the days go on.

 

day 22 - No O
day 3 - No P/M
day 0 - No Psub: I failed completely "managing" my eyes re: ogling at attractive guys in NYC. Psub is just as deadly as porn, as it always inevitably seems to lead to a slippy slope.

 

Yes ,a lot of improvements.
Still going on.

 

Got a bit derailed..but things are now fine.
Thnx

 

Day 1 complete! Spent an hour or two playing ultimate frisbee and I could tell I was lagging compared to my peak performance and energy levels. This habit is so darn bad for us. I can't wait to kick it.

As was said above, I don't think it's entirely fair to blame the pornstars themselves. I'm sure more of the blame lies with the producers and the porn companies. It's all just business to them. The health and wellbeing of their customers and "employees" is the last thing on their minds.

Our Lady, Queen of Heaven, pray for us!

 

TRIGGER WARNING BUT EDUCATIONAL MESSAGE
yes, I too saw that how torturous the director and the producers are. The company members literally beats them and they gets permanent marks on their bodies, I saw it in an article. Also, some of those "employees" are forced to inject caffeine so they are not aware of what they are literally doing. This torture is somewhat up than the behaviours of animals!

There are several stories about this on fightthenewdrug.org Go check it, we could get motivation that what we are seeing isn't just an act, 50% of those videos are related to real Crimes. The person don't even get to know the thing he is watching is possibly forced act. The female trafficking is literally done here. Once they are illegally smuggled, they are given heavy dosage of drugs and makes them to act anything as they want when they are intoxicated. Also, there life expectancy is just 32 years! Means they die at the age of only 32 years on an avg. Just feel how the business is going, this multi billion dollar companies just... I don't have words to describe them. So this is the REALITY GUYS! People not awared of this, are literally promoting this non-human act by daily visiting there sites. So sad I feel how the world can go to this large extent! And it's everywhere as almost 75% of male world population is addicted to it followed by females with just 25%. This statistics could explain why successful people are less.

This also explains that males have more temptations. And our fight becomes more and more harder when our culture is turning to a direction where its becoming more harder to control. For I am aiming at the problem where it is almost impossible not to increase our urge and the challenge when we move outside our house to any general stores, gyms or malls. Yeah, there is no solution to this but that is a genuine problem which many of my bros fails to get aware while actually facing it...

 

Like Thanos, ouch. Not all of the female porn stars are to blame as the others said. Even former male porn stars get into the industry because of offers of "modeling" job or wanting to be a famous Hollywood movie star. Which is kind of surprising but that is a couple of stories I heard on how they got started. They get hooked into industry as well.

And now I kind of wish I talked to one how it is because I saw a couple of them at the gym in the past lol.

 

I know its a childish thought but you know experiencing dream world lol

 

Day 2 - Hobbit, Buckland the Shire

 

45 days – After leaving Moria, you enter the Kingdom of the Silvan Elves, Lothlórien.

Now I've built thick walls, my addiction cannot just pierce them. Instead it tries to slowly undermine them. Can't let this happen!

 

Checking in,

Another day in a new city, most of the day I spent reading book and walking around the city with my wife and dog,
We stayed in the old historical part of the city, which looks great, a lot of sights here to see.

I've done cold shower + Wim Hof breathing, I've noticed that I'm able to hold the air longer then 1.5 min after only a few sessions.

 

Day 1 no PMO. I’m feeling ok right now. Those stories about how the girls are tricked/forced into porn are helpful to me. When I go to those sites I am helping generate money that drives the industry forward which eventually damaged more young ladies. In the end it could be my daughters. If I can just manage to think of this when I’m about to have a relapse it should help me to stay motivated.

 

thx bro I needed that but sadly read it too late...
Day 0 again -.-

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

41 Days Free of PMO.

Slept well, I actually woke up earlier today and felt just fine. I feel myself more productive, overall. I continue with the norm, meditation, workout, exposure , reading and work.

Here is a nice quote for when things are difficult.

"Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I’m not going to make it, but you laugh inside, remembering all the times you’ve felt that way." -Charles Bukowski

Stay strong!

@HE^MAN Glad to hear it man, keep to your path.

@hardcore_detox I'm glad you're enjoying Wim Hof brother. Please remember not to force things, let it come naturally to you.

 

15 days an Elf now!
Low urges yesterday, I worked a little bit and spent time with my family.

Today I didn't worked out, I didn's sleep well, so I don't like to do exercise like that. Some sex thougths in the morning, but managed them. At least I took a cold shower.

Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 117
ZYZZ is the person who motivates me to challenge PMO evil

Keep Going Brother! ZYZZ is watching us . We're All gonna make it

 

Exactly I'm with your decision....Girls are naturally more beautiful .... But porn industry uses them to earn money and their beauty is ruined by industry

 

Day 39 hard mode check in. Came close to a relapse yesterday. Look at just a few images that are soft that I had accidentally found. Found myself looking for more but I stopped myself. I found myself feeling yucky when I first woke up, just from those few images. Not proud of myself, but I will be easy on myself. A silver lining in this is that just those few soft images were enough to get me aroused. Showed me I am healing. Images that soft would have not even phased me for the last 15 20 years. I was thinking about limiting my screen time yesterday. This is a good sign that I must. I was thinking more to end my addiction to screens. I had a realization yesterday. I have been trying to build good habits like singing, writing music, reading and exercising for a long time. It occurred to me yesterday that I am competing with social media and screens that are highly addictive. Yesterday I left my phone and iPad in a different room with an alarm set for when I could grab them. I got lots of reading in. Did some push-ups and some squats. I am limiting my screen time to 2 hours a day on days off and a half hour for work days. Hopefully this works. I want a life of abundance. PMO and screens is keeping that from me. I am putting my phone and iPad on grayscale to make screen time less stimulating.

 

Day 22 - You enter the cold Misty Mountains, the Hithaeglir.

Urges were light. Stopped at a 4 way section with my car. I saw an attractive woman crossing and I wanted to stare but I was waiting on the green light.
Temptation overall was kind of pathetic to be honest. I will take it as a win.

@ARCEUS No more talking about Porn stars for me. Now I have want start thinking of my favorite female pornstars with the sex scenes in my mind lol.

Essentially it is a reality. We still can't help it though.

Lastly, I regret it now. I regret all my PMO. I regret why haven't started this journey early on or have known the effects were real when I joined here. Just my thoughts.

PMO Orcs weren't that strong. I slaughtered them.
Keep on Fellowship!

 

Day 6. I am using this forum as a place to get my thoughts and emotions out. Definitely rebounding from my flatline and feeling my libido return today. I am looking forward to using this energy in a positive way. I feel motivated to accomplish my tasks and feel my focus and interest level increasing. I really need to find a sexual partner and begin building a healthy sex life. Does anyone have any advice on doing so?