[14-CHALLENGE] THE FOURTEEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

12/14

 

Day 2/14

-woke up a couple of times last night, and couldn't sleep properly.
-my mind tried to pursue me to watch p & fap to go to sleep but i choose otherwise (I'm proud of myself for not caving in)

 

Relapsed yesterday day 1 today

 

Day 6

 

5/14.

 

Day 7/14 checking in - halfway
(Day 17 total)

Well done @Random guy from abyss

 

13/14

 

Day 3/14

-had urges yesterday due to lack of sleep (just being aware of where they originate, I was able to held off against it)

 

Day 7

 

not easy! good job.

 

slept with gf yesterday but had to think of porn to get off. being strict that means reset the counter, so 0/14.

 

14/14 guys- see you in the next challenge!

 

1/14

 

I think it's day 8 or something?
Feeling great. After day 5-7 it gets much easier as you have more practice controlling your mind. That's a reason why I'm doing this. Mind control. I do have the occasional urges, but I have to intentionally ignore it and it will go away eventually. The other thing that has helped me the most is keeping busy. Of the urges I do have, almost all are when I'm bored doing nothing and have no other thoughts to think about but masterbation. Passing day seven was big for me. This is part of a series of things I'm starting to improve my health, happiness, and masculinity and between day five and seven I felt substantial improvement. I now feel much better, and it is much easier to keep going. At first I doubted I would be able to get to seven but now I think I can get to 14 days no sweat!

 

Day 4/14

-my mind tries to think of horrendous thoughts(to get my attention)
Just have to remind myself these are just thoughts not real-life instances and I can choose which thought I want to explore.

 

Day 8

 

Day 0

-What I found out about myself is I get triggered by NSFW curious topics brought up in a podcasts

-F twice thinking I have already told my accountability partner And thinking I should watch so much porn that I get desensitized.

(its a circle of sleep deprivation>relapses>always tired after sleeping because of relapse)

Takeaways
-have enough sleep (cover up remaining sleeping on weekend)
-have to be attentive while listening to a podcast

 

Day 1/14

-Had a good sleep (after adding some changes, will repeat those & fix my sleep cycle)

 

Day 2/14

-OK sleep (couldn't completely follow the new routine but it seems effective)
-As per the Porn reboot podcast one of the activity successful rebooters follow everyday is prepare one 'a phrase' & 'read it'.

phrase that I came up with:

you know your demons would you face them? or run from them?

 

Day 10.
Not sure how to feel
I feel like I've gone back to normal, or at least my "masculine energy" is fading. I'm getting constant erections, which is a good sign of testosterone. IDK what to think about this. Maybe I need to masterbate after this challenge and then try again? Or I need to change something else? Not sure. Urges are constant and I think I need a little bit more time to focus on mind control.