Going on a 50 day streak

Yes! Good that you see it. Resist the urges. And if it is difficult, consider avoiding party scenes for a while

 

Day 40

I just woke up and it felt like my dick was on fire. I was incredibly aroused. It took a few minutes, but I was able to get up and get my shit together. I wrote down my notes, like I do every morning, and found out that I always go into fighting the urges. Like, I want it succeed to badly that I don't even want to give the urges one sliver of hope. Instead, I need to have the tools available to fight the urges, but I mainly need to focus on living my life. And that I need to find other things to do that occupy my mind.

Yesterday no urges. Some frustrations about making a contract, as my design program didn't want to do what I wanted to do.

Work out:
I did an elaborate dumbbell to strengthen my muscles and took a walk in the evening.

Netflix:
Watched an hour of The Good Place. Very entertaining. Never watched it, but it's actually very good.

Meditation:
I did a 15 minute meditation but fell asleep right when I finished. I woke up, did my post on a different thread and went to bed.

Your Brain On Porn / Study:
I read about all of our motivations to stop and all the struggles that we encounter and sexualized images are easier to access than ever. An album cover, an Instagram post or an unfortunately phrased Google Search could confront you with something you really don't want to see. The PMO in you thinks you want it, but if you give in, you will remain is slave forever. Therefore you must resist the urge to watch something 'innocent'. If you know you can't, like I know about myself, block the everliving daylight out of your internet. Make it only for your job, your study and nothing else. No social media, no adult things ofcourse, no memesites (they also contain P), no Reddit/Imgur and limited Streaming. And when it gets tough, speak about it with someone you trust.

Sleep + evening routine:
Started my routine on time and feel really rested.

 

THE VANQUI JOURNAL
Day 28 (16/05/23)
THE STREAK CONTINUES!

PMO - No big urges. Everything seems okay at the moment.

GENERAL - Just trying to stay consistent with my sleep pattern + the amount of sleep I get in. Partying on Saturday through me off course a little bit so I need to re-focus. I think I'm going to quit any alcohol that isn't wine, it just makes me feel like shit not even worth it tbh.

Plan for the day:
09:00 - 10:00 Gym
11:00 - 13:00 Maths
13:30 - 14:30 Meeting with wellbeing officer
15:30 - 17:30 Chemistry revision
17:30 - 18:45 Dinner
19:00 - 21:00 Chemistry revision
21:00 - 21:45 Duolingo
21:45 - 22:30/45 Reading time
22:45 - Lights off.

 

Day 41

No real urges apart from the thing that happened in yesterday morning. Was able to do some study about subjects for my job, as I am aiming to get some industry certificates soon. Spent way too long on my first quotation for my customer. Wanted it to be perfect, but it never is.

Work out:
I continued my elaborate dumbbell workout and I feel much stronger. Took a walk in the evening.

Netflix:
Watched The Good Place for an hour. Did you know that show has 4 seasons?

Meditation:
I did a guided meditation, but didnt care for it at all. I got distracted by the tension in the voice of the speaker and I couldn't really follow the instructions. The music was also stupid.

Your Brain On Porn / Study:
I read about a news article about someone who was addicted to PMO. In the span of 1,5 year she got incredibly addicted and skipped school to do it. It was shocking to read. She had intense therapy to deal with her addiction. But imagine that it was 23 years instead of 1,5 years. It is dangerous my dudes! Don't underestimate it.

Sleep + evening routine:
Started my routine on time and went to bed on time. Feel rested and fresh

 

I agree 100%
Congratulations on 40 days!

 

Day 42, approaching the big five-oh!

No real urges, but my dick was on fire again this morning. My GF came by yesterday and we were intimate. I guess my dick being on fire and being intimate with my girl have some sort of relationship. We didn't have sex this time and I think this really helps to control the urges. The day after I O'd last time, it was difficult to control myself

Work out:
I didn't do my dumbbell workout, but took 2 walks! Did 30 push ups in the evening.

