THE 100 DAY SPARTAN CHALLENGE (OPEN)

Day 85

 

Day 36. TOP OF RECRUITS.

 

Day 10: Feeling great, up to double digits now. Makes me realise that time flies, been nearly 10 days since. Feeling more myself, more me, more centred and more confident in me. My goals in regards to pornography have been to safeguard ME, myself and my personality, for pornography makes me into someone else, someone not me, and someone I don't want to be. Harbouring me, having me, being me - that's one of the things that keeps me straight on this journey, even after so many days of abstinence, when the brainwashing starts to appear like a "good idea". Being ME, in this moment, in this day, this reality, and not living in the past or in times where I did feel good about myself, for I feel good about myself now. I've never been so confident in ME, the real me, not a false self created in order to attain an equilibrium for a lack of love within. Feeling "in the moment", real, not separate from life.

 

the efforts taken to leave pmo for over 2 years are working very well. the most effective thing was understanding the mental aspect of addiction. I was doing it to run away or distract myself from the problems of life. career and my social under confidence. basically i was running away from pain using this pleasure.

 

Day 96!

 

Day 66 - SPARTAN COMMANDER


Challenging and finally a battle. Earlier temptations came online, a little bit of fantasizing & craving for sex but I didn't yield. Such a challenge but this is not the worst I have endured though. Yes, I was Corny today to want to do it or sex. But I love the challenge!

Xerxes: Kneel and PMO at mine.

Me: The idea of kneeling, see slaughtering all those PMO soldiers of yours, uh, it's left a nasty cramp in my leg. So kneeling and PMO will be hard me.

Xerxes: Honoring the very name of Sparta or your name will be punishable by death.

Me: The world will know that free men stood against a PMO tyrant, that few stood against many, and before this battle was over, that even a god-king can bleed.

Who is to say it will happen later if I was forced to do so including other situations as well. I will not bow my knee. We all fall short but eventually we must rid it in the end. No PMO/no MO/no M/no edging.

Fighting as a SPARTAN COMMANDER.
Let's go Spartans.

 

Day 07 check guyzz....recent days i amm too busy in life and i also stay away of porn . I am so happy sorry i didn't check in last 6 days ...i hope u accept my check ins...

 

Day 23 - Spartan Trainee

 

About 30 mins until end of Day 10, onto Day 11. Core feelings of why I use pornography coming up for me (guilt, shame, anger, sadness etc), so I've just been biding my time and seeing this as the death of the porn addiction and the freedom of myself. This emotional process is necessary, I have to go thru this in order to forever free myself from this horrible, crippling disease.
Luckily, I have today off work and tomorrow, so I have time to be by myself and do whatever I wish to do. I might do some gardening today, some fresh air and exercise is good for the mind, body and soul. But yeah, into Day 11!

 

Day 86

 

Day 11

 

Day 37. TOP OF RECRUITS. Won't rest until I make it into the army.

 

Day 97!

 

Day 67 - SPARTAN COMMANDER

This was a battle Spartans. I got hit with heavy urges and temptations just like yesterday but harder. Rock hard down below to do the deed and give in to these PMO soldiers. Ready for sexy time 100%. Hit with P-images and videos. Lying in bed very hard and helpless. Very Corny for that moment. Guess what? I didn't yield! Almost fell but I conquered and endured my urges!! Awoo Awoo!! Fighting the PMO Immortals.

Fighting as a SPARTAN COMMANDER.
Let's go Spartan.

 

Day 24 - Spartan Trainee

 

Day 12/13

 

Day 87

 

End of Day 11, now on Day 12. Damn time flies, 11 whole days since I used. Got the slight headache today, that comes with the withdrawal period. Feeling a bit like a failure today, feeling like I want to be more "successful" in life, but I know that that is just the effects of pornography upon me. These feelings are slowly, tepidly cooling. And even if these feelings of failure are true, then how come I'm on Day 12? Isn't this success? Isn't being FREE from pornography, an addiction that I have quit and overcome, the greatest success and ultimate achievement of my life?

Night time plan of isolating my electronic devices from my home is really helping, so will continue to do this until the beginning of July '23. and see where I'm at from there.

On a side note, I am beginning to learn that everything is about timing, and that you can't rush the things you want to have and see in your life. It sometimes feels like things aren't working out or that the universe is trying to stop you from getting to where you want to be and see. But the reality is that when the time is right, everything will fall into place. You just gotta keep doing the right thing everyday, keep your mind steadily turned towards where you want to be and see, and faithfully let the universe do what it was created to be: To take care of you.

 

Day 59

 

Day 38. TOP OF RECRUITS. Can't wait to make it to soldier one week from now.