Porn induced HOCD

So basically I am very new to this site found out about it like 2 weeks ago and thought it was a very good site but anyway. So about 1 month ago he random thought of am I gay popped into my head and I totally freaked out and thought and thought I was gay but after a while I finally calmed down and told myself that I am not gay because of all the experiences I've had in my life. I know deep down I am not gay because I have had a very strong attractive to girls since I can remember I even remember chasing around a girl when I was about 5 with a boner the list is endless about how many straight experiences I've had. But not to go on abit of background information I'm 14 nearly 15 year old and have had about 7 gfs in my life kissed and hugged them all and got erections from them all but I won't go on about my straight experiences. But yh anyway about a month ago I had this thought that was I gay that weirdly just popped into my head and the only thing that was giving these thoughts alot of oxygen was what I had masturbated to in the past. So yes I admit it in the past I have masturbated to transwoman, bi and gay but he gay porn has only been about once or twice I feel ashamed even typing it of what I've masturbated to in the past but I think because of all the porn I've watched since about 10 for 4 years staright porn kinda twisted what I naturally liked so at the beginning it was staright then it got into lesbian and then like milf and granny , fetishes, gangbang and even rape. I know this is bad for my age but it was the endless days of watching porn. I would usually watch lesbian porn for about 2 hours each day and masturbate about 2-3 times over it and that's when the bi and transwoman came in. I started to get bored of lesbian and staright porn and looked for something new something out of the box, weird and naughty and thats when I found bi porn with 2 guys and a girl. When I watched this I would tend to watch the girl alot and even when watching gay/bi/transwoman porn deep down I felt ashamed, guilty and thought that it wasn't me especially after I climaxed I would get very depressed and guilty and think what have I just done I'm not gay or bi and then would tell myself I'm not looking at this again but ended up going back after about a month of solid lesbian and staright porn watching. I've started he nofap journey about a week ago got to 6 days and all these thoughts about being gay and checking for erections with bi imagery in my head had gone and even when and image came into my head I didn't get any erections and I even felt sick just thinking about it. I have got an amazing gf who I really love I know I'm only 14 but I do but I feel like if these thoughts stay it's going to effect the relationship. So I really appreciate the time for someone who has read this I know I'm not gay or bi it's more or less how porn twisted and made me look at stuff I would never of deep down. Thanks for reading p.s this is really something to get off my chest because I have been thinking about it none stop for about an entire month. And oh yh I'm on day 1 of my nofap journey today hopefully it can be a lifetime.

 

Also just to add I have never found a man attractive in my life and honestly I feel sick of the idea of being with one and doing something sexual with one and I am not homophobic in anyway I don't have anything against homosexuals or people of any sexual orientation and also have always been certain on my sexuality in being straight the thoughts of being gay only occured about 1 month ago just wish they will go away hope rebooting and rewiring will help and make me become myself again

 

@BoBo129 thanks for the response I am starting my reboot today this is day 1 and I'm gonna try to not relapse again and I hear what your saying thanks for your time to read it and answer, really appreciate it

 

I will I'm on day 3 now and I can honestly say that it has got better even after 2 days I felt a big difference thanks for the response

 

Thanks for the response I am on day 3 now and I'm starting to see the difference

 

Thanks so much for the response I've stopped now I'm on day 3 and I can say. That these intrusive thoughts have not been popping up as much now I can already start to see a difference even when I was looking at my girlfriend the other day we made eye contact and I got an erection, sorry for the cringe but I see a difference but thanks agian for the response really appreciate it