60 Days PMO Journey. [Day by Day]

Information about my problem [I hope this will be useful for someone who has similar problem like i do]. I am in relationship for little more than 3 months, few days ago i was grinding with my SO, and when i was about to reach orgasm i lost erection, i was scared, because she noticed [She thinks that she is a problem]. Then we talked and i told her that i think that i know where the problem lies, that porn was main problem and then she got mad at me at first, because i am with her and still watch porn, she felt cheated in some way. After a while we sorted things out.

On May 9th i decided to start this 60 journey without PMO. So here i will write my feelings, my body reactions during this first 60 days, i hope i will reset everything to default.

9. May 2017. - Day 1

Actually this is not day 1 without PMO, but the time i started this challenge, this should be day 2 or 3. I feel no urge to PMO, to be honest i am scared by this issue. Few days ago when problem with losing my erection occured, i think it happened because i was scared of what will happen, i am ashamed. That evening i took cold shower, it felt great, for my whole body and mind.

10. May 2017. - Day 2

In the evening i was with my girl, i was little horny, not very much, but my body didn't respond, maybe with some slight erection, some 50% hardness. I think its way to early to notice any change. Here is a little info about my PMO habits. In last 2-3 months i used to mastrubate almost everyday, two sessions max, that lasted 30 minutes each, some days i skipped, when i was busy. I don't think that i have severe problem, but its still the problem that i need to solve and stop it being even worse than it is.

11. May 2017. - Day 3

I feel better when i am writing this journal, i guess that i will see progress by writing everything down, it could also be useful for others. I didn't had the urge to PMO since when i was scared few days ago by losing erection. When i was with her last night, i noticed only one erection when i was lying next to her, maybe 50% hardness. I have morning wood, but for a short time, and not so hard. I am not depressed but i am in bad mood.

 

Could it be that i am already in flatline, even after few days? I am in bad mood, i am not horny at all, the erections i get are mild, my libido is at low point.

 

12. May 2017. - Day 4

Day 4 was very interesting. It started with morning wood that didn't last long, and only 50% hardness. During the day i had some urges to watch porn and release myself, but i resisted (probably because urges weren't strong). I had mood swings, firstly i was in bad mood, unmotivated and later during afternoon i had sudden change to good mood, i was motivated and i had energy. Right after i finished with my job, i done some PC Kegel Exercises and i felt strong tension down there, it felt great. Afterwards i did some strenght exercises, including ones for abdominal muscles. I also took cold shower and i felt amazing.

Good news is that during my private time with my SO i had erection that was little stronger, like some 60% hardness, and lasted longer, i was happy. At some point we were rubbing eachother without pants and i was almost about to ejaculate but i stoped. I think this is a good thing, she also noticed. I also noticed that i had more personal connection with her during this time, i focused myself on sensations with her, that i felt down there.

 

Hey there my friend I see that we are in similar situation here, i hope we will get through this. If you are interested you can keep looking into my journal, i will update everyday.

 

13. May 2017. - Day 5

Day 5 was ordinary, i felt something down there, like he was waking up, i also had some urges to masturbate, but i easily resisted. Mood swings , from bad to good vibes. I had energy for workout, did some push ups with weighted vest. Also Kegel exercises and Cold shower. Can anyone tell me how testosterone affects reboot? What if i naturaly boost my testosterone levels, will it help recovering faster?

 

How is it going for you? Can you feel anything down there, how is your mood?

 

14. May 2017. - Day 6

My day started with morning wood, not hard as rock, i am still not satisfied. I had some crawling erections during day 6, i could feel my buddy waking up, i even had one erection while lying down on bed on my stomach, felt happy . Didn't had time to think about porn during that day, which is a good thing. I wondered few times when i am going to be cured, it's too early i know. Did some kegels and had few cold showers during the day.

15. May 2017. - Day 7

In two hours it will be end of first week without PMO, thats something, i can't remember how long it passed when i was without PMO for such long, it had to be when i was on vacation in 2010. i think it was 15 days streak. My next goal will be two weeks, looking forward for some changes. I was with my girl today but i had some weak ass erections, i was disapointed... Maybe i overthink too much, who knows?

 

Keep it up, you are not far behind me Do you feel some improvements, can i know some information about your journey?

 

Thank you for this Timeline, i have to save it somewhere to remind myself! I have same improvements in this seven days, i have my confidence back, i feel aggressive, especially toward guys that act tough when i go out, i feel like i want to knock their teeth out (please don't judge me for this one ). Getting under cold showers without any problem. Managing my time, i have done a lot this seven days. Only thing i don't have is sexual vivid dreams, but we will see

 

16. May 2017. - Day 8

My day started without MW, i don't know why, but in previous days i had MW (soft ones). 30 minutes after i woke up, i did some workout (push ups, pull ups...), and i took cold shower right after that, i felt amazing, really alive. I think i am still under brain fog, even though 7 days have passed, but i am feeling more alive by each day, which is a good thing. No mood swings during day 8, i had constant feelings, something in between. Later in the day i felt some erections, like my penis being awaken again, but it lasts for only short few minutes, i also noticed that size increased slightly. (i got to admit that i am happy even with this improvements). I took sunbathe during afternoon, ride my bike in the evening and did some jogging, i hope that being phisically active helps speed up recovery. Also i must mention, i had erection when i saw my SO in changing room in mall, i think i am going to recover fast since i can get erection just by looking (even thou erection was weak).

 

17. May 2017. - Day 9

I noticed something different today, while i was watching a movie with my girlfriend, i felt emotions and in few scenes i left a tear, and i knew that before i couldn't feel such a strong emotions, but it looks like now i can feel something, i kinda feel like a human being today. I also think i did something wrong today, i got a HJ from my SO, does that count as a relapse? I didn't watch porn nor i masturbated for 9 days already. Will kissing, cuddling, hugging speed up the recovery process? Will HJ from SO speed it up too? Please help with this, i need to know.

 

18. May 2017. - Day 10 Without PM Day 1 Without O

I noticed that my penis is slightly increased. Also i had biggest urge since i started this journey, i felt angry and agressive and i wanted to blast everything on porn. (agressivness caused because i was arguing with my girlfriend, nothing big). I also had exercises in morning and cold showers during the day. When i started this didn't tought that i will feel slightest urge, because first 9 days were SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION, but this day 10, i wouldn't say that i had powerfull urge, but it was much stronger that i had before. I won't update for two days because i am on road, i will update everything when i return.

 

19. May 2017. - Day 11 Without PM Day 2 Without O

My penis size increased, also the size when its not in erection, and size when it is. I had erection that lasted for 10-15 minutes while i was on road. Didn't had time and i forgot to do Kegel exercises, but i did not forgot to take cold showers.

20. May 2017. - Day 12 Without PM Day 3 Without O

While taking shower in the evening i noticed my penis being even bigger, this thing is working. I haven't tought about porn and masturbation for more than 12 days, which is record breaking for me, and i don't even feel urge anymore, i won't go back, fuck it. I have been thinking for some time, you know how they always use to say that masturbation is healthy, that watching porn is perfectly normal? What if they do it on purpose to destroy today's generation of men, to turn them in weak beings, that can easily be controlled? Call it a conspiracy theory, but everything is possible.