Angry, Asshole all the time!

Just allow yourself to go right into the emotions that this all rises to the surface. Remember that the more streaks we embrace, the more foreign this journey becomes for many of us and we are not used to the different emotions that this path brings up.

Remember that emotions don't just come from nowhere. If it arises, it means it was there all along, and were probably just used to suppressing certain emotions with PMO, but now we've left that lifestyle behind, many raw emotions that we've not allowed ourselves to experience are now coming up. Just feel them. Don't run from them or squash them. Experience them and allow the emotions to exit your body, just by feeling it.

I'd also like to lastly advise that you consider doing more fun things on the side as well. What do you do to wind down? What do you do to relax, or to laugh? Life shouldn't just be work, work, work, you need to do fun things as well as a stress relief. Maybe consider joining a gym, and make sure you've got a good, balanced diet as well, as food can also have an effect on our mood.

 

Wow, what an interesting post! If I were to list each line of your post thematically, I might come up with a list that looks like this:

1. Porn, Masturbation, Depression
2. Angry, On Edge
3. On Edge, Meanness
4. Tough, Work, Struggle, Sick, Late
5. No Time, Work/Sleep, No Excuse
6. Edge-Type Personality, Strong Urges
7. High Stress, Angry, Frustration
8. Peace, Love, Brotherhood

Now, in that line 8 came from you, who are filled and bombarded with lines 1 through 7, what might you say is the source and the basis for line 8 qualities as living and existing within you, so that you recognize them and can, at the very least, wish these for others? Get to the core of the source of line 8 within your very self, and there you will find your answer. Tap into that source as a discipline and way of life, and that will be your solution for all the rest.

Best wishes!