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will horrifying fetishes caused by escalation go away?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Dovaferret, Oct 30, 2016.

  1. Dovaferret

    Dovaferret Fapstronaut

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    I have been an addict since i was about 12 and through the years I have developed increasingly depraved desires to keep me able to get aroused by porn. When I was young I was aroused by incest. But to my shame in the last few years I developed a taste in bestiality. Now in the last year I have had the overwhelming desire some nights for... underage stuff. Now while I have never actually found porn involving underage. I have seen a few naked online. This makes me feel such guilt that sometimes I want to hang myself to kill the monster growing inside me. The thing is I have no sexual attraction to kids/teens, or animals in real life. But its like the taboo of the thing turns me on. Will this go away If I can break my addiction or If not what should I do? Side note I developed many of these attractions through dreams I had. If I dreamed a certain fetish I would eventually develop it. Please be nice I know how easily it is to get inflamed at a topic like this, but know I would never actually hurt anyone or anything. Thats the whole reason I am so horrified. I've seen just about everything.
     
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  2. SnowWhite

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    It's absolutely clear that you are using your arousment like a drug. You use that drug for escaping from reality. To escape from making decisions and doing things right.
    I suggest you to seek professional help. BTW. I made enormous progress with the use of hypnosis. I was lucky to find a really good professional who helped me tremendously. I havbe no more depressions, and that's like a wonder and a new life.
     
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  3. As the addiction becomes worse you have to "feed the mister" with an ever-growing more intensity of fetish/rabbi porn--it's called desensitization. You need to stop immediately and I would most certainly go talk to a therapist. You can beat this but you've got to start now.
     
  4. Dovaferret

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    What kind of professional though? I feel like most therapists don't want to jump in on that kind of subject?
     
  5. Plenty of therapists specialize in the sexual realm. Call and ask around till you find one. Any therapist worth their degree has some experience in the area of sex and/or addiction. If you can find one that has helped porn addiction you've hit it.
     
  6. fuzzywaz

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    "but know I would never actually hurt anyone or anything"
    You already have, whether you act out your fantasy irl or not. Consuming that type of material is adding to the demand. Those children are destroyed already and it is because of the people who make the material and because of those who consume it- equally. Don't dare let yourself off the hook when you are contributing to destroying another human being's life. Stop now. Get help now. There is no excuse.
     
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  7. Dovaferret

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    This point I would have to disagree with. The material I accidently stumbled upon was actually photos from a nudist pageant. No girls were certainly harmed as it would be the same as seeing nude naked children in Africa. While this doesn't excuse my desire, I don't believe I would ever actually look at child abuse of any kind, it is the constant temptation that is bothering me
     
  8. fuzzywaz

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    Your words..... Do you really think this is the time to be making excuses for yourself...... I can only assume you wrote about your desires in some kind of cry for help. No one is going to pat you on the back for not following through YET. Like everyone else on this thread has commented: GET HELP FOR YOURSELF IMMEDIATELY!
     
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  9. fuzzywaz

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    No healthy childhood involves participating in "nudist pageants" JFC give your head a shake.....
     
  10. Dovaferret

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    The question I posted really had nothing to do with your answer. You are acting like my desire is somehow my fault. I'm not excusing it, and I will seek help. But since I have so far battled my desires against this and won I don't see why you act like I'm hurting someone. The concern is whether or not the desire will go away not that I am consuming it.
     
  11. Dovaferret

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    I honestly believe if a society doesn't sexualize children then why would there be an issue? Of everyone is nude then it isnt a sexual issue. That's a different debate though.
     
  12. fuzzywaz

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    It's not really about "fault". Your actions are your actions. You state yourself you have attempted some searches to satisfy your craving. When you are at the point of searching out child porn, I think a little frankness is in order. But by all means, if what I wrote doesn't apply to you, carry on.
     
  13. recoome

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    i guess you'd be embarrassed to seek professional help and its all right. i understand its not easy to speak about it.
    but it's important you do before you end up making a mistake you regret for life.
    i was told to speak to a psychiatrist and i didnt. ended up with a breakdown.
    sexual addiction or any porn addiction isnt easy to beat. it's super hard and one cannot rely on willpower.
    if and if you end up making a grave mistake, no amount of praying, crying will let you go back in time.

    i strongly suggest seek help. for ur own sake.
     
  14. Dovaferret

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    I'll say it once again. I've never looked for child porn.
     
  15. Dovaferret

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    I guess I should have been more specific when I said underage. I'm a year out of high school and I'm talking about 14-18 range. It's a hard issue to really debate because in Germany 14 is legal. I'm a history nut and it isn't until the last 100 years or so 18 was really the age of consent. So I think that's why I'm having so much trouble in my mind. I want help, I'll seek it. But no one has yet answered my question. I wasn't asking what to do. I was asking if escalation fetish go away after abstinence from porn.
     
  16. recoome

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    i was addicted to gay porn and have watched hardcore stuff of those kind. abstinence has helped to some extent. i dont have urges to watch the same fetish i've seen earlier. the urges are still there but not so strong bad.

    i dont think the urges will ever go away. but if i watch fetish porn, i feel nauseous now.
     
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  17. Dovaferret

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    Actually a lot of Europe is 14 a.o.c.
    Not saying its right.
    Light teal on chart.[​IMG]

    Yes I know I have a problem. That's not the question I have though.
     
  18. h215

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    Hey bro,

    I've read some really misinformed comments here, hope you don't take them all too serious...

    It seems most people don't understand the basics about an addiction.

    First, I would reccomend you (in case you haven't yet) to start reading the website yourbrainonporn, it contains a lot of informations about this addiction.

    Second, don't get paranoid with this porn tastes you've developed, they can and will reduce once you reboot your brain. Use this porn tastes as motivators for you to get rid of this addiction once and for all.

    Regarding porn, there are a lot of personal reports in the internet about people watching gay porn even though they are hetero sexual and don't have any homosexual atraction in real life... (its just theirs brain seeking for novelty and the same principle apllies for you here).

    Also, in case you keep going with this addiction be aware that your fantasies will keep turning creepier and creepier...

    All the best man.
     
  19. Dovaferret

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    Bestially is actually legal in my state jsuk. Not that I would do it. He's right though in the sense that I have no attraction to children irl. Which is why this desire creeps me out so much. I feel like you are worried I'll go rape a child or something. Even that time I did accidently find the nudists, I didn't even enjoy it. It's like my brain was telling me I would, but in reality it didn't do anything for me. Yet my brain still is like "hey maybe next time". I feel like maybe my fetish is more for experimentation. Even worse.
     
  20. h215

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    The gay porn I mentioned was just an example and, as I said, the same principle applies to what is happening to our friend here...

    He just escalated his porn fetishes to extreme materials due to excessive porn usage.

    Once he gives up porn his fetishes will go back to normal again.

    Fake till you become, I suggest you fake to be more empathetic with people till you become it.

    All the best
     
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