The Matrix Challenge

Day 72.
Checking in

 

So true. My way to beat this addiction: read a lot, run a lot, learn Spanish - so even if I fail, I'll have some benefits and achievements under my belt. I'm not a loser although my brain tells me so.

 

Day 0! Blue pill.
Matrix has me everytime. New things same methods. I chose blue pill again.

 

I long those days I had attained freedom once. These extreme emotions make me feel worthless sometimes and these agents often whisper "why even bother trying?".

But like our mate, @Red_John mentioned.
My reply to the agents is the finger.

Let's crack the code again. No matter what I'll always take the red pill.

 

Hi, I am back to become the neo.

 

Reset. Still the blue pill. I thought it was THE STREAK but I was wrong. When you feel strong and invincible when not facing adversity, you delude yourself. Only the real suffering shows how strong you are. And I'm still not strong enough but I will be soon...

This meme show the true nature of life. Each choice brings suffering but different kind:

 

Welcome back @Lotus Heart ! Great to have you with us!

I would just like to say that I apprentice all you guys and all the love and support that everyone share so freely with each other! And a shout out to @Red_John for monitoring the thread, it means alot man, appreciate you.

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Day 26!

 

Day 1 check in.

 

Instead of i getting away from Mr. Smith,
he instead gave me this:


I see him laughing the crap out:


Back to the Matrix, but not for long Mr. Smith

 

I find interesting idea for the ranks that's not counting, so if someone reboots more or less, it can get some rank when not rebooting often to get some sort of progress and achievement.

 

I guess we can take care of the ranks by ourselves, @Red_John. Low ranks don't matter if some people, like myself, have short streaks. The hall of fame should be for those with long streaks, such as 30 days, 60days etc. So John sit back and relax

 

2) Maybe just count days of 2023? That way Neos will be only the guys who were clean the entire calendar year. Restart ranks, counters for 2024 at EOY.

 

Day 73.
I would like to share with you about my feelings and worries right now.
I am seeing a wonderful woman, and we are closing to the point where we gonna engage in sex, that is for sure.
What I feel is I am more confident and I can seduce women. But what I’m not confident about is my erection. I don’t know if it’s flat line or something else, but I just don’t get that testosterone rush, where I would go crazy to ravish a woman.
My last relationship was just like that, when she said she needs more sex, sometimes more than one time a day (because of the distance, we used to meet only on weekends), and it didn’t work out… I have had severe PIED and maybe it’s just that, I don’t know… we broke up. After that I started this challenge and I’m now on day 73.
I just don’t wanna loose another relationship because of similar reason.
Any comment and insight is very welcome.
Stay strong brothers!

 

2) Agree , because can be someone with 360 days and say "I'm Neo", there has to be a limit.

 

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