A 20 year old's story of how porn has severely affected my life

I have been watching porn since i was 11 years old, masturbating since before i was even physically able to have an orgasm, masturbated with porn all the way up until last night, but now i have had enough and am going to quit this once and for all. Used to every night before bed while i was in school i would stay up to sometimes 2 am or later jerking off with porn and waking up and 7 am worn out and going to school, my grades never did suffer but i do think if it wasn't for porn i could've done a lot better. In school i was never really quite the most popular guy, never had a serious girlfriend or boyfriend (i'm bisexual), never really knew what to say to a girl or guy i was interested in, and if i expressed my interest it would pretty much be taken as a joke or something like that. Since I graduated high school in 2014 pretty much all i have done is sit around most of my days with porn and masturbation, not getting anything done and feeling tired and easily pissed off all the time. I have gotten into some strange porn and fetishes,which whenever I get done masturbating i always question how i got into that and why i liked it, and feel ashamed about it. I have no health problems but i pretty much feel like a zombie all the time (Always tired, can not focus on anything very easily, no interests in anything, no motivation, etc). My dating and social life is something that doesn't exist, which many people can not figure out why because i am a very good looking guy with a nice house, can be nice at times, two newer cars, and quite a bit of money. I had one sexual experience with another male about two years ago but that was a total fail because i could not get hard for it (and super embarassing) I've wanted to quit masturbating and porn for the longest time, and i figured that there is no better time than now to do so. I am going to do this and i am NOT going to fail, i have done a lot of research and read a lot of other's stories and the thing i want most from this is just to feel like a healthy, alive person again! Wish me luck everybody!!!!

 

Thanks for the reply! I will keep everybody posted!