The Lord of the Rings Challenge

1 day. Missed my check in yesterday. Missed my writing of the things I want to do yesterday. Made my bed when I got up. Still have not been laid off. Very tired. Soon.

 

I can't find "start a conversation" after clicking on "Inbox". No clue what to do there.

 

I’m good. Had a wee chat with myself in there, an internal dialogue on what I was thinking, why, and how silly it was.

When I got home I just took the dog a walk. Fresh air is always good, look at the trees, take a time out

 

I'm only on day 4, I mess up sugar fasting all the time, let alone dopamine fasting. I CAN'T DO THIS SHIT!

Saturday morning, I sleep long - ok, maybe I need that. I get up and my mind starts wandering, my motivation is at point zero, although I'm not depressed yet (that comes only some miles down this road of laziness and negativity)
Structure? Routines? An inner voice that guides me? Discipline? - NEGATIVE

Somehow it goes or somehow it goes wrong. That's the motto ...

Ok, ENOUGH.
I will control what I can control.
First things first: I'm not acting out. I'm not. And that's good!

Now I need a battle plan. And that's it for today. I hope I'll be back in a few days with a better outlook.

 

Brother ,it is not easy to describe. But This is my answer. I am not fully recovered from PMO. But we have a strong powerful reason to eradicate PMO, It can be easy to go free PMO path. I am not married , So definitely I don't have O problem. So that I have only P and M problems. First I realized why I want to quit that bad habit.

I have been working with my sister for 5 months . She always motivated me and helped me to solve math problems. I'm always working with my laptop . So I have huge chance to watch some p stuff too. But I always think , why i am watching these P stuff . And I don't want to lose my strength , visualizing skills , to these bad stuffs.

I set goals to my life. My country isn't a well developed country. Some times I don't have enough food to eat. Because of it , All the prices of foods, oil, medicines are rising daily. So that I want to get high salary job to survive this country. So that How do i think all p**n stars and other bad things. I don't have comfortable environment to live. Now I have lot of responsibilities . In my leisure time I watch some latset videos in body builders like Big ramy ,Chris Bumstead, Andrew Jacked., Nick Walker and listening some music. This is my new lifestyle.

Brother, As I mentioned that I'm not fully recovered. I have to go huge journey in Nofap. I have to develop some skills. I mentioned about my environment. I think this information are helpful.

If you get any discomfort during reading this please forgive me brother.

 

Everyday we abstain from enjoying the pleasures we have, we are growing passively .But if not able to use this new found willpower to develop new habits we might not actually see the results we want to achieve.

I have started with waking up early and eating healthy food . I used to be a insomniac often binge watching series all night long and eating a lot of junk food.


We will all develop ourselves to be the person we have always dreamed to be.

Slowly but definitely.

 

Earlier I used to focus on too many ways to develop myself but that later turned out to be too stressful and had a detrimental effect.

But I think just waking up early could initiate many other productive activities too.

 

Another great story. Lot of things as a student we have to get

 

long time no see again guys... hope you are all well

This is DAY 2 for me
sadly I already relapsed 3 times in Oktober
but the month isnt over yet!

Greets

 

Thanks for clarifying and sharing your wisdom!

 

Relapsed today. My biggest problem is in the morning when I wake up and don't have to get out of bed immediately. That's my struggle. I guess I will somehow force myself out of bed once my alarm goes off.

Day 0

 

Hey man, I feel you! What happened? Was it M or P? PMO session, binge or some softcore / insta stuff that made you stumble?

I can relate to the waking up in the morning. Better not have any device near the bed! Then you'll be safer. Or is it MO? Well, MO in bed is a problem that I know. The other problem for me is getting out of bed, getting motivation and drive and getting a clear head (making clear decisions for the day).

But we can overcome these issues!
What is your plan for you up-coming super long streak?

 

Day 5
Alone at home, with some urges, feeling loonely and some sad. Now I know that that is a trigger. But I will win this battle.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 9 no PMO.

 

Day 0, reset to PMO.

