The Matrix Challenge

Day 9

 

I would like to go on exile program for 14 days. I will be back on April 10th for continuing counting days.

 

Oh yeeah, back on the mission day 5:

 

And i posted late day 5, so day 6:

 

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Day 8

If anyone has tips on how to minimise thoughts of a sexual nature please do share!

Dw I haven’t relapsed but I keep getting mental images of people I’ve slept with. I’m trying my best to not think about it more or visualise it, otherwise it will lead me down the same slippery slope and I don’t want to start again from scratch.

Thanks for any input gang, hope everyone is doing well!

 

Day 20

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world. But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. To Him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.
1 Peter 5:8-11

 

I had a dream that I watched softcore P last night. It felt so real. I PMO'd in my dream and it felt like it was exactly the remedy that I needed. I felt great and no guilt or shame afterwards but I was still bummed that I had to reset my day counter. In this dream, I convinced myself that I need porn in my life because it made me feel great and so I fell into a binge relapse of more hardcore material. Thank goodness I woke up and realized it was just a dream but it felt so incredibly real. I checked to see if my shorts were wet when I woke up but they weren't. So I didn't ejaculate in real life. I wonder for the people that have a "normal" relationship with porn. How do they do it? I don't think I'm able to watch P like once a week (I've tried). For me, it's all or nothing when it comes to P. I either PMO every single day, 1 - 2, sometimes 3 times a day consistently or don't consume P at all. There's no middle ground for me. How do people do that? haha. Perhaps with the help of this site and my determination to go on streaks, I probably am able to watch P just once or twice a week but I'll pass on that. I'll rather keep going on this long streak that I'm currently on and continue to see where it takes me. I'm back in college. I actually don't think I'd be in college right now if I was still indulging in my addiction. Maybe yes, but I don't think so.

 

Hah, good one!

 

Forgot to say thanks, i had a nice rest. As always, Snake Plissken is the symbol of rebellious freedom. Never gets old

 

That was literally @The man with the plan waking up this morning after dreaming about the enemy / PMO.
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Sounds like you’re going thru a test / being tested atm @99PROBLEMS&F4Pis1. Just take care of yourself & be self aware, might be a phase you’re just gonna have to bear. Not gonna be easy but if you get through it to the other side you’ll be stronger & better equipped. #NoPainNoGain
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Thnx for sharing @The man with the plan I love analysing dreams & what they might mean to us or why we dreamt about something.

I’m the same, all or nothing type.. rarely do I ever just do it once, it’s at least twice.
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Rebellious freedom.. I like that, we’re fighting for our freedom. Aren’t you close to beating your record @Interface?

 

Meditation maybe ??

Day 10

 

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Yes, one and a half day left, i prepared a meme pretty self-explanatory when the time comes

 

@RacemS
thank you! I do meditate regularly, maybe I should increase the time and really be more mindful

oh you don’t have to ask me twice to dance @Red_John I’m deffo going to do this!! Thank you for the great suggestion, lord knows I love a boogie

 

It seems like I’m still learning how to properly reply on this forum with quotes haha, do bare with me people :’)