crack in the castle of glass

hlo guys.i am 16 years old.i am masturbating from like 1 year now i am feel really bad,i feel like an asswhole.i have tried so many time to stop it.but never reached more than 10 days.i am fed up and idk what to do.i was searching youtube how to stop masturbating then i came to know about this site,its my first time with such type of sites i hope it help me and you too. who ever is reading this pls tell me how i should stop myself

 

i stop using social networking sites i just use internet for like 1 hour at most.just to talk with friend or play games that all

 

day 1

my day was pretty interesting.i wake up on like 9 am,went to a library at 10,spend my 5 hours there studying books.they are pretty interesting.then i go to my school to pay the fees(new session is starting that why),spend my time with my friends,talking about how horrible our result was lol.i got one boner when i was reading a news paper cz there was so many girls on that printed on it.i stop reading it at that god damn moment and went outside and eat two burgers lol.then i went to tuition for 3 hours and just returned home tired asf i cant even masturbate if i wanna cz i am that much tired lol.but i wont that why i am here lol

 

day 2

gotta say it was a strange day.i didnt feel horny not a bit,i was trying to make myself as much busy as i can.it help alot,i was so busy doing other stuffs that i was not even able to think about porn,i try my best to stay away from girls(that type of girls) in my class.i was just keep minding my business,but trust me music is best for reboot

 

day3

todays day was really boring,idk how i break my routine,i had to sleep till 12 at night but tomorrow i was awake for like 4 am i was playiing game,i feel really bad,about it idk why time passes playing games,i go to sleep at 4 than wake at 8 than for two hours i was awake,i was listening to music and i fall asleep,and wake up at 3,i feel bad that i break my routine,i use 9gag also for fun and keep my mind distracted but now i am thinking i should stop using i and playing games too and use internet to post about my day here only.i live in india,i am in 12class ,in india future of child is decided from 12th,i always try to keep my concentration on studing but after 8 pm urges start it is very difficult to concentrate on study,the urges are so bad,most of the time i am alone in my room which make it further more difficult,idk how control last night i was about to do m but i stop myself it was very hard,my mind was like fuck fuck fuck release it come on,i wa snot able to fall asleep because of my mind stupid fantasies,i was trying my best to not touch my p,and it worked i fall asleep i wa shappy about it but sad that i break my routine.

 

day 4

it was a good day overall,wake up early i read newspaper and spend my time with my family,study for like 1 hour then i went to library(it is a good way to avoid urges and mood).spend my time there but i lost my book and library id idk i have to pay for the book now,but it is not a point to worry on,i am really happy,there were no urges and boner today idk why.my mind too didn't create any fantasies today.my mind was clear not distraction like i used to have earlier.my 12th class session is starting in few days,i have to go school as well as tuition and library ,which will make me real busy and i will be happy because i will not able to sit and think about fantasies.