Netflix:
Watched an hour of The Good Place on Netflix. Almost finishing season 1. Are the other seasons any good?

Meditation:
After my experience with guided meditations, I went back to an unguided breathing meditation. I could focus on me and completely relax.

Your Brain On Porn / Study:
I read some posts of fellow fapstronauts and the stories of why they started. There is some crazy shit here on NoFap! Some fapstronauts have pledged to never O again, as it takes away their life energy. They feel sick after it. I found it interesting to read about their experiences, but try to stay away from it from now on.

Sleep + evening routine:
Started my routine late, as I had to bring my GF back home. Had time to sleep in this morning.

 

Day 43

No real urges, besides being incredibly aroused yesterday morning when I woke up. But is important to keep yourself busy with things you want to do! Yesterday was full with activities and family until late.

Work out:
Took my evening walk and did an elaborate dumbbell workout. No push ups. I'll do them today again

Netflix:
Watched an hour of The Good Place on Netflix. Finished season 1. Season finale was original and unexpected! However, I will stop watching. It makes me feel uneasy, as there are some overt sexual references. That’s just not what I am looking for.

Meditation:
I did my regular breathing meditation of 15 minutes and could focus. However, I did fall asleep for 2 minutes and came back again.

Your Brain On Porn / Study
I read about a movie that is streaming about a couple of which the man is addicted to porn. It’s called Urge and I intend to see it soon.IIt has a detrimental effect on their relationship and ultimately on the man's life. And it sounds close to home, as I know what effects it has on a relationship, because I’m living it. PMO will ultimately smash everything into small pieces while thinking it will be completely innocent. Its absolutely not. The fight may be over, but the war is still raging. @Tan Korrey maybe the movie is something for you too!

PMO will always try to regain territory, so be aware of that. If you think you had a good day without urges, know that PMO is still there waiting. It is in no hurry and it will wait until you’re asleep before it attacks. And you will never see it coming.

Sleep + evening routine:
Started my routine late, as I had an activity until midnight. Not helping my routine, but I feel good. Tonight’s another chance to go to bed early.

 

I'm up for this challenge currently on day 8

 

THE VANQUI JOURNAL
Day 31 (19/05/23)
THE STREAK CONTINUES!

PMO - Not been on here for a few days. Just been focusing on life and trying to get everything done. Exam season is hectic but we are slowly getting through it. Urges have been low. Gym has been keeping my arousal levels in check. Going to the gym helps me burn off excess energy so I feel more relaxed after a gym session (and tired obviously).

GENERAL - Sleep quality has been really poor this week, need to stay focused and get consistent again. My cortisol levels go through the roof when I don't sleep well so an increase in stress, body temp & fatigue are really noticeable. My parents have gone on holiday so I have the house to myself for 3/4 days. No distractions, time to get the consistency going again.

 

The movie sounds very interesting! Well done boysss

 

Day 44

No real urges, but had to keep the door closed when I woke up. Saw my GF yesterday and we were intimate. Had sex, but didn’t O. It was doable with the urges, but I know that I always need to stay vigilant at these times.

Work out:
We took a walk in the forest yesterday afternoon and I did an elaborate dumbbell workout when my GF was cooking. No push-ups. I'll do them today

Netflix:
Watched an hour of The Good Place on Netflix. Decided to keep on watching, because I actually love the plot. Good to strictly stick to my timer of an hour, as it is very easy to tell myself stories why longer would be no problem.

Meditation:
I did my meditation very late yesterday evening. I only had the focus for 10 minutes, instead of the usual 15 minutes

Your Brain On Porn / Study
It’s great to see that other people work differently with their addiction. I’m not Christian, but I do see people who have overcome their addiction with help/strength of their faith. You need to fill yourself up with other patterns than those of addiction. Whether it is sports, activities or faith, it can fill that hole in yourself.

