Please Join me!!!!!

you are the hero .
your dedication guys is helping me to keep going

 

Quitting is not an option after quitting I pmod for three more times after relapse and I cannot believe I am still alive . How can I be still alive . God is not killing me . Maybe he is giving me another chance . If I die like this I would definitely go in hell. And here if live like this it would be more worse than hell . I don't know what to do . P and M are fake but they feel like so real . It is a test which I failed. I damned myself . I f..ked myself . I fd mylife . I have no power no confidence no handsomeness no courage my exams are something which I f..ked up. I was looking at my little sister playing outside the house . I would have gone too . But my intentions were never correct . I suffered all this because of leaving you guys . I would have never left you guys in the first place . I promise I will never leave or quit ever again . Because quitting is the worst thing you can ever do .My spine is paining badly . I cannot even how much destruction I have caused to myself including time wasting. Mentally I am completely consumed by my enemies . Crying is not an option . Pls hate me but just let me in the team for once again . My promise is something on which now even I don't believe . I have let not only you people or my friend TheRunner87 down but my parents too . Maybe I donot belong to them I am a waste . I am downcast and falling deep into the pit .

 

Hey Superman64
first of all take it easy on your self the more you overthink about it the more you will get deeper into the pit , don't say that you don't have power or confidence don't keep telling yourself that because it is not true
you have all the power Take each day as its own day, and don't worry about it if you mess up one day. The most important thing you can do is just get back up on the horse because in the end life is not a straightforward line it is a journey

so keep trying and take it step by step .. just be stubborn and eventually you will succeed i F**en know it "D

 

ummmm do you people know I the greatest cowards of all time M again just after 15 min again. I created biggest failure record in my whole life time . To M 5 times in two days . after finishing I was laughing at myself . Now I believe I am not myself any more . My little sis is still playing outside. Now I don't want to live any more . That stinky smell is caged in my mind . Those bitching bitxhes are into my mind and for the first time I am afraid of them . sitting between them and crying like a coward . NO man I am not human anymore . I swear I don't want to live anymore. But either I cannot even die . This is a curse on me worse than death .It is beyond grief where tears stops to fall. I would rather save my biggest enemy from this curse and subject him death. I am just 18 and I am suffering like I have killed the whole humanity . I have no family . I don't deserve a family . I have had enough chances . I don't believe that I am myself anymore . THese things that I am writing have stopped effecting me . I cannot sit anymore . I used to be bright student who stood first in the class . The one whom girls liked in the college. Now I don't even hate myself . Because its useless . People who say they have recovered it are luckiest beings in this universe . God helped them because they wanted to helpthemselves. BUt I don't even want to help myself . What kind of curse is this . Maybe it is disease worse than cholera , dengie, typhoid , cancer,tumor,it is even worse than death .
PEOPLE PLEASE I BEG I REQUEST YOU JUST DONT DO IT EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD SAYS IT TO DO M P OR S OR O ANYTHING JUST DONT . I WOULD BUY IT TO GO AWAY FROM ME AT THE COST OF ALL MY MONEY WIFE GF FRIENDS CHILDREN ALL THE WEALTH THAT I CAN EARN IN FUTURE. I PROMISE I WILL LIVE A NEUTRAL LIFE WITH NO JOYS BUT PLS TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME . I DONT WANT IT TO RESIDE IN ME . I WAS BLESSED WITH IT BUT I MISUSED IT .NOW I DONT DESEREVE IT . PLEASE TAKE IT AWAYYYYYYY FROOOOM MEEEEEEEEE.
i hate to stay at day 0

 

@Superman64
U can do it man , U seems to have a bad estime about yourself . But listen
- first u have to think positive . Why ? because if u think that its impossible for you .u CANT do it

Fail is NORMAL , all of us fail ( i fail more than 3 mouth - 1 years ) , ALL of us reach a point of life when life dosnt have a good taste ( depression ) . But u know what , u can change . and thats the most awsome and beautiful part about it .

everyone who try to beat is addiction is awsome , people who dont listen and never learn are the worst , because during all they life they will put the fault to the other !
But you ! u know what happend you know that you have to change , and u try to change so dont say so many bad thing about you !

i want to help you and i thing the best ways to start is to ''understand everything about porn , and addiction ''
So the first step is to understand ! NOT only about PORN and addiction . But about ''Fear'' , fear to fail , procrastination , confort zone , cold shower , how to study ( because porn , kill concentration ... and motivation ) , depression . and all other stuff like that . BECAUSE if u do the NOFAP challenge ONLY ... but still eat a lot of food , procrastinating , watch funny YT video all the day ...... there is no point , u will not be happy .

https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...annels-books-and-more-for-dealing-with.67419/ ( look about the video that i post in 2 commentary )

