THE 100 DAY SPARTAN CHALLENGE (OPEN)

Day 21 - yesterday was a harder day. Got seriously triggered by someone, and managed to not act out and stay in control. But the effort made me angry and irritable all day. But I did it

 

Day 19

I'm going to say pretty good overall and in fact something happened important for me earlier. It explains in my recent post in my journal. Sometimes I explain in my journey to keep it short if you want to read it. Maybe at times I go longer on what I have to say. Caution when reading to some of posts. I am not trying to trigger anyone here.

@bettermeeveryday What? You know how to speak Chinese? That is awesome.
That is one of my goals to do along with my Semen retention/no PMO journey but I'm going to pick up and relearn my current goal for language learning.

@Iron Merc When you said what you said to @voltex saying "LUCK IS FOR RABBITS". My response is "Oh you mean, silly rabbit tricks are for kids?" I thought what you said is funny
I never heard of that expression haha. I am saying this because he didn't relapse. So it seems appropriate now lol. Sometimes, I am in a funny mood. Maybe I will share two scenes from a movie that is relative to this situation per say. I will share it soon or next day check in.

I guess I will share this as well.
Yes, I am getting my streak & I will prove it. Maybe that sounds over confident but I am getting my long streak and hopefully this current streak is my last one! Then again I did say I will take a little less or many L's before I finally succeed. I know I can do this.

I never shared this but I have nay sayers telling me here in the forums saying "Why do you want a long streak??" If they are reading this, then I say maybe I want to get a long streak you crap head!! Because you said that now that is fueling me even more to go further in my goals. Another response to them is screw you A hole. Rant done for now. This my expression after this.

Moving on because I needed to let it out.

I am serious more than ever. I know I can do this.

I would never discourage anyone over here and do my best to motivate others including Fellow Spartans here when needed if I can help them to keep going on this journey. We need to get rid of this PMO lifestyle for good. This is the goal isn't it?
Don't be doubled minded over here! You got this!

Again, your not safe in whatever streak you are.
Doing my best to be watchful of the traps out here from the enemy.

Let's go Spartans.

 

Oh no, I can't speak chinese, I used google translate there. But yeah, I am learning other languages. Best wishes to u on ur learning path : )

 

Right on brother, this is great stuff!

 

Day 48

I don't know if I have ever gone this long or even tried to or can remember. Feels good to live each day in VICTORY!

 

EX 23
Peeked for like 5m, probably gonna have to install a 3rd blocker since I forgot the password of the first two, feeling angry that it feels like I made 0 progress in 122 days but I also know it's because I haven't really tried to make new friends or build existing ones, only do some workouts at home and study art so probably gonna spend the rest of the day or even week unplugged and disconnected since I have been wavering for the past 3 days

I use google translate, but it's good to know that addiction is something that transcends language
Thank you for the kind words and stay strong

 

第 5 天
昨天有失眠的冲动，但我坚持下来了。我有很多充分的理由来解开这个谜。准确地说，这是一个谎言。只是，我们只需要对抗身体冲动的力量。来吧。

 

You should think about it this way, those videos and related bad books they make are like telling you how wonderful it is for me to lean against the wall to take drugs, come come, you take one too, we normal people treat them like crazy, right? , we should celebrate every day we persevere, every step of the way. Also, sometimes it is a better choice to not satisfy dopamine and let the body suffer. For example, I was really bored last night, but I told myself countless times, oh! I also have you guys, love your vibe

 

Day 2?
Struggling with check-ins.

 

Day 22 checking in

In the middle of a 2 day fast. I used fasting a lot in the past to lose weight, and it worked. Definitely now it’s a more spiritual exercise for me

 

well said. We are never safe on a streak as we can always fall. And anyone who questions what others are doing can be ignored - these forums and this community should be about giving support, and challenging negative behaviours or thoughts. Anyone who challenges a positive goal should be ignored.

 

Day 20

I just realized I past Day 16 here in this challenge. I'm proud of that. I did say I can do 2 weeks with no PMO. I proved and that's it.
THE 100 DAY SPARTAN CHALLENGE (OPEN) [Day 16] 9/25/22

Now all is left is to surpass my Semen retention & no PMO streak. Onward and marching toward it.

@Iron Merc when you said that "LUCK IS FOR RABBITS" to @voltex then is the movie scene that popped in my head. I still never heard or know this expression lol. That's why I said "tricks are for kids" . Both scenes are from the movie Ted 2 if you ever watched. No don't watch these type of movies but of sexual jokes in there and possibly nudity in these movies.

Warning explicit language these scenes.
This scene feels like as if your trying to buy P. It's just a cereal box


This second scene is so relatable lol. Yes, I used to have plenty but the physical DVDs & Blu-ray P items. I will talk more about this later in my testimony once I complete my main goals here. This is the reality when your having sex with gf/bf or hooking up along with heavy P use. Yes, I even am in the process in reading someone's success story who said he was straight and he ended up getting turned to "Transsexual" P (not hating on them). (I.g. PIED with women but getting attracted with transsexual women).
I'm telling you this will be the results sex outside of marriage with heavy P use along with MO or just PMO. You are going to be in trouble if you keep doing these things. Who knows what you will be attracted to if continue. For Iron merc, you are going the right way with the celibacy plan and same goes with women as well until you find your spouse. That's all I'm going to say for now.

Ah ok, I was going to ask if you used a translator or ask if you were of ethnic Asian background? I would do the same but sometimes it can be unreliable to use a translator because it can be off sometimes. That makes sense. I only know ni hao, ni hao mao, and wo ai ni. That's all I know with my Chinese language haha.
That is awesome, thank you for the wishes and also best wishes to you in your language learning

Indeed, I would totally agree. It's awesome to know despite of language barrier, we are still in the same goal to ridding this addiction once and for all. I will use a translator as well because for the time being I don't know any Chinese yet.

I'm also fasting right now. Maybe 2 days as well. We will see. It is spiritual practice if you gear that way.

So as some of you didn't know, I also fast as well. If I train myself more, I know I can do more days if I wanted to. Yup, this is my diet/fitness tool because I use it to workout at the gym as well. It's very difficult but well earn if you can do it.

Let's go Spartans.

 

Exactly To think we are in support of each other while we are struggling with this. Then again, it should expected in all areas in life (nay sayers).

Always trying to give my advice and support here. If I can't then I keep silent. Because this world is like "crabs in bucket list".

 

Day 5

 

Day 49

I have noticed that stress in life can cause me to want to tune out and fixate on porn. I realize now that I can make the choice to substitute many other activities to relieve stress, it doesn't have to be porn. This is great news because PMO weakens me as a man and prevents me from having normal relationships with woman. The longer I go with out PMO the easier it gets for me. So many new great habits and cognitive reframing happening in my life that I absolutely feel confident that I have overcome this old addiction. It really has faded down to almost nothing and I don't plan on feeding it anything so it will be completely dead soon. I declare VICTORY over this foe!!!

 

EX 24

Ya, I accept days as they come and today I feel a little better, and I know that in the past I would have never been able to resist the urge to watch porn, also reading the last sentence put a smile on my face, there is very few forums on this site that is supportive and accepting of each other

Speaking from experience, I still had many times I felt the need to PMO but it gets a lot easier to brush it off or use the energy for something else

 

In 50 mins will start Day 62.

 

day 5

 

Some voices in this are wrong, don't listen to it, it's also about people who say this for more than a year

day 6

 

Day 3 of challenge, checking in.
Struggling a bit today. Prayed some urges away. Feeling calm now.
Goodnight, and have a pleasant tomorrow.