DAY 128! How i became an addict, how PIED afflicted me, how i'm defeating it. The entire story

Hi to everyone, as you can deduce by the title this is a long story so i decided to upload a file.
I really hope that this story could inspire you a little bit

 

Hi PotentLife, thank you very much for your answer. It's a 5 pages Word file, i preferred uploading the file 'cause i thought that maybe it was easier to read than here but if you want i can copy and paste the entire text. If i have to write a little "abstract", this post talks about my entire sexual life since i was 12 (now i'm 24), the birth of my porn addiction (mostly about muscular girls), my 4 years relations in which i discovered my PIED problem and finally about my last months, the period of my reboot that let me see already very good results.
I think that it could be an interesting story to read (i've been very precise about wet dreams, morning woods, erections with girls) but i strive to know what u guys think about it... in fact it's the first time that i share my secret life with someone, and i think that NoFap is the best place to do it.
I really hope that you can trust me but if u prefer i'll copy and paste the entire post.
By the way, my name is Federico

 

Hi @GivingItUp , thank u very much for taking the time to read my story.

 

Thanks @GuitarDude , let me know your feedback

 

Thank you very much @BruceD , i obviously agree with you. The main thing that made me understand that my passion for muscular girls was kind of fetish was the fact that i wouldn't like going out with one of them, but in fact i liked them only in front of my computer. I'd love instead being in a relationship with a fit girl and i'm certainly not ashamed of it.
But this is a quite superficial point of view, i have to say that during my reboot i really started to fantasize less about sex and to be more connected to girls (and people in general), sex is something beautiful but it has to be a consequence of attraction and not something to be obsessed by, at least this is my point of view. It's strange, in fact thanks to the reboot i'm much more arousable but i think about sex in a healthier way and not objectifying women (i never did it so much but more than know that's for sure); before the reboot although i had less libido i fantasized much more.

 

I understand you perfectly... but i can assure you that time is the better medicine and it works. Today i'm 130 day free and in these months my interest towards that kind of fetish is almost disappeared. I cannot already say that i've beat it but the road is becoming brighter and brighter.

 

Thanks for your reply @PotentLife I'm glad to see that i'm not the only one on this forum with this kind of passion. Like i said before, thanks to my personal experience (and you've see how fucked up i was), things are going better and better. It's clear that everyone has his own preferences for what concerns female bodies, i think that i'll never be aroused by a super thin woman as i am by an athletic one, and i don't see any problem in this, it's perfectly normal. The problem has been the fact that my natural sexual preference created PIED because of massive PMO so that i was no more able to have sex with my girlfriend without fantasizing about muscular women and this thing shocked me. But it's never too late to change

 

Thank @GuitarDude , good luck to you Ahahah, my "wild sexual encounter" it's a funny definition but it doesn't fit the reality at 100%. In fact i'm really into Sara now, and i want her to leave his boyfriend, otherwise she could no more have me 'cause i don't like this situation (thursday we'll meet and we'll talk about it). For me by the way it's fundamental an intellectual attraction (and sentimental of course) towards a girl, a phisical attraction isn't enough to have sex and the demonstration is that i refused to have an intercourse with a random friend of a university colleague in Mars... she was pretty but really insignificant to me. I know that i've been very synthetic on the sentimental side of my story but i can assure you that i'm not a "bad guy" .
P.s. i'd like to say that with nofap you're
gonna suffer no more 'cause of sentimental feelings but obviously it's not true, actually the emotions are stronger i think.

 

It's absolutely time to "cut the cord" and resetting your natural sex drive and it's absolutely possible. I see by your counter that you're on your fifth day... keep it strong, these are the most difficult days, when you arrive about to 15 days you'll start to have stronger defenses.

 

Sadly it's more than normal relapsing, you don't know how many times i did it It would be too easy if in the moment when you decide to stop PMO you did it without relapsing anymore...it's a long way. But every single day of your old streak is not deleted, it's part of your past and it makes you stronger to start a better streak, you only have to be patient and determined.
Today i'm reaching the 20 weeks mark and you can't imagine how easy it's now abstaining from PMO... in fact i don't think no more about masturbating at all. Sometimes i find myself fantasizing, it's normal after only 20 weeks of rebooting with an experience of 12 years of dipendence, but it didn't transform into the urge of ejaculating. Trust me