Former fapper's diary

Hi guys!

I'm new here. I'm 18 years old and I come from Poland. From today's perspective I can say that I'm addicted from PMO.
Some time ago I discovered this website. It seemed to be very interesting for me, so I decided to view forum posts. That was incredible how many people want to quit masturbation and this thread happened to me noteworthy. That day I also decided to start my first NoFAP and I continue this until today. At the moment this is my 19th day and I'm proud that I managed to do it. My main goal is to survive at least 90 days.

Today I feel big urge and desire to watch porn. I'm seeking any excuses to do it. Almost I fapped, but I reminded myself about traveled distance and long-term profits.
I decided to create an account here, because I realised myself that there are people with similar problems, who can motivate another human. As a member of this amazing forum I'm obliged to fight against my own sick desires and help out other people!

Till next time!

 

Welcome back!

Today it's my 24th day of NoFap. I'm so confused, beacause when I woke up I realised that I had wet dreams. It's weird feel when your brain subconsciously want to do things, which you avoid in conscious way. After this night I started to gloat hatred PMO and it became for me just disgusting. But I enjoy the fact I can see positive results of the lack of PMO and it's encouraging not to relapse to previous state. Moreover, after reading many stories from the forum I feel committed for Fapstronauts to win with this demon, because I'm in easier situation than others who have achieved this!

 

Day #26

I feel amazing! I didn't suppose I am able to survive this period, but... I did this! Soon I'm going to reach the first target - 30 days. Just incredible!

 

Hello again!
Today I achieved my first goal - I survived 30 days without PMO. I can't believe it, because some time ago Porn was an integral part of my life and I believed people who told masturbation is healhy and necessary to normal life. At this point I know it's not true. I live without this much better, because as I mentioned before I have more energy to do anything and more often I perceive people as people with feelings not as sexual objects.
In the nutshell, so far my life has become simply valuable.

Maybe it's a small step, but I see big changes and I know the effort wasn't pointless. I want to thank users of this forum for a big support and motivation to action. I owe a lot to you.

Next goals - 60,90 and 1000 days! See you soon!

 

Day #51

Welcome again and Merry Christmas to everyone!
These holidays are just wonderful for me. Spending time with family is great opportunity to improve my social skills. I feel I'm becoming more outgoing and laid-back. It's easier I manage to find topics of coversation. Simple words can make me pleased and I'm very happy about this. Sometimes I don't recognize myself because of that.

But what about NoFap? I don't forget about this. I remember about beneftis of being 'clean' and I try to repress urges. At this moment it's much easier to control them. Everyday I get experience, which make me stronger and stronger. All the same I intend not to give ass since now I'm having one of the best times of my life!

 

Yeah, you also can do this. Just think about possible results of this action. When I started I knew that it would be hard at the beginning and... it was. I had a few situations when I almost failed, but browsing successful stories and reading about long-term benefits made me more invulnerable and durable.

So my friend... You're able to defeat this addiction, but you have to take concrete steps. I would like assure you that every step will be easier than previous. Good luck and stop fapping .

 

Dziękuję i mam zamiar tak trzymać .

 

Polish language is hard language. But you wrote correctly !

 

Yeah, but google translate really often makes mistakes, so i can tell that you are a lucky beggar .