 

and i also think that , if u have other addiction ... or watch a lot of funny YT video all the day . ur going to FAIL
but im maybe wrong , maybe u can do it step by step ! . but if u try and fail u have to LEARN about it .
( for me i understand that i cant win against miself .... and 1 day i LEARN about it . and i say to miself ''hentai picture ARE PORN'' , start watching PICTURE , or go to this kind of site ''ARE PORN'' ''ITS A FAIL''

yeah u need discipline if that can help you . there is not ''just one picture'' .. its YES or NO ! ( some guy block all the porn site .. and i think it can help at the begin )
also u need 21 day to break an habit ( for porn maybe more because its an addiction , but after 30 day .... the difficulty is not higer than during the first 20 day )

 

@Superman64,
I have fallen countless times. I got back up and I know you will rise again. Be good to yourself. I totally understand the pain and have been to some dark pits of pure despair and oblivion. You're young. You can begin again. Maybe you needed a final lesson. Be good to yourself.

 

"Day 5 " done
tip - if you use your phone to watch P before you sleep
then close your phone and put it in the farthest room in the house and close the door "D
it's common sense but it has worked for me

 

Going back on track again for Day 3

Dear Superman, please join me and lets start our battle again, life is a lot more enjoyable with challenges

 

Damn, guys I've lost you because NoFap stopped sending me notifications.

 

@Superman64, we really miss you, you are our brother in arms and a shining example for us at the same time. Rejoin us if you want to live a life you want to live through.

 

@Superman64 .......we can start again brother. There's no shame if you use this to rise again and soar past your previous self. You can be Super!

 

Thank you thank you brothers I love the you people support . For a moment I totally lost myself but I can say that happens when you loose . So please use my experience and don't loose again .All that was 100 percent true . I wanted to kill myself but that was something which I also cannot do . But it's never too late . I can still suceed . PMO it is fake . It looks like it is reality because of its strongness but that bitch is fake I can swear that bitch is fake . And the bad thing is that you can only know this after you fail. And before it seems like nothing is more real than PMO. P is bitch p is bitch shit . P is ass shit . P is camel shit . I am not a shit that eat or see shit . It stinks and it makes me stink too . I have changed my bathroom .
Today is day 1 . I had 6 encounters . But that shit cannot defeate me again . Iwas feeling sad . But know I am sort of ok . That shit better stay away from me . Starting again . PMO is dead bros . PMO is nothing . PMO is for immatures . PMO is for jackasses. Who do p are ........ummm well the words lack
Tip .
Don't watch p . Don't go to bathroom . Don't be alone . And I guarantee you nothing can make you eat the shit . Practice it will take time . Don't fear thoughts no matter how strong they are .
What caused me too loose was going to bathroom .

 

I need you in the team all the time

 

Hi guys,
I am on day 2.
And now I came to know that watching funny videos on YT also triggers me. I was able to hold it for almost 17 days. But after that I stopped NoFap. And I think that was the mistake I did. I should not stop NoFap.
@Superman64
Bro, you are not alone. We all are same like you. We all fail after our promises. It's like our inner side waits until we make some promise, the moment we make the promise, the urge attacks us.
I was very careful initially, but slowly I became careless about it. I haven't locked my safari yet. And I think I should do that now. I used to think that I can control myself. But later I realise that my mind plays with me very smartly. He takes me there slowly. Very slowly.
But no issues. With the support of toh all guys, I can do it.

 

I'm in. I have reached 54 days before but recently (pretty much all year) I have done crappy and now thinking about it I hate it and want to get back to Nofap. 90 days is a long time but if we take it one day at a time and help each other, every single person on this thread can make it to that milestone.

 

Thanks to notice about YT funny video . Also i think the Reward system is very important .... if u watch funny video , or look porn all the day .... and THEN try to study
1) porn ... kill your concentration , ( thats why i never dream during mi addiction )
2) u dont have motivation to study ...

But the REAL goal ... is to STUDY (beat procrastination ) and then ''reward yourself'' ( its 25 minute of study for 5 min of reward ).
AND u will also be PROUND about what u did ( study , learn ) and thats an other kind of reward ... A little like the game DARK SOULS . the game is hard ( for beginner ) so u can die at the boss 10 time ..... but when u kill it you are REALY REALY HAPPY ( because u put so much effort to do it , because its was not a ''easy win )

I also realise about all this FAKE , EASY pleasure ... for exemple ''chocolate'' 'cake' ... im not a real fan of sugar now .... but when there is a cake i eat 1 piece ... and it was good .
But then the next day i eat 3 piece .... and u know what , It was not realy good ... not so much pleasure that only one

 

We can all get there. If we've ever had 1 day we can go 10,000 days. Shine bright. Let's do this not only for ourselves but our families, our communities, brothers and sisters we'll meet down this road who will need our help.........

 

Day one is done I know we can do it.