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108 days free of PMO.
Wise words @Redemptionisrequired

 

Day 57
Mood 6/10 & Energy 5/10

Not sleeping well again: make the 6,5 - 7 hours but wake up at 5:30/6AM and cannot fall asleep. Feel headache / tired and groggy the rest of the day. Just did a meditation session of 30 min that really helped a lot. Did fall asleep a little but glad to feel better. No physical porn urges, but some light frustration on the mental part: had date 3 with a girl and we hitted of quite nicely with the kissing and hugging. Thought she wanted to go the whole way but she did not. Now haven't heard from her for almost a week (did send a message on Wednsday, no response). On to the next right? Making sure to not relapse by posting this message. Only 5 days left for the 2 month mark!

 

Well, stay strong. Anything wrong with you, probably she realized that was cheating her fiancé or husband. This happened to me we had 2 dates and at the third she never appeared and I couldn't communicate anymore with her. Three months later I received the news she was just married with her 4 year boyfriend.

 

Day 10

So many wise word being said here - I’m taking notes to it all.

 

Day 2.

 

Day 44!

 

You can create a journal thread in this site and take the notes. Check mine near my avatar

 

I received an email from Mark Queppet that I think it worth to be shared here:

 

Day 276!

 

109 days free of PMO.
I heard that a single, pretty girl at work finds me attractive.
I was happy with that and had some healthy sexual imagery about her.
Unfortunately that resulted in a wet dream yesterday.
I will continue staying away from fantasy even if it is healthy and appropriate. I can't quite handle it yet.

Another thing. I have been hurt many times by having fantasies and dreams about girls that were not realistic.
I would imagine how life could be with them. (In this case imagining how sex with her would be when I have only heard a rumor in reality).
Reality always finds a way to reassert itself. Better find a way to stay close to it.

 

Day 0

I relapsed.

And you always feel so bad about it. Like a total failure.

But i know why i did it, and how to change my behavior in situations like that to stay on track.
One of the things i have realised is that i need to go look at my lidt with all the reasons why i have to go through the pain. All the reasons nofap i worth it.
I hope and think this will give some added clarity in the critical moment.
Also other thing like always having a plan of what to do, so i donkt have to think about that and get tempted.

So i dont despair too much.

Although, when i know how much staying clean means to me, and how pmo is hurting me, but i still relapse, i do wonder if staying clean is even possible.
But it is. I know it. Many have done it. But once, they also struggled, just like us.

Our streaks will become longer and longer. The urges weaker and weaker, and fewer and fewer.
But its not that we will never have urges. They will always be there. There is no such thing as breaking free. Our porn addiction will always be a part of us. We cant pretend that it one day wont be.

But we can stop it from hindering us in living our lives.
We can stop it, and start living.

 

Day 45!

I am now a:

 

110 days free of PMO.
I have a lot of studying to do today.
I'll limit screen time on non studying activities though.
@Ūruz congratulations on ascending!

 

congrats brother

 

Day 277

 

Congratulations @Ūruz great achievement

 

Day 0!