The Lord of the Rings Challenge

10/7/2022 completed

day 1 - no O
day 5 - No M & self stimulation
day 5 - No P / Psub / addiction-induced arousal

 

Checking in Fellowship friends!

88 Days Free of PMO.

Overall replenishing rest yesterday. I take action today once more. Meditation, exposure, workout, reading and study.

To the brothers that relapse, please take your time an analyze what lead you down the path of relapse. What emotion were you feeling? What were you up to prior to getting to a relapse? Addressing your triggers is key to moving forward.

Stay Strong!


@LLOYYD Thank you brother. I agree regarding semen retention. As for the rules of the challenge, I maintain the same ones that @RiseToGreatness has adhered to for the challenge. I will not change them. I do not consider myself the "boss" of this challenge, as it would imply that I am above others (I'm not saying you're saying this either btw) rather, we are all brothers working towards a common goal and with the confidence of @RiseToGreatness, I will try my best to share the knowledge I acquire as I go on my own streak.

Regarding a DM, look at the top right, to the left of "Alerts" and "Log out". You will see "Inbox", select that and then select "start a conversation". At that point you just put the name or names of the people you want to have in you direct conversation.


@ARCEUS As you go on your path urges will lessen. The important factor is delving into the roots of your addiction and addressing them. Once you address them and cultivate healthy ways of dealing with discomfort (emotional or otherwise) then you can consider yourself fully free. Observe your urge, do not resist and question it. Feel the sensations in your body (do not build on the fantasy that pops in your head only observe the sensations in your body without judgment or resistance) and then delve into what lead this to appear. This is a lengthy process, simply counting the days will not free you. It is a start, but a lot of deep work needs to take place. This is why breaking an addiction is difficult. I've had urges even in my 400+ day streak, just rarer in instance.

 

1 day. Missed my check in yesterday. Missed my writing of the things I want to do yesterday. Made my bed when I got up. Still have not been laid off. Very tired. Soon.

 

I can't find "start a conversation" after clicking on "Inbox". No clue what to do there.

 

I’m good. Had a wee chat with myself in there, an internal dialogue on what I was thinking, why, and how silly it was.

When I got home I just took the dog a walk. Fresh air is always good, look at the trees, take a time out

 

I'm only on day 4, I mess up sugar fasting all the time, let alone dopamine fasting. I CAN'T DO THIS SHIT!

Saturday morning, I sleep long - ok, maybe I need that. I get up and my mind starts wandering, my motivation is at point zero, although I'm not depressed yet (that comes only some miles down this road of laziness and negativity)
Structure? Routines? An inner voice that guides me? Discipline? - NEGATIVE

Somehow it goes or somehow it goes wrong. That's the motto ...

Ok, ENOUGH.
I will control what I can control.
First things first: I'm not acting out. I'm not. And that's good!

Now I need a battle plan. And that's it for today. I hope I'll be back in a few days with a better outlook.

 

Brother ,it is not easy to describe. But This is my answer. I am not fully recovered from PMO. But we have a strong powerful reason to eradicate PMO, It can be easy to go free PMO path. I am not married , So definitely I don't have O problem. So that I have only P and M problems. First I realized why I want to quit that bad habit.

I have been working with my sister for 5 months . She always motivated me and helped me to solve math problems. I'm always working with my laptop . So I have huge chance to watch some p stuff too. But I always think , why i am watching these P stuff . And I don't want to lose my strength , visualizing skills , to these bad stuffs.

I set goals to my life. My country isn't a well developed country. Some times I don't have enough food to eat. Because of it , All the prices of foods, oil, medicines are rising daily. So that I want to get high salary job to survive this country. So that How do i think all p**n stars and other bad things. I don't have comfortable environment to live. Now I have lot of responsibilities . In my leisure time I watch some latset videos in body builders like Big ramy ,Chris Bumstead, Andrew Jacked., Nick Walker and listening some music. This is my new lifestyle.

