Accountability for All

I have seen porn. Resetting my counter back to zero.

 

3 more days to 90 brush, I’m making It!

 

Fucking badass!

 

Checking in - Yesterday was hard to deal with the withdrawal symptoms but I talked with a sex therapist, he soothed me and helped me a lot. I`m doing greate.

 

Checking in - Yesterday I was going to work all night but I thought that was a bad idead and then I went to bed. My sleep quality was terrible and I was super needy while sleeping. I gotta be careful with that.

 

Resetting my counter again.

 

Yesterday was hard. I didn`t sleep well, had a wet dream, the chaser effect was activated and I was super needy. I was incredibly vulnerable, but I kept doing my taks, went to the mall to work on my hustle and I made it through another day.

 

Completed day 1.

 

Checking in - on Sunday I saw a sexy thumbnail on YouTube, which seemed like a very small trigger at first, but then I noticed the huge effects of it. A series of withdrawal symptoms kicked in, I got really distraught and that almost made me succumb to pont.

 

I masturbated. Resetting my counter back to zero.

 

Resetting my counter again to zero.

 

Checking in - Yesterday was tough. My depression and devasted self-esteem kicked really hard. My desire for porn was tremendous, and because of that, I went to a library, stayed there all day, wrote in my journal, exercised, took a cold shower, and talked with my sex therapist. I made it through the day, even though I cried a lot. Addiction starts with pain and it will end with pain. ONE DAY AT A TIME.

 

Resetting my counter back to zero.

 

Checking in - Yesterday was hard as well, the withdrawal symptoms tortured me for a few hours, but I survived. I approached a beautiful woman and she decline, which is completely fine. To make a long story short, yesterday was great, for real, I was very productive.

PS - WHERE ARE THE WARRIORS OF THAT FUCKING FORUM? DID THEY QUIT?

 

Checking in - I`m doing great, yesterday was one of the best days of my life. Talk about crazy. But, I still have a lot to improve in my love life, I`m way too shy.

 

Checking in - My sexual energy has been pretty damn high, but instead of giving in to porn, I use that energy to be productive.

 

I have masturbated. Resetting my counter back to zero.

 

Day 1 completed.

 

Checking in - I`m doing great, it`s been more than two weeks of abstinence, it hasn`t been easy but the struggle is worth it. Today I`ll have a therapy session with a sex therapist, we`ll work on my self-esteem.

 

Today I have relapsed three times. Resetting my counter back to zero.