The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Second check in today because I don't feel very close to NoFap and the fellowship currently. Typical reset syndrome. I'm trying to suppress the fact that I failed a few days ago.

@CALM IN SUFFERING @daddyG1981 I have similar fantasies sometimes

 

every day we are ready for the fight!!!

 

10 days – You spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area.

 

Day 26 no PMO. Feeling a little
Better today. I went for a long hike with a friend and talked some things out. My wife heads out of town today for two nights so I’m going to institute my “no phone in bed at night” rule to help get me through.

 

Day 6

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

105 Days Free of PMO. Today I reach King.

I'm feeling slightly better, although my motivation is not so high. 3 more days remain for the week of challenge. I will take my time and do what I set out to do for the day.

"It never ceases to amaze me: we all love ourselves more than other people, but care more about their opinions than our own." -Marcus Aurelius

Stay Strong!

@LLOYYD Despite what happened, I do hope you decide to return brother. I hope you continue to move forward in your streak. As for twitter, I think your decision in stopping it is wise.

105 days You reached Henneth Annûn, a hidden refuge of the Rangers of Ithilien. You´re now the commander of army´s and ruler of hearts. People love you. “Who am i?” “You are our King, sire!”

 

Amazing brother!

 

Thank you brother. but brother I have to go long journey.. I think this will be very boring to read.In briefly year 2018 I watched first p**n video due to bad friend's advices. I didn't know it is a good or bad . But finally I addicted to p videos. I pay lot of money to get Internet cards to watch them. After several years, I realized that my problem solving skills and my strength were being decreased due to that stuff. But I couldn't manage watching p stuff. Finally I got low marks in exams . Then I considered that the darkside of porn . You know brothers, We can't stop watching p in one day. Because I was addicted to it. And finally I stopped watching p videos. But I was addicted to p games. P games are very dangerous than
watching p stuffs . Because Video games are interesting and addictive. And porn also. So when the P games ( P + games ) are highly addictive than drugs. That was my silly decision so don't do that brothers.

After that, On one day, I decided to stop watching p stuff. because of it, lol I watched Baki The grappler film. And I realized that Strength is the most important thing to us. And I watch lot of youtube videos about How to stop watching p. And I found information about this website.
First ' I read the whole Nofap magazine. I think When we join to Nofap website , They send us it to our mail box. Finally I changed my lifestyle. I changed my vision. I watched Lot of bodybuilding Stuff instead of watching p. You know Watching Body building stuff all the day in youtube is a time wasting thing but finally I survived my first day . Wow it was a huge victory for me. After that I joined small Gym due to financial problems. Working out is not only help my body but also in Nofap. After that I reduced watching Yt videos daily. And I thought What do i do in My future . I followed some courses too. Another Big help was ZYZZ brah's motivational videos. I watched them and I thought Why did I slave to this free P stuff. I always worked with my sister. So that I didn't have enough time to watch P. And This is my story in short.
Final words , Keep Playing the Game. Never give up brothers

 

Day 181
ha ha another palindrome

 

Check in day 22

 

You are doing great! Keep going!

 

@CALM IN SUFFERING @daddyG1981 @PeaceOnEarth108

Guys, be realistic! Probability that you'll die sooner than your wife is much higher. I worked in insurance company for 4 years. Trust me. People want equality, but nature and statistics show that insurance pricing for men and women should be different. My boss joked that if I want to die together with my wife, I should get seven years older than me. Hm... Maybe that's not too bad - to be a sugar baby to some very rich older woman.

Summa summarum, you are doing really louzy job selling me marriage right now.

Jokes aside, I thank you for your honesty. Addicts are often compulsive liars. Honesty, stopping lies (especially to ourselves) is what pushes us to progress. You seem to be realising this too.

 

Day 3 checking in.

 

back to 0. It's ok. Was not to hardcore P. I am able to set the filter level on covenant eyes. I had it set to normal. I searched for stuff on youtube. Found some soft stuff and mo'd to it. Lesson learned. I set it to strong blocking. It puts restriced mode on youtube and other things. I took it off. The strong blocker stayed on for awhile after I changed it. I will have to see if I can't get the account admin to set himself as the filter manager. Hopefully the fact that it takes awhile to turn it off will be enough to keep me away until I can get somebody else as filter manager. I can't change it. Have to get ahold of my account admin.

I won't be seeing family again for a couple months. I might have to avoid talking to them on the phone for awhile too. They are very triggering for me. I need comfort after talking to them or spending time with them. My weekend with them was a major cause of this fall.

I need to pray that God heal what my family did to me. I know he will.

Was watching a podcast on youtube the other day. Talked about the importance of a half hour of silence every day. If I am going to make any habit, that should be the one to make. I am going to start doing that today. This has to stick. Maybe I can eventually make it longer.

 

Congrats brother!!!!

 

10 days
Low urges yesterday. Trying to focus in my work and to increase my concentration time.
Today I worked out and took a cold shower.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

I'm reading rebooting material again after a long time not doing so. I feel better reading it, and I want to finish the Soaring Eagle pdf I have.

 

Happy that my cold got over finally but during the time I have been binge watching series and have started eating unhealthy food and all. Now its going to be a really difficult task to get rid of these habits.

 

In about 5 hours, I'll have one day again without M. It'll be two without P.

 

Check in day 23