Almost relapsed on Day 82....

It started yesterday when I wasn't even feeling honry or anything but I was a bit stressed out because of a major exam coming up next week. I started searching for pics and even though I have a blocker, I could still find some sexual pics here and there. I got hooked and wasted another 2 hours searching and searching but even though I didn't came across any nudes or porn, my addict part of the mind got activated and the next few hours were hell as the withdrawals started kicking in.

Couldn't sleep at night until 3 am and the next day which is today was also bad as the withdrawals were still there. On the positive side, I have not given up and I am feeling a bit better right now. I must have thought hundreds of times to give up but I am very glad that I didn't!

 

Thanks. The middle territory is very trick and dangerous. It's amazing how manipulative the addict mind can be. It always starts with a simple search or click on something innocent looking but it's all downhill from there. It's best to stop yourself right from the very beginning. I have about 4-5 blockers on my computer and yet I am able to find something that could easily make me relapse. The risky thing I am very sensitive at this stage; so even a small urge or trigger is able to create long lasting effect on me but I know it will get easier from now if I keep on fighting.

 

Thanks! All the best to you!

 

Sometimes I can't think straight. All I do is look for triggers around me if I am outside and I am constantly thinking about relapsing. Wet dreams have become frequent because of that. I am also stressed about a major exam I have next week. All these doesn't look good but I hope these withdrawals will end soon.

 

I know and in fact wet dreams helped me to release that pressure that I wouldn't when I am awake. Good luck for your exams!

 

Yeah sorry They don't count as reset.

 

I have had 3 so far and they all started after 45ish days. I have more sperm than I can carry.