Sleep + evening routine:
Brought my GF home very late, but still was able to stick somewhat to my routine.

 

Day 57
With some friends at group therapy in Canada.
Going through some breakthroughs, opening up emotionally. Lots is thanks to no PM for sure. I'm renewing my happiness baseline, haven't gone so long without that crap since 5th grade (18 years), that's crazy.

So happy and so strong nothing will bring me back to my old life.

 

Is there a reason why you didn't O?

 

Day 10

 

Yes, because I feel that O'ing sets me back in controlling my urges. We've tried it twice, and both times the urges were very strong the day after.

 

Day 45

No urges yesterday! We went to the zoo and in the past, seeing the bodies of all kind of people could be a trigger for me. However, I felt that I wasn’t sensitive to that anymore. After that we tlreturned home and NY GF and I were intimate. We didn’t O and I didn’t notice any urges when waking up.

Work out:
We walked in the zoo. At home, I did a dumbbell workout with 20 push ups.

Netflix:
Watched an hour of The Good Place on Netflix. After that, it was tike to pick up my GF.

Meditation:
I again spent 10 minutes on my meditation, but this time it was a lot earlier than yesterday. After my meditation, I got a good night’s rest.

Your Brain On Porn / Study
I've read stories about porn addiction but find most of them very biased or very general. I think the challenge is to read those stories and apply them to your own life.

Sleep + evening routine:
Brought my GF home early, and started my routije just after that.

 

Day 46

No urges yesterday again! When feelings start to form, I think of the most disgusting thing I can think of. That works wonders to immediately be somewhere else with my thoughts. Had a relaxing day yesterday.

Work out:
I took a long walk yesterday evening and did my small workout. I see a few gains, as I do this workout every day.

Netflix:
Watched a documentary about the life of an elder autistic man and who still lives with his parents. His life and his parents life are forever affected. Had difficulty not watching the Good Place anymore. But it’s for the best.

Meditation:
I did a 15 minute meditation and did 2 kinds of meditation. The first kind of meditation is just to sit there and relax. The second kind of meditation was a box meditation where I have a specific breathing pattern: 4 seconds in, 2 seconds hold, 4 seconds out, 2 seconds out. I could feel all the tension leave from my body.

Your Brain On Porn / Study
I’ve read up about Karezza. Do some of you have experiences with this? When I'm intimate with my girl, it already feels like the focus is on really being present, not on the O. We don’t even O. Are there more things to Karezza that you can recommend?

Sleep + evening routine:
Started my evening routine nice and early. Had the time to really settle myself before I would go to bed. Felt really relaxed upon closing my eyes

 

So happy for you buddy. Sounds amazing. I think you're really on your way to change your life!

 

@vanquiii, where you at? Everything okay?

 

Day 47

It's quiet in urgeland. Sometimes it’s busy with urges and other times it’s quiet. When it’s busy, I know it will get quiet, and I will feel strong. When it’s quiet, I know it will get busy and that it will test my determination. And determination I have. I've built my streak through my routine and the support from my GF.

Work out:
I took a long walk yesterday evening.

Netflix:
Watched a documentary again for an hour and I found out how much I enjoy watching them. Always packed with information about life. Btw, I saw that I have lots of screentime. Have also set to minimize my screentime daily. Want to spend my energies on living, not on my telephone.

Meditation:
I did two kinds of meditation again yesterday evening. The first one was just sitting and relaxing and the second one was box breathing. Tension was really flowing from me and it seemed like I was very far away. I wasn’t asleep, but I was very deep inside of myself.

Your Brain On Porn / Study
I’ve read posts on NoFap for study. So many of you are doing so well! It's easy to start, but when it gets tough you need to persevere. I see that struggle happening a lot. When you are feeling that, please ask for help!

Sleep + evening routine:
I felt rotten yesterday, but I was able to start my routine early. Had the time to read a book and do my meditation.