Brother, As I mentioned that I'm not fully recovered. I have to go huge journey in Nofap. I have to develop some skills. I mentioned about my environment. I think this information are helpful.

If you get any discomfort during reading this please forgive me brother.

 

Everyday we abstain from enjoying the pleasures we have, we are growing passively .But if not able to use this new found willpower to develop new habits we might not actually see the results we want to achieve.

I have started with waking up early and eating healthy food . I used to be a insomniac often binge watching series all night long and eating a lot of junk food.


We will all develop ourselves to be the person we have always dreamed to be.

Slowly but definitely.

 

Earlier I used to focus on too many ways to develop myself but that later turned out to be too stressful and had a detrimental effect.

But I think just waking up early could initiate many other productive activities too.

 

Another great story. Lot of things as a student we have to get

 

long time no see again guys... hope you are all well

This is DAY 2 for me
sadly I already relapsed 3 times in Oktober
but the month isnt over yet!

Greets

 

Thanks for clarifying and sharing your wisdom!

 

Relapsed today. My biggest problem is in the morning when I wake up and don't have to get out of bed immediately. That's my struggle. I guess I will somehow force myself out of bed once my alarm goes off.

Day 0

 

Hey man, I feel you! What happened? Was it M or P? PMO session, binge or some softcore / insta stuff that made you stumble?

I can relate to the waking up in the morning. Better not have any device near the bed! Then you'll be safer. Or is it MO? Well, MO in bed is a problem that I know. The other problem for me is getting out of bed, getting motivation and drive and getting a clear head (making clear decisions for the day).

But we can overcome these issues!
What is your plan for you up-coming super long streak?

 

Day 5
Alone at home, with some urges, feeling loonely and some sad. Now I know that that is a trigger. But I will win this battle.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 9 no PMO.

 

Day 0, reset to PMO.

I'll be honest, I feel like crying. We are eight days into October and I've reset twice. That's once every four days, or basically twice a week. Two years ago I was at a point where I would relapse once every two weeks, not the other way around. I just keep slipping more and more. And the worst part is that I was having such a fantastic day up until I looked at porn. I was being very producting and accomplishing so many things. Why did this have to come along and ruin my day?

Okay, I will try this. A couple days ago I was playing online matches of a video game against random opponents, and I fought someone whose username was triggering words in Spanish, but I didn't know what they meant. I looked them up afterwards and realized what they were, and tried to forget about them. Today, I said that I would reward myself by watching a movie on my computer if I finished all my work, which I did. But then, as it was nighttime, there was no one else around, and the time for watching the movie was getting nearer, I thought more and more about looking up those triggering words to see what I would find. I had to close the door to my room before starting the movie, and once the door was closed and my computer was open, I did not fight against the temptation any more, looked at porn for close to an hour, and then MO'd.

I am so angry that my fantastic day and my experience of the movie, which by itself was very nice, one I remember from my childhood, was tainted and ruined by the experience of PMO right before it. This is causing me so much guilt. My streak was only three days this time! Saturday is the trouble. In the past month I have reset on Saturday 3 times. I think it has to do with the fact that my schedule is different and my day has much less structure. Even though I exercise, I also stay in my room for longer periods of time, and I don't have as much interaction with other people. Now I just have to remind myself that the past doesn't control the future. I relapsed again. It sucked and I hate it, but I can't change it now. This doesn't have to happen again.

Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us!

 

Wow this is an awesome challenge. I think it's the most detailed description in the OG post. Love the storyline and everything. It makes me want to re-read The Hobbit/LOTR series Maybe I'll buy it on paperback and read through it for fun sometimes

I always wanted to be a Hobbit and an Elf. I regularly refer to my basement apartment as a Hobbit hole in the Shire hehe

 

Day 15 PM free checking in, i am now an Elf!!

 

Day 2 checking in.

Mood: Feeling good and lively.