***Monk Mode 2016***

aboot three days now. i want to get back to fasting again. it makes me feel way better.

got a good drunk going last night.

 

I'll try it. The no fantasizing part is going to be the most difficult part I think.

 

When you fantasize, go back into your body, the present moment, the scenery around you.

 

I'm in.

 

Day 4. Focus on your heart or your head if you have trouble staying on point. Manage your diet. Identify your little lifestyle vices. Sitting too much is a big one. Pinpoint what you need to do and have been putting off. Yes, I am talking to myself as much as you all. Make it so discipline is easy instead of hard. You're posting here, so I know you can do it. You want to do it.

 

A bit late, but I'm in!

 

Just stumbled over this side, created an account aaand count me in

 

A couple of observations: I tend to spiral out between starting and 3 weeks, but if I take a nap, I bounce back better than I was before. My emotions get stronger, so too the awareness of my environment, but it's not hypervigilance like when I'm high or PMOing too much. More like "I understand what's going on". I get tired less easily, but when I do get tired it tends to be more mentally than physically, as I said before: napping.

Spirituality woo woo deepak chopra warning, hard materialist atheist skeptics please look away.

Without fail I go through phases between each week that seem to correspond with the ayurvedic dhatus each which seem to manifest along a 4 day span. Around day 11-14 I get a stomach pain/pressure, which then intensifies, then goes away, then I feel it in my chest, then it goes away and a lot of my mental and emotional instability leaves me. I know ayurveda expressly says one should not repress one's sexuality, so too do the Taoists, but I like to live dangerously. Besides, I've been PMOing for 8 years, I deserve to rebuild some frittered away essence.

 

This is hard...

I went to the grocery store for a couple items and every single woman in the place looked good to me.

I am learning that this is going to take a fully intentional commitment and actions to back it up. Full participation.

I need to see this world and the people in it through new eyes

 

When you read writing on celibacy in the west or brahmacharya in the east, they say celibacy "in thought, word, and deed". The reason, I have found, is that desire in one aspect bleeds into the other aspects and causes you to fail. Perfect celibacy in thought and deed makes it much easier. I find it helps to focus on people's eyes and faces. Their "essence".

 

I'm in, starting today I'm back for good nofap.