I'll be honest, I feel like crying. We are eight days into October and I've reset twice. That's once every four days, or basically twice a week. Two years ago I was at a point where I would relapse once every two weeks, not the other way around. I just keep slipping more and more. And the worst part is that I was having such a fantastic day up until I looked at porn. I was being very producting and accomplishing so many things. Why did this have to come along and ruin my day?

Okay, I will try this. A couple days ago I was playing online matches of a video game against random opponents, and I fought someone whose username was triggering words in Spanish, but I didn't know what they meant. I looked them up afterwards and realized what they were, and tried to forget about them. Today, I said that I would reward myself by watching a movie on my computer if I finished all my work, which I did. But then, as it was nighttime, there was no one else around, and the time for watching the movie was getting nearer, I thought more and more about looking up those triggering words to see what I would find. I had to close the door to my room before starting the movie, and once the door was closed and my computer was open, I did not fight against the temptation any more, looked at porn for close to an hour, and then MO'd.

I am so angry that my fantastic day and my experience of the movie, which by itself was very nice, one I remember from my childhood, was tainted and ruined by the experience of PMO right before it. This is causing me so much guilt. My streak was only three days this time! Saturday is the trouble. In the past month I have reset on Saturday 3 times. I think it has to do with the fact that my schedule is different and my day has much less structure. Even though I exercise, I also stay in my room for longer periods of time, and I don't have as much interaction with other people. Now I just have to remind myself that the past doesn't control the future. I relapsed again. It sucked and I hate it, but I can't change it now. This doesn't have to happen again.

Sacred Heart of Jesus, have mercy on us!

 

Wow this is an awesome challenge. I think it's the most detailed description in the OG post. Love the storyline and everything. It makes me want to re-read The Hobbit/LOTR series Maybe I'll buy it on paperback and read through it for fun sometimes

I always wanted to be a Hobbit and an Elf. I regularly refer to my basement apartment as a Hobbit hole in the Shire hehe

 

Day 15 PM free checking in, i am now an Elf!!

 

Day 2 checking in.

Mood: Feeling good and lively.

 

Home alone is always going to be a challenge for me to. I’d an autopilot that would take me into PMO in those situations. We need to change that autopilot.
Like many on here I find a walk outside helps, fresh air and gets the heart pumping. Other thing that works for me in the last weeks is doing push ups or burpees until failure. I actually don’t want to feel horny when I’m home alone now as I fucking hate burpees!!!

 

Day 13 - The PMO forces were at your tail but you crossed the Ford of Bruinen, leaving them behind. The House of Elrond is in sight!

Feeling good (mood).
Well I have started my second fast (24 hours) earlier for this week. Gym soon or later.

Maybe I will say more later or not.

Starting again. Ready, set, go.

Completely relatable. This happens when I am fasting but include the boredom for me. Keep strong bro.

Sorry for the relapse. Understandable, I get that way when I look at P (intentionally). Then once that happens eventually MO. Full PMO is the results. Because in hard mode there is no looking at P. So my mind works like this, screw it now I have to reset then full relapse for me. Because rules are rules....sometimes I say screw this hard mode rules!

No looking at P....etc etc ranting in my words in my mind.

Lol I'm still on my Semen retention/NoFap goals still even I haven't done the deed right?

Evaluate and strategize for the next time. Every day is not the same even if you have a routine if you know what I mean. Don't do "Autopilot" as well. I'm considerate when I putting my words during my check ins for myself especially for you & some others who are really struggling.

Stay strong & keep on going fellowship bro.

Inspiring bro. All it takes is internet access, laptop/desktop computer/cell phone and free time. That is the battle. Being all alone then. I look at you and say there is no excuses on my end.

Any way, I did what I had to do so hopefully I can catch up to you!

Ohh those are the names. Sometimes I do follow Chris Bumstead (Cbum) stuff and exercise posts for knowledge on IG. Inspiration in body building. Nice choices, I have my favorites as well especially since working out is my daily/weekly routine. Amazing streak, keep up the great work Baki!

@ARCEUS I believe Baki is right because everyone's recovery is different. Some will take them to 90 - 100 days. Some others will take longer which means a longer streak is required. I could already tell that he is not fully recovered even if he is on 100+ days.


Always on my tail these PMO Nazguls. Evading and fighting back.
Keep on going Fellowship!